Everyone will Changed!!!

Why must everyone change, change can but into a better person for that I dun mind but everyone looks like change from bad to worst. I regret to ask her to come back to my group, should I leave her alone but I can't bear to see her alone... That's the problem with me now because of her everything breaks down I just feel like leaving this world and and let be themselves... I want them to tell me how I change but they simply kept tellin me the positive things thats why now I have changed to a person who they can't really accept and they tell me I had changed. And they say is because of my friend who had changed me, I don't understand as I know the whole group hate her to the max so I do not know should I listen to them or not... I am filled with troubles in my mind, I had hand it all to God and I feel much better, Amen... Hahax learnt from Jeremy kor always like to say Amen... Lol... Now I don't even know how to see them or maybe I will ask for a change of my position and I will not see anyone from my group... So they will not say anything about me and my friend... THEY ARE JUST SO CRUEL!!! SHE HURT ME TOO MUCH AND SHE DON'T KNOW... ;' ( I feel so sad but not angry at all only disappointed with her... I cried for so many days and this is the first time i had been so weak in my whole life and the reason for this is becuase of Her...

There are a few ppl who I wanted to mentioned as they are my Godbrothers and Godsisters and they were the one who helped me, cheer me up when I'm down... They are Jeremy, Suria, Sufiandi, Guan Seng, Ameera , Shahirah and Jamie... I need to Thanks them alot as they are always there for me haha...

At last....

Hurray wat a surprise I improved my maths hehe so great... Thanks to God always there to help me... After knowin tt I got 23/24 I was so shocked and my teacher praised me haha so happy lol... My teacher wa teachin my class a meanin of a chinese word and she called my name and she said I was the type of person those gentle type, I was so blur at tt time as my fren was beside me tokin to me and I did not really pay attention and suddenly my name was called and whole class was lookin at me den they started sayin I where got gentle so rough... I felt tt too...
Then for my maths teacher he called my name to get back our test paper my paper was at the last few piece and I think I am not goin to do well for this test but then he called me I went to collect tt time he said well done to me... Did I heard it wrongly again, cos the previous test he said the same thing to me and I was so disapointed for wat I've got... But as for now I really need to thanks Lord as I got the chance to teach a few of my frenz and they did improve alot even though they fail I will still continue to teach them till they pass...
Oh no somethin bad happen to me I started to speak things tt are bad like Stupid, Idiot and many more and sumtime worst I say vulgarities accidentally...These words are so bad I dun like lor I need to change and must refresh my mind filled with nonsence as they are all taught by my frenz sigh... Why must I learn from them and the phrase Shit You lar also must change cos very not nice sigh...
Haha today RHD celebration in school and I wore my frens ethnic clothes quite nice lar but the only thing is very difficult to sit, either on the floor or on the chair. Cos is a skirt mah so very uncomfortable as I dun wear skirts unless my mother force me to wear... And this time is my grp of frenz force me to waer oso but actually I turn them down den later they say I PSK them then I got no choice to wear lor... Then some more this is the first time I wear like tt in school cos I had nv wear like this before since primary school till now...

In need of HELP!!!

Arrrrrhhhhhhhh....... My maths drop le Oh no who can help me I do not know how to revise if too easy no need to think oso can do but too difficult think already oso dunno how to do... Why must I be so careless I just not happy with myself.... As for my frenz they kept influencin me to hate the teacher keep tellin me the negative things about the teacher how can I change their mind set man!!! And now I oso dunno wat happen to me as I start to dislike the teacher... Sigh need to think positive things le must Buck Up no more slackin le... Btw I really wish to have a tuition teacher lor to teach me maths , english and many things... I had one test yesterday wish there is some improvement in it... I will strive for it man... If she wanna challenge me I will take the challenge!!!
Oh my frens they are so close to me le haha so happy especially my grp even though they themselves have problem with one another, I am not included. But I just wish tt they will solve all their problems at one go so I won't be the one sufferin by listenin to each of their complains... And most importantly they like to gossip about one another why must they do this they know I don't like and they still do it. How to tell them off and stop them from all the gossips...

Forget him le...

At last I forget him le, it seem to be quite hard last time but as for now it is much easier... Thanks to Jeremy kor haha he told me tt we could forget anyone as it is as easy as a snap on ur fingers only thing tt is we wan anot... But the only one tt we can't forget is Lord..

I really need to thank God as he helped me alot in my studies, CCA, my relationships between my friends and family... I need to know wat type of person I am, could anyone tell me pls...

Dance Competition!!!!

Hooray!!! We got the champion!!! Thanks You Lord as You had help my group alot, when there is some conflicts in my group you will always help us solve by tellin one of us to made everyone to agree on somethings. As for today, everyone were so excited and nervous since last night as they told me that they can't sleep well. When we are on stage, we never thought of anyone cheering for us but then when the curtains opened alot of the audience started to scream and shout our group name that is "Circuit Breakers". When they cheered for us a few of my frens get panic but great that we did not do any steps wrongly or even forget any steps... As Sufiandi, Kasthuri and I were the first few to get on stage to perform Malay dance I was quite nervous cos there was a few steps I nearly forgot but great God help me to remember. Then after the Malay dance we got in & changed in 5seconds & out with the rest of the group members to dance Hip-Hop it was so fun we enjoy it...

When the other groups dance we watch as well as cheerin for them. Then after every groups had finished dancing the judges called everyone out on the stage as they are goin to comment every groups as our group were the first grp to dance they said they will start to comment frm the last grp to the first. We were all listenin to the judges and when our grp name was announced as they goin to say somethin I was thinkin that will it be a good comment or bad one. Just then they said our dance was nicely done and we were so happy...

When they announced the winners our heart was simply goin to poped out, they announced the third goes to a guy(dunno who's he), and second goes to a group of Hip Hop dancers a mixture of sec2&3... And lastly the champion of Deyi Secondary School Dance Ration goes to...... Circuit Breakers!!! When our grp was called we were so happy, we shook hands with vice-principle and took the prize... We were so happy!!! Thank You Lord!!!

Why is this happening to me???

Sigh my friendship with her is it goin to be damaged??? Why must she do this to me, why must she act till I am scared of her??? She is a good friend of mine actually we have same CCA, class, hobby othe only thing different is our character... Yes we like each other alot but here comes the problem that is she start to make me feel uncomfortable. This few days I don't really like to go with her, I felt disgusted and irritated by her reaction towards me...
As for my group of friends there are people who dislikes each other and they started to gossip about each other, scolding vulgarities at each other... What Is This??? I hate people who scold vulgarities... I told them nicely they don't want to listen, then say me why must care them so much... Then I ignore them for few days and they came back to me to appologise, I give them chance as they want to change... But after that their problem came back again... I kept quiet as I am not able to do anything but they think I don't mind so they start to say vulgarities at me, I can't control my anger and scolded them because they go over the limit...
I felt so guilty for what I had done, I do not know am I right or wrong...
Another thing is whenever I ask them did I change since sec 1 till now and they keep sayin I never change but I know I change alot and it is from bad to worst but do not know what is wrong...