Seeing u I feel like sayin sorry, to God I've said the moment I did tt...
Till now its still in my mind... Why???
Satan knows that WEAKNESS can turn to sin in a heartbeat when exposed to the right amount of pressure. I cry n say "How could you be so stupid! You idiot! Haven't you learned anything?"
Which is lik I NV LEARN useless... forget it... Tot I'm firm enough but to the very end I gave in... Wat to do... Sacrificed... I dun mind i'm the one who get hurt cos I mind others being hurt.
I shall be the bad one:( Being the middle one for both situations.
In my heart was sayin I shouldn't made tt decision, I shoudn't be there at first... I shall leave b4 anythin else happen...

I love You, JESUS!!! I'll nv forget U!!! Thats for sure...
The moment I come to YOU, my heart hurts no reasons... DADDY I'm Sorry for not waitin for YOUR call/ans. Knowin tt I can be patience but I chose to do it in my way, SO PLS IF U'RE IN THIS KINDA SITUATION, BE PATIENCE N WAIT. ITS WORTH IT!!! NO REGRETS!!!

When we cease letting God speak to us, it is only a matter of time before He will cease speaking through us. Time to stop doin the talkin until HE speaks. Intensively relationship w GOD.
Lifting up our praises to HIM, since HE bless us w beautiful voices, dun waste it...

The feelin of heart breaks....

I tot I won't get tt feelin...But yea...
I dunno wats gonna happen tmr...Only GOD knows...
Let God do wat HE wants then, since I made this firm decision...
Today went CHC again(: brought Daniel along.
I love the svc there as always!
Still waitin for GOD's reply,


Its hard to love the person u once loved.

A sudden felt lik ignorin ppl,
too many prob alrd. I tak buleh tahan!!!
Sian... If i con't w this sian sian att, i prefer leavin this world!!!
My spiritual is diein AGAIN, physical lackin...
I'm worried abt spiritual not physical U KNOW!!!
I dun mind if i dun eat dun sleep, i dun care!!
BUT W/O HIM the most high one, I WILL DIE!!!
Bring me back to U, O LORD. Redeem me... U'RE MY SHELTER!!!
I need U more than anyone else, no one can ever replace U in me...
I need strength n power, wisdom.

Thanks to those who helped in tt situation(: lovesss...
Esp to tt nonsencical judge-.- laugh n joke n play n serious...
& DaddyHan, Eric, n all who were there.
I'll chage to the better...

N of course many thanks to those Bros n Sis in CHRIST who encouraged me with HIS words.
Not tt prob but others lovesss alll.................

LORD, I seriously dunno wat to do, I'm stuck...

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. - 1 Corinthians 13:4-13

This few days were weird, I'm still at the point makin my decision.
I've made it, but it isn't firm. I wanted it to be firm, Lord, help me with this ya?
sian...speechless
I'm still thinkin tt I'm e bad party... Yea as wat zoro said I've changed to another person :'(
My heart still dun feel right, words still flow out lik water tap:(
Some things do need to be done...
I NEED UR WISDOM, LORD!
Since everyone seems to know then let it be it then. I'm not ashamed!!!
I wanna lift UR name up HIGH!!!!GLorify U!
Its GOD tt change me, yet I was worldly changed...
No U're my deliverer!!! My refuge, I dun wanna be condemned by this world

Bringin Rems n Daniel to CHC hope it'll be a success... pray pray pray even harder!!!

Hey bitches,sluts,jerks everyone I'M SPEECHLESS NOW!!!
If u think i'm a baddie, go ahead, cos I didn't say I'm good at all!!!
not even once!!!
"Holy"is wat u all call me, i didn't agree to it...
but i wanna be it, since i can't I'll still strive for it!
SATAN AWAY FROM HERE NOW!!!I HATE U TO THE CORE!!!U DUN HAVE THE RIGHTS TO CONDEMN ME IDIOTS!!! -> this sentence is not meant for humans!!!Hope u understand...

I wanna be invisible to everyone now! So just ignore me, even u rems.... ITS MY COMMAND,
I'll prove tt I dun need PITY n SYMPATHY! DUN HAVE TO PITY ME!!!

I know I have CHRIST in me, n i'm enough(: knowin tt this sentence will shoo off ppl ard me....

Last week n this week, I'VE CRIED TOOOOO MUCH!!!
I shall stop now!!! Away from me now weakness... So tt i'll be strengthen...
Too many things happen too fast, time do fly...
Lord, y this time past so fast..snifsnif...
Things do happen... Had been sinning shall admit...Humble me LORD...
Tell me wat to do... I've enough with all these sins, knowin I'm chosen to be diff.
N yet i didn't do anythin, i wanna repent but i whenever i close my eyes i doze off:'(
I'm super sad la!!! cos ppl's leavin frm my heart...tears?? NO!snif snif, still...
I'm waitin too... Sacrifices to be done...Priority first still... Sorry,****.... sobs sobs...

Times in rasa sentosa with all the chefs was FUN!!! Great, happy hehehe...
cep arh cep(chef arh chef) they were nice(: thk GOD
woke up at 3am get out of house at 4.10-20am, then reach home at 6,7,8pm...
We're slackin,eating,chattin,sleepin, I'M FAT ALRD!!!EXERCISE IN SCHEDULE!!!