Last week was scary man, face weird circumstances...
Still doubtin abt tt dream, was it frm HeavenlyDADDY or i think too much...
Seems like a warnin frm above, to be firm. Prayin for more revealation in this situation.

Anw ytd was another AWESOME SUNDAY,
though i was rushin n dashin here n there. But it was all worth it(:
Perform in the mornin(its ok tt u all didn't come, I didn't expect so many ppl to know abt it. Dun have to apologise, i appreciate the bondin we had in class... lovess....)
Then rush down to Jason's church(: the song was meaninful n touches my heart, TYL tt I found all the songs we sang(: Praise U continuously... I've found 10 songs in total!!! The sermon was awesome la, a great lesson to be learnt. Answered prayers(: but rems wasn't there U MISSED THE GOOD TIME MAN!! Wasted... nvm, there's another chance I BELIEVE(:
Then return lib book, n off to church for another performance...

Today another random day, amber operation, did crepes(: for misen place...
Did other stuffs n spent time talkin to SHERINE!!! I LOVE U LADY!!! Sorry tt I've neglect so many of u...):

Wat the eyes n head hurts ALOT!
Thanks to the smell of smoke at the land shop.
It make me think of the times when dad is ard, smokin outside the house which pissed me off!!!
Head gonna burst man, slept for like so many wasted hrs... IHATEIT!!!
Almost fainted there-.- slept there while Sher was playin left4dead the walk turn shoot game...
Head even painful! Can't even see properly when walkin la!
Still wonderin WHY AM I TT WEAK???GRRRR!!!

In class, tots came in to my mind durin breaks...
I tot I've did it, but I'm totally WRONG!
I still can't be a good/true fren!
How sad can I be??
I tot i've tried, maybe I hasn't try harder...
I'm felt so away from everyone... Nvm... shall con't?

Things seems to lay back ae...JOCELYN BUCK UP!!!
Start to long HIS pressence again...
I miss those sessionS with HIM<3
Relationship with ppl gettin bad ae... Wonder y...Sighs... Start worryin..
Realised I heard many preachers preachin, which preaching sessions made a diff in my life?
Or can I say which session did I pay attention??Xp Cos knowin tt if we really seek we'll recieve:)
Ppl start to talk abt JESUS, thks for the reminders...
Thks to i dunno who, tt started it...
Anw the songs i had been hearin was cool!LOVE IT! from some church(:
I want to cry out... I'm lost of words...
Shall blog abt the time at MandaiOrchidGarden next blog...
Need rest... Oh shit my medi!

Circumstances tt will build up my faith:)

Sighs I'M SICK!!!!Coughin,sneezin,shiverin...
Didn't really pray as much now OH NO!!!:( BUCK UP!!!
I wanna fight for the rights, but its hard cos its my mummy who I'm gonna fight...
Lord, I wanna honour u, I needa obey my mom, bless me with ur holy spirit to guide me...
I wanna grow closer to U but my relationship with ppl is gettin worst:'(
My family, my church, my frens... I can feel it n i know it.
But I wanna experience U, speak in tongues. I dun mind sacrificing my time to live for the kingdom of heaven sake but may my mummy understand...
Thanks to all who prayed for me:)Most appreciated:)
ThankU HeavenlyDADDY, for listenin n answerin all my prayers:)
Thks for takin the pain frm my throat straight away aft I've prayed. This means tt prayers always works HAHA... Many Thanks to YingJie, Jason n Grace for helpin me out in my faith n all the encouragements tt u all had given... Pray even harder...

Alrt back to sch... Class was cool, back to MPC-MATHS!ROX! Though all return back to teachersXpSHHHH!!! Have been waitin for PE which is tmr! BUT I CAN'T JOIN!!! GRRR...
Cos I'm sick...Rebuke it away man! Then had been goin home with tt horny bunch. More n more ppl gettin courrupted man! Even the GALS!!! But not me HAHA!!! Shall be my Holy Holy:)
Proud to be n to live tt way:) Since others can prove me they can do it, SO AM I!!!
Was kissed by Brindha EVERYDAY!!!! AHHH nightmare!!!Sry didn't mean anythin haha cos aft tt incidence, in secondary 2weeks of fear... Dun wan think abt it! Dun do tt again!

Cool at last sch has started:) totally different.
MORE HYPER! With tt focus on..
Con't w tt post..
Fri went VIVO AGAIN!!! but this time with SiXian:)celebrate her end of N's:)
Took lots of picts:) Went back to childhood memories:)
Hehe my takin of photos got standard ae;)
Then rush home got nagged for comin home n out again to meet Grace/M for another movie:)
With her family...Shouldn't have promised...Shit...
Anw Sat:) out for charity hehe I took some picts... Then off to church for dance self pract...
With all the anyhow countings... Then rush home to bath n off to meet Jason, cell grp meetin:) COOL! Spoke in tongues again!!!WOOHOO!!!Difinitely got difference! He shared abt his experience with me... And lots of stuffs... It do really makes me think...Hard time decidin...Had been prayin for days n gotta pray even harder:)Lord, I really pray tt I have tt kinda faith...
Shouldn't be selfish, can't always think abt myself... But.... Lord....Nvm...
Sunday, sunday classes canceled...Went for 2nd service though abit weird when my hands were lifted but its for GOD, put down the face. Thinkin back...is tt a trap or an ans frm GOD? I'm confused. But meet YingJie in the noon chatted, prayed, discussed.Help to teach P4 maths:) Then went for AuntyYiXuan's class, was the youngest there:) Chinese was still a problem which drag me apart so fast can't catch up!
Mon yippeeees back to sch HYPER since mornin...keepin myself in prayers, to focus:)
Then cleaned the whole kitchen,physically tired but spiritually ENERGETIC!!!LoveIt!
Then end at 2++ went bowling:) It was GOD who played tt game(dun be shockedxp)
I can nv score tt well w/o HIM!PRAISE HIM!
Then Today wasn't good didn't pray properly... dozin off... Sorry LORD! Knowin tt U're my strength yet i'm still half dead... ThankU for meetin all my needs... MisenPlace for the startin of Amber on NextMon. Sir Darryl took over:) At last saw ma'am today I MISSED HER!!! Then was havin fun arguin to go Pool or not.At last sher n me went, played 1 round thk GOD at least I can aim a few balls(super few balls-.-)..Then went home with 2 jokers...Darren n Deyao who made me laugh non-stop n shootin me... Anw shall not be influence by the dirty stuffs but be influencial of the good good stuffs:)

Ok this week so far so good:)
filled with exciting things to be read....with the book i've borrowed...
I did my spiritual homework hehes:)EVERYDAY!!!
Yea today was cool, out wif Grace/(M)
Shall call her Grace frm now on...
GJL???MJL???which is nicer???wateva A.S.K still the nicest...(:
Went to vivo for the Christian cruise COOL!
Oldest ship in the world,WOW!Miracle...96YRS OLD!!!
Blessed by GOD!!!
Yeah praise GOD rain has ended b4 gettin outta house(:
but now feel sorry for nt passin tt msg:Psorryy...
We reached vivo findin tt ship walked here doubt there...
Thank God we found it!
Err it wasn't wat i've tot. But still COOL! ILOVEePASSPORT!!!!
Yeah SCARED OF HEIGHTS!!!n the heat inside was even "cooler"!(*drops of "water"*)
The tour guide were like talkin... Good i did ask this n tt a lil n nodssssss.....
It ended SUPER early! went back AMKhub to watch FAME!
NICE SHOW... Highly recommended by GraceNme(:
kinda borin in the middle but its nice I can say...
I ate double dinner, GOODNESS!!! JOGSSSS on for TMR!!!!!!!!!!
CAN'T STAND IT!(sit)

RECHARGED!!By the grace of Chirst!

Sat n Sun always ROX!!! Cos HE rox!!!duh~
Ytd went back to church for daodu w YingJie(:then off to M's church(:Lighthouse
Today went to Jason's church:)CityHarvest(jurong west)
DaoDu w YingJie - absorbed in my book gonna read up(: to abasorbed in my heart.

M's -sat super in front hmmm a lil too weird still cos the lights n the video thingy, esp when both went serving I'm left alone singin...NVM at least I got space to raise my hands haha...
The sermon was great MARTHA'S SYNDROME.Yea i admit i have tt syndrome not choosing the right choice as Mary. Waste a good chance.. I didn't take down note in time..
Ppl lookin at me:( should not have affected! Anw I did still, but i missed points, sad...

Jason's -Reached his church a short bible study,yepps abt recieving the gift of TONGUES!!! Yea thk him again n again cos nv thought of recieving it, but not today onwards!! For its is gift for ALL CHRISTIANS!!Wat a good message(: Yepps I've recieved(: time to practise it,yea... ROX!!!
Hmmm his church is seriously charismatic, cool:) the songs was nice n meaninful:)
Sat in the front also HAHA! Meet new bros n sis in Christ:D
Haha Jason talk lik he really were preachin, cool...haha learn learn(: Dun fall off ur chiar!!!
Sermon was cool! Took notes ae! TO LIVE FOR THE KINGDOM SAKE!
My life is Your song!Elevate Your name!

Both paster preached abt putting our PRIORITY first, I'm sorry DADDY:(
Shall start practicising what I've learnt&recieved! Acting thru faith!
Faith-Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the substance of things not seen.
Just obey, let GOD do the rest(: let God fill us with HIS holy sprit n let the holy spirit lead n guide us...

Forgiveness is needed

Every church is God's home!!!
But i just can't stay still in 1(sorry)
Wat's wrong with me?
Shall pray tt I'll be back, after i've done with re-charging!
Just keep it with HIM!
Church Hopper? NO WAY!!! I DUN WANT!
I want stay...)':
I have 100001 excuses to leave but only have 1 reason to stay
That Is Where I Belong.
Be it no one recongnise me or take the watever away I shall not mind.
I create this mess... Sorry.
THis yr has the most changes, lettin down HIM so many times... I'm sorry!
I should stop sayin sorry n to re-learn how to LOVE you n cling on to YOU from this moment!
I pray in the name of JESUS....Amen!
Spare this time n the promises I've made, I'll cancel others from now on!!!
Just keep prayin...I mean me,yepps...
Sorry for lettin all down, for breakin all promises. Just... yea...
A.S.K this is the prob I'm facin... I just dunno wat to say when i saw the both of u...


Thanks DADDY for today! Answered prayer again!Praise YOU!!!