Today's another awesome SUNDAY!
Had short sharin w CG(: cool there's where we start to confess...
To be firm w our understandings(:
2 diff homes... Same owner...GOD... Daddy, when the time has arrives do tell me(:
Listenin to ZAN MEI ZI QUAN songs... their worship songs were awesome some of it almost caught my tears but endurin haha cos I'm outside~
The diff between was one they were VERY concerned they can read wat was goin on...
Thru fb they know part of it n they talk to u abt it...
That makes us feel warm n shows tt u're not alone... N makes u feel home... We share heart to heart probs...
They get to know faster, n more than anyone else thks CG loves... new love for GOD...
the other is tt they dun even know u're there, hmmm i does tt too sorry peeps...
I'm learnin n I'm changin... Actions DO speak louder than words...VERYTRUE!!!
thank u HeavenlyDADDY, thank u, love u love u & i love today's SERMON!!!
Infact it truly touches me...
Thru all the songs in between I find it cool... N it really goes well w the sermon...AWESOMENESS(:(: ANW I shall be back to humble myself... Lord, Humble Me!!!

HAPPY 1day late BIRTHDAY LixuanDEAR n LESLEYloves!!!:)

This few weeks have been sinning, repentin sinnin and repenting...
SHIT everytime pass by the cross will look then start to daze..
Lord, I'm sorry, knowin tt lookin to the cross U've take all away.
thks!
I've been strugglin inside me, yepps suppose nt to say it here..
Anw yea lettin go was truly a big step, though i thot i did it.
But aft some words still hurts by bringin them back.... Kinda irritatin...

Alrt shall not blog abt it as sense the free frm chains rite now:):)
N yea shall talk abt this few days then, yea ever since things starts to happen.
Past came back:) Went back home, out w the old grpies:)
HAHA ppl who made me laugh till stomachache...
I've learnt a big lesson... Always be a fren and not a leech!
I've shared w them a few stuffs, n best part is nonsence stuffs is back HAHA!!
Yea n Thurs went for prawnin w the whole class was awesome:)
Haha BOSS taught me how to prawn n pool aft our late lunch w the whole grp(1 disciple cannot have 2 mastersHAHA!BOSS&SALLY)...
Cool was great time out w classmates our bond seems to improve lil by lil...
It always takes 2 hand to clap. This occurs in all situation.
Wow this few hard lessons, all this phrases just came out arh... Not bad not bad:)
Haha yea pray for strength to conquers all things tts against me...PTL PTL!!!!!TYL!!!<3<3esss

U comin up to the max rite...
I'll NV cry abt all tt situations tts comin up by you anymore.
This is the last time though my eyes hurts...Nv worth it...
Be as bitchy as you want.ni zuo chu yi wo zuo shi wu...
Just a reminder b4 u regret, Shut ur bloody F mouth up to listen to wat others say...
U nv change n u'll regret for life...
U wan give me hell, I'll give u heaven....
Vent ur anger on me... I'll not... but u nv know...
Though I can't talk fast neither can I think fast nor can I react fast...
U change n train me to do tt!!!
RMB IS U CHANGE ME TO DO TT ON YOU!!!!
Words comin out of ur mouth is nv true... Watch it man...
I'll nv let it go thru in my ears its even worst than nv put it to heart.... HYPOcrite...
U nv know wat is happenin behind u...
Ur voice is damn sharp, till NO ONE CAN HEAR ME!
Dun believe I shouted over till my mom came out yet U con't w tt voice of urs...
tts y I said SHUT UR MOUTH UP N LISTEN TO WAT OTHERS HAVE TO SAY!!!
Slow minded ppl(me), needs time to think, i shall declare tt INFRONT OF UR FACE!!!
Who ask i'm inherited w this, blame me lah!!!
keep tt volume low la, infact i gonna say tt he didn't even scold or even raise his voice at u..
Know tt U started it first okays... Cos use ur ears n NOT UR MOUTH!!!

Last nite was a good good nite:) at least i stopped tossin ard n sleep thru out...:)
though I tossed on the bed for the whole of ytd... I can still sleep:):)
I was very restless ytd, the usual pain, knocked on the wall to cover up for a while then fell asleep again. I'm like dieing man... Dots the medi do make my stomach feel ewwwww...
In the evenin Brinz called, I was lik GOD thk u tt at least someone woke me up frm my deadness...Talked craps as usual... HAHA lesb part....
Then off to bed again-.-" till 8 dad came to visit me haha as usual too he always visit me when I'm sick... N the power of forgiveness took place:) Thank U heavenlyDaddy... I start to appreciate, compared to last time... Yea...
Then 8.30 YingJie called:) It was really great time w her:) at first bro picked the phone, she finds him familiar then she asked me.... Was shocked tt my bro is JAVIN HAHA... As she's their sunday sch teacher hehe... AWESOMENESS AE!!! I've learnt quite alot thru sharings n talkin dahahaha... I was hmmmm&Ya-ing thru out e conversation:) Then shared quite alot... Then back to sleepin GG...
Let us not revenge but let GOD avenge for us:):)

Taday though it was truly a disaster, but everythin came to an end..
I sincerely appologise.. To all esp to those who was hurt badly infact was the whole grp rite.
Yea at least i slowly found out how to plan n organise well... I mean i got a pict...
Aft the serious meeetin of anger, sadness n disappointement...
I learnt alot of my mistakes... Will do a better job...
N also realise alot of myself... Though some I knew it long ago but its time to step out of tt comfort zone... Pray tt I won't go too far...humble n gentle heart..
This lesson I'll rmb in my heart... THKX ALL once again...

Dots this few days I've change alot cos of my sickness...Blamin everythin onto my sickness lol...
I can't talk, Can't hear properly... My ear super pain, super irritatin...
I wanna hit onto somethin w my fist to cover the pain... I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!
Everytime I feel the pain either I'll cover my ear if not my fist will be clentched!!! Anytime can punch onto any of the hard objects...
Now I can't even swallow properly, not even saliva(yikes sorry 4 being disgustin) take so much effort to swallow, wat nonsence... Still talk abt food... Almost vomited w every mouth of food i put in my mouth...
Just went to seek the doc... Its pathetic to have MCsss for weekends...
Even on my precious SUNDAY!!! GRRRRRRRRRR...
I didn't even realised I'm havin fever... I'm super weak la can... Immune system is lackin...
Hey NURSES!!! sisM, SiXian,GuanLiang how to build my immune system arh???
Aft consumin all the medi I'm lik walkin zig zag...ZZZ drunk??
Anw Thks JASON for prayin for me, and all the concern msgs... MOST APPRECIATED:):)
I shall start puttin faith in all of my prayers... GG, Physically down but spiritual PLS DUN DOWN...

Talkin abt split personality durin work w Estha haha
realised I have tooo lol.....
The 2 me talkin inside of me.
1 tellin me I can, another tellin me I can't...
Negative tots which will cancel 1by1 the blessings tt GOD had prepared for us...
N another me will tell me off, remindin me of this phrase n ask me to start confessin...
CONFESS IN ME!!! No one knows... Only HIM...
Its always my spiritual body will do the good stuffs yet my old mind will do the bad ones.
Spiritual body had done great things in me, HE's always the one who motivates me in doin things which I think I can't. "For I can do all things in CHRIST who strengthens me."Nth is impossieble for HIM...Yet HE's in me.SO yea the preachin of my heart cames...

Now only 1 knew my aim, but turned back n tell me off nicely...Tt phrase will be in me...
I'm truly suppose to do tt to myself, n i did it. Tryin to be saddis in all way to MYSELF...

I'm sorry grp1 , knowin I can't lead well, n i can nv lead well...
I'm sry... U guys can do better...

DUN READ IF IT OFFENSE U!!!!

~When the favor of God shines on your church, you will find its premises too small for the people who queue up week after week to attend the services! So when people wonder and ask, “What is happening here?” you can tell them, “It is the favor of God multiplied all over us!” And it is all undeserved, unearned and unmerited! By Pastor Prince!!! Yeah at last I got a time to read...

~Isaiah 53:44Surely He has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows… This is what I needed most :) Thks comforter of my soul;) If Jesus can heal diseases n GOD can heal cancers, then what more than just a cough or sore throat???

~Lets boldly declare tt “I am not righteous because of what I have done or not done. I am righteous only because of the blood and finished work of Jesus at the cross!”

~This means that once you are a believer, the blood of Jesus Christ keeps on cleansing you from every sin! (Wash-cycle) 24 hours a day, seven days a week — and move on with God!

~Isaiah 53:5 declares, “By His stripes you are healed!”
All frm Pastor Prince's devotions:) Haha

Lord, should I declare tt today is a tremendous AWESOME DAY or a crushed down day???
Thankyou for the time in church, but I'm late again...
Lord, help me plan my time. My time management sux as u know I can't do anythin w/o YOU rite.
Anw the time w Cheryl for biblestudy in chc, I learnt ALOT!!! N my heart for P&W changed was awesome. HAHA I'm sooo blessed THKS CHERYL;)loves loves... Thks for re-lightin the fire for Christ in me... I've shared almost what I've imagined n wanted to, THANK GOD for the courage.
I thought in my whole life no one knows it except YOU(GOD):') I'm touched by UR works GOD.
Yeah today was awesome la, everythin seems so good n svc seems so hyper.
Pastor Kong's msg was even powerful, claps claps claps n wow-ness... COOL!!! woah!!!
It was even happier to hear of the new land central of SGP WOOHOOOO-ing!!!!!!!!

It has come to an end w.... I'll Con't pray, stand firm n strong... Its a new beginnin w HIM tmr...

Woah now my turn to blog aft sooooo looonnng lol, GG i've been bloggin on papers cos i'm bored.
No time for com though, there's happy sad, angry, sobs...nvm...
Within just few days... Gosh time fly past too fast.

Lord, I'm uselsess, I can't do things well, I can't plan n organise things well, I can't a single thing well GOSH! I'm truly useless manz. I'm cursing n swearing myself, why in my mind is tt he chose the wrong leader to lead. Wat on earth! The eyes of EVERYONE makes me panicks, all I see is YOU CAN NV DO IT!!! R U SURE U CAN??? That freaks me out, the fear tt no one will EVER know. Lord, time calm me down man... It wasn't cos I'm stress, lik wat everyone said."hey joc dun be stress" thks for being there for me everyone:') most appreciated. But I'm not stress. Its lik I needa calm down. I wanna do my best but with this dumb brain of mine wat on earth can I plan anything. My heart was telling me if anything goes wrong not anyone's fault BUT YOUR fault. And wat others said was rite it reflected on me not him. Its not his faultbut mine pla ppl dun blame the innotcent ones. He has done the most, why no one sees it but only his bad side. Everyone has diff thinking and attitude. Lord, I'm crying out to you, do something to me, change me,lead me, mould me, slap me to wake my bloody idea up. Now aft thinkin why he chose me maybe cos of my mouth, THKS AE, U ALMOST KILLED ME!!! Talk nonsence, comfirm one! I also can't rmb wat I said...TSK!!! HATE MYSELF MANZ!!! Oh shut up Joc...