No one understands me!!!

Why must always me the helping ppl and when I need help everyone runs away??? Why??? Everytime some problems come everyone will look at me askin for help, even when ppl is discourage, sad or angry i will ne the one tokin to them, console them... But when i am sad or need sumone to talk to y no one came to me... Or even they came to me they will talkin and not me, I just don't understand!!! I hate myself, for alot of reason... Can't think of anythin good about myself... Can't even find a rite person to say out my personal thoughts, feeling and secrets... Who can I trust???

Greatest Miracle sent by God...

Even though I am born in a Christian family I don't see any different between a non christian and a christian. But just then God let me see him on the year 2004 as it was my final year in primary school taking PSLE, a difficult time for me to crawl through really hate those days... I have been praying since primary 4 Yar God let me get into EM2 but after that leaving me there to suffer on my own and that is what i have been thinkin since primary4 to 6... I admit i hate myself in those days knowin that i am such a useless and stupid person as some of my frens told me, I even scolded God and that is what i have been worrying as askin for forgiveness will it help??? Will God forgive me??? Knowing that God will continue to help me I am trying to do my best not to sin against Him, I prayed that God will help me to pass and go to the secondary school that I wanted... Great that God answered my prayers Thanks Lord!!! I got in... Good that is a stream that I can help myself to stand up, then I saw God tryin to help day by day... I got first in my class during secondary1 End of Year Examination till now... Unbelievable rite from every year gettin last in class till now this position ya i am sayin this because I think that God gave me this experience and want me to share it with u ppl... God is just so great Nothing is impossible for him... I Love Him...