Where's my smile?

Oh no where's my smile its gone! Gotta find it, can't find but only tears all over e place. Oh no found my smile its deep under e tears, can't reach, e tears is too much, I'm scared tt I might drown eventhough i can swim but e current is too big.
Ok den I'll stop all my nonsense, but i'm totally scared, nervous, blur and just dunno wat to do especially when I'm workin I just dunno wat to do. Learn new things as runner at e cashier bein so blur, AWAKE JOCELYN, AWAKE! NO MORE DREAMIN, SLACKIN OR ??? Work with YiJoe and Jeremy as they really lighten my day or else I'm just gonna be freaked out of this.This 2 really joker, as they gotta do lobby and they dun wan to but me gotta do back sin, and they were like arguein to help me as I got alot to wash so ya when they arguein and I said Dun Bluff na tryin to slack ard rite? Haha Jeremy walked out and YiJoe still inside actin takin the cloth good actin ae! Before I Tell Manager Arh! Haha I not so bad wan la, bleah:P Saw Ameera's "" he smiled at me and of course smile back, Ameera will be jealous abt it sorry sis haha-_-lame... Nvm but she had been fake jealous abt alot of things haha, abt guys cos I'm closer to them ya? Haha disagree with tt man! Ameera dun be jealous na haha just cos I'm a little boyish but ya changin kkz(: Just feel so bored...Yeah tmr goin to church, hope will not be late bah!

Careless day!

Sigh injured myself 3 times, first is burnt by hot metal cos yesterday learning hash browns, so ya needa open e metal thingy and forget tt it had just took out from e hot oil so use my right index finger and flip e thing and tts how I got my finger burnt. WeiTeng saw and told me not to use hand and use another harsh brown and flip. Then Ameera and I did everythin together and we do not need to do lobby, we both had all e nonsense and ya Nonsensical Sistaz tts wat we called ourselves.lol Then after work we went home, I packed my staff to go to church to do e Christmas deco, filled with enthu? haha but it rained wore e slippers without friction so ya slippery seems lik I had been slidin every places but still fell down TWICE Ouch! And tts how I got my hand injured, first fell down at under dunno wat blk and tts is when walkin to church and ya landed on my left hand and got injured once and another also at e same blk but away a little tryin to go down e stairs and again fell down on my left hand put to much pressure on my hand. Wonder how am I goin to work today? But yesterday get a chance to talk everyone? Haha got a slight improvement as i seldom talk last time and now tryin to talk more,yeah talk more Jocelyn haha. Now then found out tt there is a few of us in NPCC haha so slow den know nvm better then dunno rite? Hmmm she is back with her irritatin style had done all kind of things to defend her but guess the best is to stare at her? Is it the best, I tried all u ppl taught but just said I'm diff and she asked me y, I said ask urself. She still ask y again and agin and ya got irritated and said U Force Me To Do It! She said ok nvm sorry, and ya maybe I'm too easily to forgive someone? And tts y she climbs onto my head again and again... God teach us to be merciful and forgives others, ya and I did but ya...Just dun Understand? Someone explain... Help!Help!Help!Lord, help me to understand!Tell me! WAT SHOULD I DO???

Jesus is with me! Yeah!

Thanks Lord for blessin me while goin to work cos its raining, but need to go top up card so took bus straight to AMK hub so did not get wet haha:) While inthe bus listenin to my mp3 and watchin tv on e bus saw Mac advertisement and saw my manager bein interview and i'm so happy for no reason!? Haha after top up walk to Mac and great the rain stopped Thanks Lord! Then reach there 30min before i start work, then dilly dally inthe crew room, Aunty Doris came and talked to manager and is talkin abt me. They suddenly ask me am I from China and I said NO I'm a Pure Singaporean, but they said I looks like I'm from China haha I shooked my head, then she ask wat abt my mom and dad and i said no. Haha tts funny i'm a pure chinese and pure Singaporean but there's ppl ask me am I Malay, am I from other countries. Today learn new things like bein e runner and fryin e french fries its fun cos of WeiTeng another manager tt had light my day, she is so funny and always make me laugh when ever she sees me so engrossed to somethin, she taught me alot of things and ya dun seem can rember everythin but she said its ok so ya everyone is like this e first time. Sigh get scolded by Aunty Doris sigh:'( Blamin me for so blur but u see I dunno how to different it out sad na bein scolded but acted like nothin happen nvm encourage myself den lol Lord understands! Thanks Lord for dis incident tt i may learn somethin new!? Ameera wait for me after work as well as Parthiban haha thks sis and dis 'gay' lol he is so gay as he is interested in guys and not... ya another irritatin one who toks lik gal walks like gal and eeeek stop tokin abt him den. After work went straight to grandma house haha my mom nag at me again for skippin meal and ya blood goin down but its better than havin high blood pressure rite? Ya agree tt i had not enough blood but wat should i do? Ask me to eat i can't eat anymore, gettin fatter, no appetite? I Just Hate Eatin, dun force me to eat pls... They say if nv eat will be lik my cousin will faint ya faint before ya is much more unglam kkz...-_- Cos ya in a parade? Low blood is causin me with many problems! Can't forget tt incidence... Unglam, unglam and more unglam! Ya dun wanna be unglam so must eat. Nvm den stop e eatin thingy, miss Aunty Suci, Nicholas and of course Boaz. Went there Boaz sleepin Nicholas and bro playin gameboy for sure! While waitin for Boaz to be awake chat with Aunty Suci haha toks abt many things den after Boaz is awake i played with him and he is so happy but when he is hungry he went sitiin on the floor with tt doo doo face haha so cute but looks like gonna cry so i ask him wanna have a hug and he went up and gave me a sweet hug haha so lovely. Then he seems to have a smile on his face again yippeeee haha den he asked me to play with him haha much more energetic, ya? hahaha forever so cute:) And tts my day kkz den gotta sleep cos tmr got work and after work ganna go to church to help out in the christmas decorations yeah! Ytd did some alr but not all done so tmr gonna finsih up! Ytd do until quite late but ya did the chrstmas tree and havin some arguments with her again! Thanks kor and TingTing for givin me clue on how to deffend her back!? Gonna try tmr, testin testin 1,2,3...lolx

Nothin more precious than God

Had been neglectin God for days, sorry Lord for all the lame reasons, cos of tired, workin and all kinds of reasons tt I can find. Sorry, really sorry Lord. Again I had done it again, y is always temptation suroundin me?
Yesterday, woke up thot got time to read bible cos still have 45min of time to work so went to read Bible cos had not touch for days, nearly late but thanks Lord i'm not still got time for me to sit and rest. Work for 7hrs, reason cos not enough crew cos they went to crew rally so ya, went there on Wed it was fun got a free webcam and played some games haha sporty. Didn't take any picts but wish so just dunno how to say. Back to ytd, after work forgot to check scheldule for Fri so ask Denise to help m check as she goin back to Mac after CrewRally. And she told me tt today no need to work, so happy cos grandma plannin to brin Daryl(cousin), Javin(bro) and me to cousin house to play.
Haha went there today, took cab there as grandma stayin there so brought alot of things, help her take some. Reached there saw Daryl sittin at the stairs like dunno how to explain, then we went into e house. Both Sylvester and Sylvia were playin com so we went there and disturb haha Sylvester usin msn while we entertain Sylvia cos she is waitin for her turn. Then its time for lunch, Sylvia ate e slowest as she is always slow whenever it comes to eatin. Aft lunch became bored again as Sylvester played gameboy with Daryl while Javin and Sylvia played e com, club penguin thingy(dunno wats so fun abt it). And me walkin ard lookin ard in the balcony quite scared cos of the heights but got chairs and table, sat there and enjoy the breeze, Daryl came with his annoyin mp4 as he kept listenin to it and talks abt songs tt i dunno. Than I suggested to play basketball out of boredom eventhough I dunno how to play, Sylvester said great and 3 of us agreed and left the 2 young kids at home busyin with tt penguins. So went to play for an hr and I shot 5 times hehe better than nothin, e 2 guys were like dribble e ball with their actin cool techniqes and ya distractin each other while shootin with tt annoyin sound"pong" haha not really distractin just tt aimin is e point. Then went gym, jogged for 5 rounds not reachin my expectations thanks to Sylvester as he kept disturbin me usin tt machine, den did some other excercises another 1hr gone so we went back. This 2 guys still got energy to swim actually I also have but nv brin swimmin costume so sad. Rest there for 45mins while listenin to Daryl's annoyin mp4(christian song&japnese songs) as he said its nice and ya bla bla bla. Then Aunty ask me to go down to ask them up for dinner, went down saw QinYi, YuZi, Eugene, Weien, Weishi, Grace, JingWen and more la i guess*** not sure cos can't find tt 2 baffalos wonderin which part of the pool are they at. Saw them shoutin their names then grandma came back frm shoppin haha helped carry her things and ask tt 2 to come up and so on. After dinner got fruits yumyum! Love fruits especially juicy ones and of course monkey's bannana! Haha ate pear there than pull Daryl back as he need to go to church at 7pm for some actin classes!? Cool man actin class in church, but I prefer dance haha, drum lesson in church haha who joinin me interested hehhx as my dad is a drummer but dun wanna teach me cos I'm a gal who cares. Went back alone, slept in e bus nearly missed the bus-stop but Thanks Lord, He waked me up. Kkz den gonna sleep, tmr gotwork sigh so tirin nvm, come find me :) 8am to 12pm... Oh no I can't go church tmr inthe mornin, cos tmr we are goin to clean God's house and also our house. But I can't make it, so sorry! Cos of workin again...... Sigh!

Tired!

Today is really tiring, wake up at 7am, can't sleep again. So woke up, have my breakfast and do housework. Start packin my school staff for next year, so fast right? No choice buy books early, so need to pack early or else my house will be messy and my mom will start naggin. Today start work at 4pm and ent at 8pm, so went there at 3.15pm but it rain heavily so got to take bus there. Took 162, and God bless me by stoppin the rain so I do not need to get wet. Went there talks to another kind crew while waitin for the time and we start work the same time hehe. Had been doin lobby the whole day, nv rest so I'm very very tired as I stand and walk around, moppin, sweepin, cleanin.... Don't have e appetite to eat dinner. Gonna to get sick soon? Hope not still need to work. End work its very dark, but still walk home even though I'm tired. But I goin to get into an accident, while crossin the road and tt is the turnin and the sraight road. There is this car goin straight quite far away from me so I thought can cross but nv see the turnin cars. There is this car turnin, in quite a fast speed and gonna knocked on me. Quite shocked and scared at tt point of time, but great God saved me haha orelse I will not be here...Thanks Lord! Tmr go play no work Yippeee!!!!!!

Cheer myself up?

Today just feel so down, wake up brush my teeth and did quiet time with Bro and Godmom as we did it every Sun so ya nothin special. We will always take turn to pray for start and end so today i did endin prayer. Haha always pray in english tts why nv improve chinese, godmum always praise me for my prayers as it is gettin better hehe:) Thanks! After quiet time went for breakfast, and prepare to go to church, miss them all as yesterday didn't go TQ cos workin ya an stupid excuse but i'm havin headache and its rainin heavily. My mom asked me not to go but to stay at home and sleep as i seem to be so tired. So ya back to today and went to church saw Phoebe first hehhx everytime saw her while walkin up the stairs. Then we were chattin all e way up and she told me tt she did not go TQ ytd too as she is sleepin haha same same... We settle down in the room and ChunAi came, chat with me and both of them thought I am from Express but too bad i'm not I'm opposite of tt... Sad/maybe happy to be in tt stream as well haha, cos had been gettin good grades in tt stream, Thanks Lord! Ya shocked? Nehx dun think so haha cos I dun like to study for those who knows me well(: As God had been givin me choices like goin to NA and i went there for 3months and can't take the stress so back ya sad but I did ask God to help me to choose the right one and i'm back to NT dun care wateva ppl say, just trust God as God always gives e best of e best choices for us to choose, yeah? And the day went on, eveytime when its time for praise and worship I'm always very happy as tt was 1 of e most enjoyable part of e whole service,rite? When everythin is over they were preparin to go for lunch and to basketball, wanna follow but didn't cos my bro had been pesterin me to brin him for swimmin lesson and today my mom workin so just brin him there den. But it had been rainin heavily, so his swimmin lesson had become a lecture for e comin test, good luck bro! Uncle Taisin my swimmin instructor as well as my bro's, he had been disturbin me la sigh, but disturb him back bleahx :P hehe...
Agnes came church today yeah! Dunno y loves talkin to everyone of them, they are just like bro and sis ya la of course na bros & sis of Christ mah! She told me tt, i can be bullied very easily, so must be fierce but how? Nvm na, used to it as i had been bullied since young so no difference. Born to be bullied!?
Had been waitin for days, weeks, months...Still waitin

The old me is back again...

GG lo, hate the old me and i'm back again. I'm sorry kor I can't really encourage u and had made u feel more worst sorry! Really sorry, everytime u encourage me when i'm down but when its ur turn I can't do anythin. Useless,helpless and hopeless me, nvm den u can blame me, I can understand. Reflect back what kor said Take God's grace for granted, me did it too, Sorry Lord! Forgive me for I am so nvm... Give me another chance pls... Cryin to The Lord! Kor last night cry not cos u made me cry, is just tt whateva u said I reflected it too so ya. Must repent!
Today...
Early mornin jog with Dorothy, ran 7 rounds and walk 1 round in the stadium. My heart is always so weak, while runnin e 7th round my heart starts to pain and its gettin worst so slow down my speed but still can catch up with Dorothy. Knowin tt I might faint anytime I just pray tt Lord can watch over me and if i faint also nvm cos no one will care rite? Haha nvm... Wonder y is my heart so weak? After runnin, went to school bookshop with my mom to buy next year's books, den proceed to daddy's house to help him do his com as his com can't log in to internet so my mom e expert had done everythin for him. So good rite! Love U mummy! Muacks!
Den went home prepare to go to NPCC for Land Division, last visit of the year for Sec3s, sad lo so must treasure the time there haha. While goin there Janet and Kelly had been asking me how is my workin in Mac I said Ok and they want more specific answer but I dunno how to answer so they kept askin quest and I answer them 1 by 1. lol. Dismiss from there so took bus with Kelly, Dorothy and Janet, took forget wat bus le but when we got down, I saw Weishi, Weien and TingTing, waved to them but dun think TingTing saw cos guess Kelly blockin so ya. Went to 7-11 to buy drinks, Janet treat cos she was promoted and got add salary. Haha Thanks Janet. Walked home with Dorothy and we made all kinds of nonsence haha lame... Got to tie hair le cos of NPCC again, either cut or tie, hmmm if cut kas will scold so ya tie might be better?

1st day workin in Mac

Quite tirin need to learn how to cook the round agg on e egg cooker, toast the muffin on the muffin toaster, great i remembered cos tmr will be tested by manager. Learn how to do lobby, clean the carpark area, clean the table and many many many. Tmr still got more to learn. When I woke up it rains, and I thought it is goin to stop but worst it rains heavier, when I reach Mac is 7.30am and I suppose start work at 8, so slack at crew's room. Knowin more ppl is great they can help me while i need their help, but can't really remember everyones names as some of them can say tt they nv even intro so not sure of their names as well. Oh ya YuSheng also workin there haha church bro hahaha, at least got talk talk now. Tmr workin e same time as him haha, 8am, gotta wake up early again. Denise, Ameera, Suria and Parthiban came, as they have interview except Suria so they saw me workin as well. Disturbin me whenever I pass through their table, Parthiban ask me injection pain not i say yes but actually not. Don't get a chance to sit, onli when when Break Time, so must treasure the times when we enjoy and rest, most of all the time with God!
Tuesday go injection with Christine Jie, haha saw alot of NPCC ppl but not our sch then we started to talk abt NPCC again, saw a lot of my friends as well, thanks Lord for lettin us meet again. After injection we went to eat icecream, forgot tt after injection can't eat cold staffs and my whole arm was so pain for Tues and Wed. Thanks Lord tt it recover today orelse...
Wednesday went for orientation, know a few more ppl, a few of them from NPCC but diff areas sad, but nice to meet them! Msn a guy named Sam added me from Malaysia, he is a christian great! So happy! Chat with him a few times already, both of us had been cha! Isn't it great and he said tt God made us know each other through his fren who gives wrong add to him. hahaha

Love AMKMC youth fellowship....

Yesterday had been in church whole day, its fun to talk to them and have fun. They are so so so so goood!!! Had fallen in love with them all,hehhx. Had been sufferin the whole day, but thanks to TingTing, QinYi, Weiien, ChunAi, JingWen and those who had helped me. Haha they helped me to dafend her from me, yar TingTing guessed corrctly i'm totally scared of her. I can't think of somethin to defend back, oh no gonna think think think, sigh this iriitatin I can't stand it...(Can't stand den sit lo!) This is too much man! Lord, help me! Let me think of something tt will not harm her and God! Cos i might thnk of ignorin her or maybe scold her but this might hurt God. I need to think of somethin, hmmm talk to her? Nehx she talks louder den me and ya all rubbish so no choice. Think? Sigh pray for her den and wait for miracles to happen, hehhx. Sure will de as God answers the moment u pray! Yeah! Praise the Lord!
In service learnt tt God looks from your heart not ur looks, Must put God first, close to God, must be humble, have faith, trust, ask and seek God & follow God's rules.And be a youth that is after God's hearts. Ppl listen up those who are the only one who knows God, u are a blessin in your family, as you got a job to do, that is to spread God's message in your family. Pray for ur family and know tt God WILL answer.
After service go eat lunch and tt is when she starts her nonsence, can say tt i can't go out with them is cos of a few reasons 1st is cos my bro wan me to brin him for swimmin lesson and the 2nd is cos of her. Sigh still got the fear in me how to face her every Sat&Sun. She seem to be quite afraid of e others but not me and poor AnQi, reason? She talks super loud and i need to cover my ears, seems to be quite rude sorry abt it. Even though I'm in NPCC but I can't speak any louder. I love peace and tts what God will give. Maybe gotta find gentle and reasonable ones. Like TQ ppl but simply not her sorry. Hope she will be better, yeah? Played basketball, not really say is play cos dunno how to play mah. So just play play lo lazy mah sorry ppl, gonna play next week so dun worry will play de but I quite slow or maybe veri slow so ya will try my best to play. At least will try learnin how to aim the ball into the net, and learn how to bounce and run at e same time hehe, its cool to look at them playin but diff to play. It really takes time to learn...NeverGivesUp!!!
Gonna take injection later, ouch! hope its not gonna be pain. Meow Meow...

Thanks Lord!

Really need to thanks Lord, tt I got the JOB yippeeeee... While walkin to Mac for interview i'm quite nervous but knowin tt God is with me and to have faith i stepped in, just nice saw Kelly she asked me am I lookin for jobs and i say yup, Janet was there too she wore a diff kind of clothin as them and she put make-ups she looks quite funny with it but it is ok na! hehhx... While waitin for manager Jacklyne as she is entertainin the 2 big big boss, I sat down alone lookin ard and Janet came to chat with me. After the 2 big boss went off she came to me and the inerview starts. Not really nervous after awhile later cos she is very kind and friendly. She asked me alot of questions on how to serve a customer if the customer gives prob. Ya learnt quite alot from her hope I will not face those problems either. I will be goin for a orientation on13/11 and on14/11 i will be workin. Cool isn't hehhx Thanks Lord tt I found a job! Den after interview is abt 3.05pm gonna be late for TQ I walked quite fast to AMK Hub to change and took 262 to church, wonderin will I be late and askin myself shld I go or not. But I noe today is Praise and Worship and it starts at 3.15pm and when i board up the bus i looked at my watch its 3.15pm I'm late... I prayed for it as well as thanks Lord for givin me tt job. When I reach my house bus stop, I wanted to get down but i guess th e Holy Spirit is askin me to go to church and worship God with ur church family And I came to church, thanks Lord tt even though i'm late but they have not started.
I saw her and wanna run away but she called my name, den I went to her and she is sittin with AnQi and frens so i turn to them and not to her as i know tt she will start her naggin and pushin... HATE IT ARHH... Wonderin when can she stop disturbin me just cos i did not answer her phone calls not replyin her msg, she starts scoldin, naggin and pushin staffs and she will be pullin my bag. I HAD IT ENOUGH!!! I want to scold her but I don't have the heart to scold her, we go church is to have fun but not tt kinda fun. Tt is not fun tt is irritatin, even some of them agree with it... I'm totally sick of her, do i regret knowin her? Ok stop tokin abt her.
When it starts we sang lots of wonderful songs, all so touchin wanna cry out but just bear with it. There is few songs i'm in luv with it alr but dunno wats the title sigh can't remember. Praisin the Lord is one of the Wonderful thing to do, agree?
Recieve 2 letters frm ChunAi and QinYi hehhx luv recievin letters especially from my churchy frens... Thks for writtin to me and write more hehhx... just kiddin...
After praise and worship, captains ball! But i can't sad thing cos need go home celebrate my Godmum's belated Birthday! Happy Birthday Godmum! Thanks Lord tt I know u if not i will not have today.... its true cos she brought me to AMKMC to know more abt God, teachin me abt God, ask me to join NPCC and teach me in my primary days. And u are the one who always encourage me when I'm down, especially durin my pri sch times cos I dun really know God. And whenever i failed my exams i just dun dare to face my mom or maybe everyone cos I know tt they will look daown on me so thinkin to do Foolish Things like killin myself and thangs tt will hurt myself. Whenever she knows i hurt myself she will counsel me. Thank You Godmum! Luv Ya!

Dots...

This few nites had been slpin veri late, one day sure kena from my mom de. But good she will be sleepin by then, this few days i'm quite scared abt my mom, she seem so calm, relax and start to gives me freedom. She suddenly so good to me like if i need to go out for somethin she will not ask anythin and just let me be, i feel so uncomfortable. Today wake up at 8.45am actually awake by 6.40am cos wanna go joggin but heard my mom sayin tt is rainin so continue slpin. Haha she on the air-con till i'm awake, how nice hehhx. My toes got blisters maybe is cos i walk too long with my shoes or maybe joggin every single day? Love joggin with Dorothy cos she is one of the joker in NPCC hehhx, she scared paiseh to jog alone so I ask her to join me den. She speaks chinese, and her chinese is like very chim, all four word de. Dun understand a single thing either so she explains every single "chen yu" to me but looks like it is still diff for me to remember. Hope she can help me to improve my chinese den haha had been joggin in the Bishan Stadium,6 rounds,2.4km. My mom was like quite worried abt my health as she kept remindin me tt dun exercise too much cos of my condition. i told her not to worry cos I can take care of myself and God will protect me too. And I guess she understands, I starts lovin ppl ard me cos they are precious to me, can't loose them either. Same to all my frenz especially my godbro & sis... My Ganjie told me tt she can accompany me for next yr ATF yar encourage me to go cos i wanna skip too bad now no choice must go. Scared scared nehx... Had been doin housework everyday, tellin myself tt eventhough I'm tired I still got to do for the sake of my mom cos she had been takin care of this house so must do somethin to hlp her out. So she can have more time to rest. got to go le next time den continue bah cos goin for interview hehhx... Wish me gooud luck den... hehhx...After interview got TQ hope will not be late bah... Bye have a nice day!

Happy Deepavali!

Early morning went joggin with Dorothy under the rain and now sick haha, havin flu and a little of headache. Went home and prepare to go Kasthuri house for Deepavali Celebration. Reach her house at 11.15 as we were told to meet at 11 hehhx late for 15min but better than Jamie and Anisah as they reach there at 11.25am and Denise reach earlier than all of us.We were chit chattin and eatin some snacks, then we were asked to eat our lunch? So early la so we ate a little bit but Kasthuri ask us to eat more so got to eat 2nd round. Haha 2nd round I am the special one cos her husband mah so she gave me Thosai haha but i ask her wat about the rest and she said nevermind haix so bad! So I went into the living room sat down and they saw then the nonsence came haha and she got no choice but to tell them tt they can eat either. After lunch, we went on talkin and played with Amukutty haha she cut her hair. Then Jamie got to go cos she need to visit her relatives as well, so after she left we went in to Kasthuri's room cos her sister's fren wanna come so we went in and they were makin fun of her sis fren cos her frren eyes somethin like pop out so they were laughin all the way till she went home. Very bad na, God created her like tt and they laugh at her! So bad but they are always like tt, they will always laugh at ppl de wat can I do to stop them? Even to our own grp mates and they dunno anythin abt it, I NEED TO STOP THIS, but how? Next year is our last year in Deyi can't we make it much better than this year? Next year on the graduation night I will sure cry, comfirm de cos I will miss alot alot of ppl de Class/NPCC or anyone who I know, same as Denise hahax cos just now we discussed abt this. Then Kasthuri's mom want us to make up for Kas, so we help her out haha this is our first time doin make up for someone but at least is better than wat we expected haha. Then Denise and I lie on Kas bed and awhile later Kassim came. Irritating baffalo!My day was destroyed by him!Then Kas 2 cute neighbours came and we asked them to join us and they were watchin tamil movies like they can understand but actually not, cos they chinese mah like Denise and me...
After tt we played party poppers and the fire thingy... Then we went home actually walk with Kassim but dun feel like talkin to him So walk with Denise to YCK MRT then I took 162 home. Reach home saw my bro and momoutside doin dunno wat thing, so I went there and greet and went in straight into the room to put my staff and had a shower. After my shower I'm still thinkin of wat Kassim said tt had really pissed me off! WAT SHOULD I DO??? Lord,u got to help me to cool down! I must forgive him, since he is my godson!
Sigh,sigh,sigh...
My bro kept disturbin me by ticklin my neck, its so ticklish... hahax same as some of my church mates as they like to tickle each other necks and they will be laughin loudly, I named my TQ laughin grp cos if they start laughin they will laugh loudly hahahaha... Its quite cute isn't? Love them all!
But there this girl who like to come to me, and frankly speakin i'm scared of her! She is so rough, she like to push, hit ppl, talks loudly, laugh loudly at ppl and petty! She is very IRRITATING! Dun really likes her as she is much bigger size than me so quite scared of her and I guess she knows it, so she climbs up to my head and this makes me feel so irritated by her. A few of my church mates seems like irritated by her too... Wat can I do to stop her from being so Irritatin? I had been prayin for her, i guess it takes time bah... Prayin tt she can stop disturbin us and stop pulling my poor bag...

Today...

Today went out with my godsis, Christine to Orchard haha she went there for interview. She wear all black(Lady In Black)hehhx, I also wear black but with blue jeans and blue shoes. While goin to meet her, saw my primary school classmate LiuYing so long nv see her already and i can't really recognised her but she can recognise me haha, we chat in the MRT... Then saw Christine Jie and went Mac for lunch den to Forum toy's r us to find her fren, Joshua, also from NPCC area4 de now step down le hehe... Just nice when we saw him we were talkin abt ATF haha I have height phobia so scared of height lo, den he came and we started to talk abt the high elements and the flyin fox. Die arh next year got ATF can skip mah but... Lord pls help me!
Den she went for her interview and den we go shop shop around and then we went United Square wih Joshua and we go home. Reach home mommy nv cook and i also dun feel like eatin so i nv eat dinner hehe...
Dunno y suddenly I feel giddy as i can't even see the com properly...

This week

Havin dance this whole week, quite busy, going from house to house tryin to have dance practice for friday performance but at last we do not have a chance to dance at primary school, so sad practice so hard and everythin is canceled. Saturday, I dun get a chance to go to church so sad la missed God for the whole day cos its like I can't go home to see my church family memebers. My church is organising Red White Competition, sisters need to wear red to support the team and the sisters team had been winning for years as well as this year, yeah!

I missed it, cos got to celebrate grandma's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Grandma, Luv u lots... She is the best grandma, lovely, cheerful and strong! Thanks Lord for watching her over all these years! Hmmm while findin clothes can't find any nice one so just wear OBS shirt as my uncles was lookin forward to see me wear haha and a jeans with my faourite necklace. Went there chat with cousins, eat and play 'Concentration'haha first time introducin games to a group and is sucessfully played haha.

We took some picts too it looks so cool!

Yeah I've got another godsis tt is Christine my NPCC ma'am luv her lots, tmr gonna go out with her, can't wait to see her cos nv see her after she step down so sad, will miss her de!

Today in church learn abt psalm 121 its very useful in our lives cos God promise tt He will watch over us and always protect us.

"The Lord will keep you from all harm- he will watch over your life." Psalm121:7

Today there is Holy Communion, to comemorate tt Jesus died on the cross for Us!

Then after service we went to blks to give out pamphlets abt bu dao hui for senior citizens, hehe good tt i got give out before in NPCC haha but this year i nv go cos of some stupid reason. So now at least I do it for God! Thanks Lord!