Just Love Sat & Sun!

Sat and Sun was my only free days, and this is the only 2 days tt I goes to church, I just Love my church so much haha.
Ytd brought MinFang(PigFang) to my church, yea tts her first time goin to chi service. Actually suppose to bring Janine there too ya but she did not come at last cos of somethin somethin yar. Was entertainin MinFang all the way to church as she seem so blur hurhur:D Good tt she learnt somethin in church yea and ya know more frens haha. As ytd was Prayer Walk, It is just so wow amzing yea COOL! Really thought alot, hope I will continue to think more before it rust.
I've better stop typinb and rest cos got bus sick as I took the wateva bus is tt ya gotta go now say bye to cat! MEOW!

Take tt False Mask out of Urself!

Lost hope, I'm out of my mind. Jaut taken out the mask off myself, I can't continue my life when I'm not myself. Just don't know how they do tt, it is too diff for me. With the fake mask on, even though is like actin to be another person tt can be accepted by others, want to act why dun join drama? Actin to be another person to become "frens"(only when together) but when we are not "HATRED" come along. Things won't be solved if we continue like this, agree? I can really differnt shade myself with mask and without mask.

With mask, I gett frustrated, jealousy,hatred very easily, words tt hurt ppl(includin vulgarities)flow out like water tap & of course talk a lot but 75%nonsence.

Without mask, use eyes, ears, more than mouth. Look to God... It's a big differnce isn't?
There is once at home I put the mask on & wrote 1 whole list of ppl who I'm sad of. Realisin wat I've done wanted to go back to God but I'm afraid, just felt a disgrace to God's name. I cried to God but still..... told this to Jeremy,he invite me to his church for service. Ya Thanks Jeremy(:

Reminder: Don't think of puttin a false mask its scary...

To Circuit Breakers: Take tt mask out of yourself as I had alr done.Pour all the Problems out and solve it together! Lets concentrate in this dance no matter how short our time left, let this round be the BEST! Go Circuit Breakers! We Can Do It!

Stop hating!

Why? hatred come into my life again, starting to hate again arrrh... I'm tired, really tired of this can I just forget and never remember not even the word? Maybe my mom is right just ignore, but it seem so diff as they not only doin once but they do it almost everyday. The more they do I feel irritated and wanted to scold them, but I dun have the heart to scold them though so ya, avoid? is tt the only way to solve? I dun think so but ya nvm. And this is not only them there is more of course got one whole list to hate ya they are all those who hurt me most... I know Hatred bad but i dunno y hatred come in to my mind. My mind was like tellin me Frens sucks, dun ever trust them, dun even think of them, I hate frens, wanna leave this place as soon as possible bla bla bla~


This person lets call him A, one of my classmates. He really pissed me off man during ATF those who have medical prob dun do so we stay in the canteen(real borin). He knows tt I'm a christian and he started to critisise God in front of me, he almost persuade someone to stop bein a christian but good tt he doesn't agree with him. He was like sayin all sorts of things like regret to become a Christian as he himself is a christian last time when he is not with the guy who also my classmate and also a strong Chistian. Both end up stop followin Christ and follow others. He said all thiese in front of me and still look at me with a kind of did it purposely kind of look, feel like standin up and talk back for God but ya remberin tt God did not teach me to scold but to pray for them. And ya I cool myself down and listen to my mp4. Knowin tt God will know wat to do.

Heart is broken into tooooo many pieces, wonder will it be ment back again?

Can't give up on Dancing...

I just miss the time dancin together, hopin to join back. Problems made me get out of tt group and we seem to be strangers now arhhh, even though they can forgive but I can't forgive myself and of course forget. Its because of me i guess... Things goes REAL wrong. I just lost faith in frens, seems like I'm invisible and the only thing i can do is to make real invisible. We are strangers, we can't get along which I hope to CHANGE! I dun feel like talkin in class and I kept real quiet. Today Zaki e class chairman haha filled with tricks, last lesson was VE form-teacher nv come so co-form-teacher took over. She talks abt e level camp which sec4s dun have but have all kinds of useful courses which I thnk is much better hurhur. Tts not e point of e story haha, Zaki was like writin down names for those who talks and I was like doin nth just sittin there facin the white board and daze. For i know my name won't be up there. Zaki saw me and wrote my name(errr with wrong spellin). I was shocked wondered wat i did then he shouted, You are suppose to have fun why keep quiet...
And everyone started luaghin hahaha wat scene wat a scene... hmmm not funny anyway

School is back

At last had been waitin so long, loneliness had been drivin me crazy. I know how it is like when frens are not around as everyone runs away and u are toatally blurred and blank. I had these feelings before not long ago years back since i was in Primary School and I hate those years. And the feeling is back, just so... Can't be descibed. I just want frens... Shoutin"WHERE ARE MY FRENS?" Are they dead somewhere or they had run away and never leave a note? Had been doin housework to keep me from thinkin about frens but when I'm alone it came back. I want to forget FRIENDS. THEY ARE NOT MINE! Or maybe gotta pray hard for trust worhty friends then. Or may be just forget it and yar only God is our only best fren, no one else.
Ok got it. Gotta study hard for this year and obey God no other stuffs is to be stuffed in my time table. Next this is the last year in school not gonna care about friends or other things just study. I'll do it whole heartedly! For God not myself.
Let us just Thank God for what He had blessed us, family, teachers and church frens. And maybe old trustworthy frens and old frens. Good things and yar trials tt had let us grown. Got to speak to God and listen to God's voice carefully. This year's aim -God -studies.... Nothin else.