Dots this few days I've change alot cos of my sickness...Blamin everythin onto my sickness lol...
I can't talk, Can't hear properly... My ear super pain, super irritatin...
I wanna hit onto somethin w my fist to cover the pain... I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!
Everytime I feel the pain either I'll cover my ear if not my fist will be clentched!!! Anytime can punch onto any of the hard objects...
Now I can't even swallow properly, not even saliva(yikes sorry 4 being disgustin) take so much effort to swallow, wat nonsence... Still talk abt food... Almost vomited w every mouth of food i put in my mouth...
Just went to seek the doc... Its pathetic to have MCsss for weekends...
Even on my precious SUNDAY!!! GRRRRRRRRRR...
I didn't even realised I'm havin fever... I'm super weak la can... Immune system is lackin...
Hey NURSES!!! sisM, SiXian,GuanLiang how to build my immune system arh???
Aft consumin all the medi I'm lik walkin zig zag...ZZZ drunk??
Anw Thks JASON for prayin for me, and all the concern msgs... MOST APPRECIATED:):)
I shall start puttin faith in all of my prayers... GG, Physically down but spiritual PLS DUN DOWN...

Talkin abt split personality durin work w Estha haha
realised I have tooo lol.....
The 2 me talkin inside of me.
1 tellin me I can, another tellin me I can't...
Negative tots which will cancel 1by1 the blessings tt GOD had prepared for us...
N another me will tell me off, remindin me of this phrase n ask me to start confessin...
CONFESS IN ME!!! No one knows... Only HIM...
Its always my spiritual body will do the good stuffs yet my old mind will do the bad ones.
Spiritual body had done great things in me, HE's always the one who motivates me in doin things which I think I can't. "For I can do all things in CHRIST who strengthens me."Nth is impossieble for HIM...Yet HE's in me.SO yea the preachin of my heart cames...

Now only 1 knew my aim, but turned back n tell me off nicely...Tt phrase will be in me...
I'm truly suppose to do tt to myself, n i did it. Tryin to be saddis in all way to MYSELF...

I'm sorry grp1 , knowin I can't lead well, n i can nv lead well...
I'm sry... U guys can do better...

DUN READ IF IT OFFENSE U!!!!

~When the favor of God shines on your church, you will find its premises too small for the people who queue up week after week to attend the services! So when people wonder and ask, “What is happening here?” you can tell them, “It is the favor of God multiplied all over us!” And it is all undeserved, unearned and unmerited! By Pastor Prince!!! Yeah at last I got a time to read...

~Isaiah 53:44Surely He has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows… This is what I needed most :) Thks comforter of my soul;) If Jesus can heal diseases n GOD can heal cancers, then what more than just a cough or sore throat???

~Lets boldly declare tt “I am not righteous because of what I have done or not done. I am righteous only because of the blood and finished work of Jesus at the cross!”

~This means that once you are a believer, the blood of Jesus Christ keeps on cleansing you from every sin! (Wash-cycle) 24 hours a day, seven days a week — and move on with God!

~Isaiah 53:5 declares, “By His stripes you are healed!”
All frm Pastor Prince's devotions:) Haha

Lord, should I declare tt today is a tremendous AWESOME DAY or a crushed down day???
Thankyou for the time in church, but I'm late again...
Lord, help me plan my time. My time management sux as u know I can't do anythin w/o YOU rite.
Anw the time w Cheryl for biblestudy in chc, I learnt ALOT!!! N my heart for P&W changed was awesome. HAHA I'm sooo blessed THKS CHERYL;)loves loves... Thks for re-lightin the fire for Christ in me... I've shared almost what I've imagined n wanted to, THANK GOD for the courage.
I thought in my whole life no one knows it except YOU(GOD):') I'm touched by UR works GOD.
Yeah today was awesome la, everythin seems so good n svc seems so hyper.
Pastor Kong's msg was even powerful, claps claps claps n wow-ness... COOL!!! woah!!!
It was even happier to hear of the new land central of SGP WOOHOOOO-ing!!!!!!!!

It has come to an end w.... I'll Con't pray, stand firm n strong... Its a new beginnin w HIM tmr...

Woah now my turn to blog aft sooooo looonnng lol, GG i've been bloggin on papers cos i'm bored.
No time for com though, there's happy sad, angry, sobs...nvm...
Within just few days... Gosh time fly past too fast.

Lord, I'm uselsess, I can't do things well, I can't plan n organise things well, I can't a single thing well GOSH! I'm truly useless manz. I'm cursing n swearing myself, why in my mind is tt he chose the wrong leader to lead. Wat on earth! The eyes of EVERYONE makes me panicks, all I see is YOU CAN NV DO IT!!! R U SURE U CAN??? That freaks me out, the fear tt no one will EVER know. Lord, time calm me down man... It wasn't cos I'm stress, lik wat everyone said."hey joc dun be stress" thks for being there for me everyone:') most appreciated. But I'm not stress. Its lik I needa calm down. I wanna do my best but with this dumb brain of mine wat on earth can I plan anything. My heart was telling me if anything goes wrong not anyone's fault BUT YOUR fault. And wat others said was rite it reflected on me not him. Its not his faultbut mine pla ppl dun blame the innotcent ones. He has done the most, why no one sees it but only his bad side. Everyone has diff thinking and attitude. Lord, I'm crying out to you, do something to me, change me,lead me, mould me, slap me to wake my bloody idea up. Now aft thinkin why he chose me maybe cos of my mouth, THKS AE, U ALMOST KILLED ME!!! Talk nonsence, comfirm one! I also can't rmb wat I said...TSK!!! HATE MYSELF MANZ!!! Oh shut up Joc...