This few days, my heart very pain and I don't know why, my mom told me tt my cousin also got then he went to seek the doct and the doct said we are havin stress ya... I'm kinda of shocked tt I dun even know tt I'm goin through the stress haha. My mom was like tellin to rest and if can dun do so much of exercise but u gotta know tt my Napfa is just so so so near le nv train I can die man. She also ask me to take care of myself and seems like a lot of my frens said the same thing to me.
Things must really need to happen, but even though it happens it seems like thers no diff. I just wanna say It must be a diff but dun feel the way I feel so forget it.
Stepped down from NP le YIPPEEE! At Last, had been waitin for tt for a long long time le. Nv thought tt it will be touchin but it is.
Deyi Military Band Win! Haha happy for them anyway its over already but ppl keep sayin and sayin but ya keep remindin me abt the guiltiness.
Arrrhhh this few days my frens and I were like feeling so down arrrhhh.Tryin to cheer them up. Hope I did?
My blog is gonna rust very soon no one tag me sianz...
my fren just sms me askin me who do I trust in class? And my will always be NO!

Just Love Sat & Sun!

Sat and Sun was my only free days, and this is the only 2 days tt I goes to church, I just Love my church so much haha.
Ytd brought MinFang(PigFang) to my church, yea tts her first time goin to chi service. Actually suppose to bring Janine there too ya but she did not come at last cos of somethin somethin yar. Was entertainin MinFang all the way to church as she seem so blur hurhur:D Good tt she learnt somethin in church yea and ya know more frens haha. As ytd was Prayer Walk, It is just so wow amzing yea COOL! Really thought alot, hope I will continue to think more before it rust.
I've better stop typinb and rest cos got bus sick as I took the wateva bus is tt ya gotta go now say bye to cat! MEOW!

Take tt False Mask out of Urself!

Lost hope, I'm out of my mind. Jaut taken out the mask off myself, I can't continue my life when I'm not myself. Just don't know how they do tt, it is too diff for me. With the fake mask on, even though is like actin to be another person tt can be accepted by others, want to act why dun join drama? Actin to be another person to become "frens"(only when together) but when we are not "HATRED" come along. Things won't be solved if we continue like this, agree? I can really differnt shade myself with mask and without mask.

With mask, I gett frustrated, jealousy,hatred very easily, words tt hurt ppl(includin vulgarities)flow out like water tap & of course talk a lot but 75%nonsence.

Without mask, use eyes, ears, more than mouth. Look to God... It's a big differnce isn't?
There is once at home I put the mask on & wrote 1 whole list of ppl who I'm sad of. Realisin wat I've done wanted to go back to God but I'm afraid, just felt a disgrace to God's name. I cried to God but still..... told this to Jeremy,he invite me to his church for service. Ya Thanks Jeremy(:

Reminder: Don't think of puttin a false mask its scary...

To Circuit Breakers: Take tt mask out of yourself as I had alr done.Pour all the Problems out and solve it together! Lets concentrate in this dance no matter how short our time left, let this round be the BEST! Go Circuit Breakers! We Can Do It!

Stop hating!

Why? hatred come into my life again, starting to hate again arrrh... I'm tired, really tired of this can I just forget and never remember not even the word? Maybe my mom is right just ignore, but it seem so diff as they not only doin once but they do it almost everyday. The more they do I feel irritated and wanted to scold them, but I dun have the heart to scold them though so ya, avoid? is tt the only way to solve? I dun think so but ya nvm. And this is not only them there is more of course got one whole list to hate ya they are all those who hurt me most... I know Hatred bad but i dunno y hatred come in to my mind. My mind was like tellin me Frens sucks, dun ever trust them, dun even think of them, I hate frens, wanna leave this place as soon as possible bla bla bla~


This person lets call him A, one of my classmates. He really pissed me off man during ATF those who have medical prob dun do so we stay in the canteen(real borin). He knows tt I'm a christian and he started to critisise God in front of me, he almost persuade someone to stop bein a christian but good tt he doesn't agree with him. He was like sayin all sorts of things like regret to become a Christian as he himself is a christian last time when he is not with the guy who also my classmate and also a strong Chistian. Both end up stop followin Christ and follow others. He said all thiese in front of me and still look at me with a kind of did it purposely kind of look, feel like standin up and talk back for God but ya remberin tt God did not teach me to scold but to pray for them. And ya I cool myself down and listen to my mp4. Knowin tt God will know wat to do.

Heart is broken into tooooo many pieces, wonder will it be ment back again?

Can't give up on Dancing...

I just miss the time dancin together, hopin to join back. Problems made me get out of tt group and we seem to be strangers now arhhh, even though they can forgive but I can't forgive myself and of course forget. Its because of me i guess... Things goes REAL wrong. I just lost faith in frens, seems like I'm invisible and the only thing i can do is to make real invisible. We are strangers, we can't get along which I hope to CHANGE! I dun feel like talkin in class and I kept real quiet. Today Zaki e class chairman haha filled with tricks, last lesson was VE form-teacher nv come so co-form-teacher took over. She talks abt e level camp which sec4s dun have but have all kinds of useful courses which I thnk is much better hurhur. Tts not e point of e story haha, Zaki was like writin down names for those who talks and I was like doin nth just sittin there facin the white board and daze. For i know my name won't be up there. Zaki saw me and wrote my name(errr with wrong spellin). I was shocked wondered wat i did then he shouted, You are suppose to have fun why keep quiet...
And everyone started luaghin hahaha wat scene wat a scene... hmmm not funny anyway