Can't give up on Dancing...

I just miss the time dancin together, hopin to join back. Problems made me get out of tt group and we seem to be strangers now arhhh, even though they can forgive but I can't forgive myself and of course forget. Its because of me i guess... Things goes REAL wrong. I just lost faith in frens, seems like I'm invisible and the only thing i can do is to make real invisible. We are strangers, we can't get along which I hope to CHANGE! I dun feel like talkin in class and I kept real quiet. Today Zaki e class chairman haha filled with tricks, last lesson was VE form-teacher nv come so co-form-teacher took over. She talks abt e level camp which sec4s dun have but have all kinds of useful courses which I thnk is much better hurhur. Tts not e point of e story haha, Zaki was like writin down names for those who talks and I was like doin nth just sittin there facin the white board and daze. For i know my name won't be up there. Zaki saw me and wrote my name(errr with wrong spellin). I was shocked wondered wat i did then he shouted, You are suppose to have fun why keep quiet...
And everyone started luaghin hahaha wat scene wat a scene... hmmm not funny anyway

School is back

At last had been waitin so long, loneliness had been drivin me crazy. I know how it is like when frens are not around as everyone runs away and u are toatally blurred and blank. I had these feelings before not long ago years back since i was in Primary School and I hate those years. And the feeling is back, just so... Can't be descibed. I just want frens... Shoutin"WHERE ARE MY FRENS?" Are they dead somewhere or they had run away and never leave a note? Had been doin housework to keep me from thinkin about frens but when I'm alone it came back. I want to forget FRIENDS. THEY ARE NOT MINE! Or maybe gotta pray hard for trust worhty friends then. Or may be just forget it and yar only God is our only best fren, no one else.
Ok got it. Gotta study hard for this year and obey God no other stuffs is to be stuffed in my time table. Next this is the last year in school not gonna care about friends or other things just study. I'll do it whole heartedly! For God not myself.
Let us just Thank God for what He had blessed us, family, teachers and church frens. And maybe old trustworthy frens and old frens. Good things and yar trials tt had let us grown. Got to speak to God and listen to God's voice carefully. This year's aim -God -studies.... Nothin else.

Last day in Mac...

Yesterday was my last day in AMKP Mac, gonna miss them all. Really have a great time with them but yesterday was the best cos Javin was with us haha. Those whom I really feel like seein them came Thanks Lord. Haha really thanks Lord for such a great day last night. Thanks to Javin too as he let me talk to Awang e one who I nv talk before. Everyone came to ask who is this little cute boy haha I said my bro, everyone was like sayin Javin so cute. Manager Diana treat Javin with small Milo haha cos he waited for me for 4hrs. And they say I bully him but e fact is he wanted to stay not I force him. But nvm he brought joy to everyone of us. As he also get a chance to see me work, I did alot of station anyway ya fun. Did lobby, french fries, Counter, and got a chance to walk all around for the last time. But I dun get a chnce to say good bye to Aunty Mee, Aunty Siao Yee and Aunty Swee Liang, they are so caring, lovely and ya love them so much. Jeremy tt guy he is so bad, he kept disturbin my bro and me and ya run back to his counter to run away from me how smart watever. Haha keep askin me to add him in msn his email add is so funny la but ya he is quite a nice guy though.
I have to say a big Thank You to the Managers and every crew leaders and crews as they really take care of me and so good to me, will miss them all. Wonder will I go back again to meet them, maybe as a customer then.

Thank You all...

Even though there is bad but dun forget the good ones cos Lord will bless u with great things ya and all happened in church no where else. I just love goin to church meetin AMK bros and sis. They always bring joy to me. This is the first year i had so many christmas present and its all from church members. I'm so happy. But I'm sorry too cos did not prepare anything for them.Sorry guys.

Its over!

Everything gone, friends, heart, words, feelings. I'm exhausted tts all! Wanna sleep and never be awake. Left with tears tts all. Ganna pray, spend time with our Heavenly Father, as i did not do it for day. Many things happened to suddenly.No one actually understand, its just too sudden. Wanna leave it BLANK! A white piece and not a black piece.