I don't like this feeling, its so lonely, no one to talk to. Can't find someone just feel so empty except crying, trying to be strong but I can't as yesterday i locked myself in the room and cried for 30mins.But this time cry for a lot of things, I sin against God, dunno how to forgive myself! Am I in deep trouble? Wat should I do? I did pray, but don't know how to face God, ask for forgiveness but still got the guilt in me so wat am I suppose to do?
Good tt I got dance pract or else I'm gonna be mad at home, I will be thinkin of the past, the things that I've done that have hurt someone and our havenly Fateher... I'm scared, extremely scared!!! Want tell others but who???? And if there is someone who I can talk with now I would be happy and purposely forget to say the thing cos I'm scared and I don't know how to start.
But still need to thank God for answerin my prayers and I promise I will not to do it again!
He is leavin the school, how am I goin to survive not seein him? But nvm we are totally diff and somemore we did not relly know each other so ya GOOD LUCK in everything u do! Hope to see u next time bah and u will be a christian by then! Bye! KFC~940 :'(
Why is everyone changing? Why are they gettin from good to bad? And some were my besties last time and now were like enimies! How could this happen to them as well to me, my heart is broken into many many many pieces!!!!
October 31, 2007
October 28, 2007
How great is our God!
While listening to christian song, do you felt tt you had been calm down and forget about everythin as you had put on God's hand so do not need to worry about anythin as the bible had written"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, with thanks giving present your request to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your mind inChrist Jesus."Phillipians4:6-7
Jesus I will live for You
In everything I do
I'm holding on to You
Always! Always and forever
Praise the Lord! Serve the Lord, isn't it great? With all hearts and your soul...
Must be glad tt God chose us as His little children, He sent Jesus to earth to save us from our sins so must be glad about it and also to share the message to others so we can worship Him together as 1 big family!
Bring Glory to God's name! Amen? Amen!=)
Hmmm tts wat I think not only english christian songs is nice, y don't try listenin to chinese its cool also. Although my chinese is like dunno wat but i still like the songs, its so meaningful and cool!
Say until chinese, my chinese is like dunno wat but thanks to my church as I went to chinese service so its like improvin erm maybe. The most I'm scared of is readin bible cos it is very diff because i dunno how to read. But thanks to my church frens as they help me along while I'm readin like if I dunno how to read the word they will teach me how to read. hehe thank you so much!
I love God, that is what I want to say!!!
I love dancing and feel like participate in the dance in my church to serve God and also show our talents...
Jesus I will live for You
In everything I do
I'm holding on to You
Always! Always and forever
Praise the Lord! Serve the Lord, isn't it great? With all hearts and your soul...
Must be glad tt God chose us as His little children, He sent Jesus to earth to save us from our sins so must be glad about it and also to share the message to others so we can worship Him together as 1 big family!
Bring Glory to God's name! Amen? Amen!=)
Hmmm tts wat I think not only english christian songs is nice, y don't try listenin to chinese its cool also. Although my chinese is like dunno wat but i still like the songs, its so meaningful and cool!
Say until chinese, my chinese is like dunno wat but thanks to my church as I went to chinese service so its like improvin erm maybe. The most I'm scared of is readin bible cos it is very diff because i dunno how to read. But thanks to my church frens as they help me along while I'm readin like if I dunno how to read the word they will teach me how to read. hehe thank you so much!
I love God, that is what I want to say!!!
I love dancing and feel like participate in the dance in my church to serve God and also show our talents...
October 27, 2007
Last day of school
Skipped school together with my friends so bad. But got things to do tt is to prepare for bbq in school only those who are specially invited by us and accepted by Miss Lee hehe. Woke up at around 9am but sms denise at 8.45am ask her what time are suppose to meet but i'm to tired to wake up so continue to sleep for 15mins. So excited for the bbq wonder how is it goin to be like, start packin my staffs and do some house chores. Then go to Kasthuri house, watchin her doin her house chores then i play with her dog, Amukutty, so big and fat but she is cute... Denise came play with Amukutty then hours later Ameera, Anisah and Sufiandi came as school ended early ytd. Then awhile later Ramzan came and we sat down talkin craps while Kasthuri doin her staff. Then they say they want to go to Suria's house to disturb him, so we went there to wait for him. He took so long and Sufiandi went to his sis house, we waited so long and at last they are done. Only Denise, Anisah and I went to buy our lunch and brought it to Kasthuri's house and eat. And while the rest is waitin, Sufiandi was asleep on the sofa, he is so cute. Then and Denise went to the kitshen and see kas mom cookin, so sad la she cook prawn then i cannot eat. Dunno y kept seeing prawn everywhere i go sigh. Then I went to the livin room and sat beside Sufiandi, lookin at him haha then later he woke up and look at me. I told him to wake up as this is not his house haha, he started to disturb me and i disturb him back. Then we prepare ourselves to go to school to start the bbq... We seperate ourselves into 2 grps as there were 8 of us, Suria, Ameera, Ramzan and Anisah took 1 Taxi as they were goin to Anisah to take some food tt her father made for us, Thanks a lot yum yum! Then Kasthuri, Denise, Sufiandi and Me took another Taxi to school, reach school saw Guan Seng good tt he nv ask me y i nv go school, he just tell me to go NPCC room to collect jacket hehe so cool the jacket! Luv it!
Then they start to bbq food hehe yum yum! Everyone had reached and ate some food so we decided to play water games hehe fillin up the water bombs, then brought it to netball court and the guys started throwin not even playin games so we all get wet but they say not really fun so we go to a better place to play "concentration" thgose who loose will be poured with 1.5 l of water so everyone got a few bottles accept me hehe so they try to sabo me but too bad... Then twe went back to refill the water bottles and they started to pour at each other, everyone was totally wet! Bute it is fun then we start to pour at those who are dry and we hug them and no one is dry, even miss lee as me and Denise plan to ask her out as she hide in the staffroom so we ask miss lee to take somethin from us and we pull the door and grab her out and everyone pour at her. Then while were playin, miss lee and Jamie's mom were bbq the rest of the food, some of them came back andeat second round while me and some of them go change. After changin we took a few picts haha so cool man! Thanks Lord, for givin me such a good year with my frenz and so many good memories tt i will nv forget!
Then they start to bbq food hehe yum yum! Everyone had reached and ate some food so we decided to play water games hehe fillin up the water bombs, then brought it to netball court and the guys started throwin not even playin games so we all get wet but they say not really fun so we go to a better place to play "concentration" thgose who loose will be poured with 1.5 l of water so everyone got a few bottles accept me hehe so they try to sabo me but too bad... Then twe went back to refill the water bottles and they started to pour at each other, everyone was totally wet! Bute it is fun then we start to pour at those who are dry and we hug them and no one is dry, even miss lee as me and Denise plan to ask her out as she hide in the staffroom so we ask miss lee to take somethin from us and we pull the door and grab her out and everyone pour at her. Then while were playin, miss lee and Jamie's mom were bbq the rest of the food, some of them came back andeat second round while me and some of them go change. After changin we took a few picts haha so cool man! Thanks Lord, for givin me such a good year with my frenz and so many good memories tt i will nv forget!
Picts tt were taken tt day!!!
Sporting ppl tt we invtie!!! Sporting babi's must keep up the good work man!!!
Circuit Breakers with Miss Lee!Nice post!
Us with Jamie's mom! Sporting grp!
Sufiandi and me... Bro n sis!
Favourite Picture!
Me and Ameera, cheezy! Love her lots! Cat and Mouse!
October 20, 2007
Back from OBS
Yeah at last I'm home miss my family so much, learn how to appreciate them more than before. The five days camp really learn a lot about myself hmmm try to reach a higher aim, maybe... Made more frinds as I had 16 members in my group Nila Utama haha cool man know them all... Miss them on the last day wish we can meet again:)
First day doing the tust fall, balayer thngy remembered all the commands in mind. Cool but exhausting... Cook in the dark and pitch the tent in the dark, thought got doms but dun have haix must sleep late wake up early and unpitch tents for the five days. So tiring but fun with my buddies haha. First time talk to them quite scared but fun makin friends after all, hmmm 4 of my grp members are from my school and 1 of them are from my class and tts Zaki the funny and caring one. I was asked to become food IC hmmm nice 1 man at least contribute something hehe:)
Looks like my whole group still can't remember my name so they call me Garfield thru e whole camp so ya thanks to Zaki who called me tt first since he was my classmate haha. Everyone of them were so cute and we became buddies for the next few days. Fast rite haha cool nehx! Saw my church fren over there what a coincidence Thanks Lord for meeting Qin Yi over there haha start talkin to her now a days haha. Second day we went for kayakin it's e first time in my whole life so excited but its tough keep banging on to other kayaks but e the most I like is capsized then doin the dunno wat saving to help another pairs to get back on to their kayaks, fun man. After bathin we went for rock climbin first time climb so high thanks to their encouragements and supports. Never meet such a team before as they cheer for you and will guide you up there too. God will do the same thing to when you see an obstacle, God will be there for you, guidin you and telling you wat to do to reach your destiny. Jamie cried wishin to go home, I was tryin to calm her down and change her mind set but she is gettin too stressed up and scared, I just dunno wat to do, such a useless friend I am haiz.
Third and Forth day was land and sea expedition. Learnt how to endure, persevere and encourge is very important. For land we walked a very long distance need hours to reach our destiny so tiring but we did it we went up the mountain it is quite fun up there nice scenery spent some time there lookin at the scenery, left one the last point because it is quite late we went to a place to pitch our tents wishin tt the last days is reachin.
For sea expidition Kayak for 5hrs with Zaki havin a hard time with him but felt guilty and sorry what should I do, I'm scared tt we might haix, what should I do? I became darker but not as dark as I want to be haix skin tearin off so painful. Ouch!
Last day came yeah can go home missing my group members good tt I got their contact numbers and email add and many more at least can contact each other :) Next week goin have a tough time in school many things happenin and my dancing group is startin yeah can dance again.Now havin a headache and feel like vomitting so sick man, feelin like floatin oh no what should I do?
First day doing the tust fall, balayer thngy remembered all the commands in mind. Cool but exhausting... Cook in the dark and pitch the tent in the dark, thought got doms but dun have haix must sleep late wake up early and unpitch tents for the five days. So tiring but fun with my buddies haha. First time talk to them quite scared but fun makin friends after all, hmmm 4 of my grp members are from my school and 1 of them are from my class and tts Zaki the funny and caring one. I was asked to become food IC hmmm nice 1 man at least contribute something hehe:)
Looks like my whole group still can't remember my name so they call me Garfield thru e whole camp so ya thanks to Zaki who called me tt first since he was my classmate haha. Everyone of them were so cute and we became buddies for the next few days. Fast rite haha cool nehx! Saw my church fren over there what a coincidence Thanks Lord for meeting Qin Yi over there haha start talkin to her now a days haha. Second day we went for kayakin it's e first time in my whole life so excited but its tough keep banging on to other kayaks but e the most I like is capsized then doin the dunno wat saving to help another pairs to get back on to their kayaks, fun man. After bathin we went for rock climbin first time climb so high thanks to their encouragements and supports. Never meet such a team before as they cheer for you and will guide you up there too. God will do the same thing to when you see an obstacle, God will be there for you, guidin you and telling you wat to do to reach your destiny. Jamie cried wishin to go home, I was tryin to calm her down and change her mind set but she is gettin too stressed up and scared, I just dunno wat to do, such a useless friend I am haiz.
Third and Forth day was land and sea expedition. Learnt how to endure, persevere and encourge is very important. For land we walked a very long distance need hours to reach our destiny so tiring but we did it we went up the mountain it is quite fun up there nice scenery spent some time there lookin at the scenery, left one the last point because it is quite late we went to a place to pitch our tents wishin tt the last days is reachin.
For sea expidition Kayak for 5hrs with Zaki havin a hard time with him but felt guilty and sorry what should I do, I'm scared tt we might haix, what should I do? I became darker but not as dark as I want to be haix skin tearin off so painful. Ouch!
Last day came yeah can go home missing my group members good tt I got their contact numbers and email add and many more at least can contact each other :) Next week goin have a tough time in school many things happenin and my dancing group is startin yeah can dance again.Now havin a headache and feel like vomitting so sick man, feelin like floatin oh no what should I do?
My group Nila Utama! Miss Them!
October 13, 2007
Wat am I thinking?
Days pass so fast Monday going OBS le 1 week camp lo so long wish will have great fun there bah, will surely miss them especially Kasthuri, haiz wat to do cry meh, no la haha. Heard tt my dad is getting beter thanks Lord for answering my prayers. He starts to listen and disturb less, great got some improvement continue the good work man. Hmmm must ask him to smoke less or even stop smokin I hate it especially the smell. Wish he can listen and change in to a better person and my mom can accept him... Heavenly Father you Got help him... Want him to memorise this verse as it might help him...
Proverbs19:20 "Listen to advice and accept instruction, an you will be wise."
Proverbs19:20 "Listen to advice and accept instruction, an you will be wise."
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