~Suffereing children are safe in HIS arms...

~God make things happen for a purpose NOT in purpose...

~Why do u look so unhappy? I wasn't, i was just thinking, & i can't do two things at once...
-I agree with this ppl like to ask me this....weirdo...

Today didn't go church, can't open my eyes.
After sleepin at 12++ for nightSSS....Regrets...
Mummy ask me to slp more if not i'll get sick for sure. Can't let this con't...
Can't let mummy worry anymore... As well as HEAVENLYDADDY!!!
I'm sorry HEAVENLYDADDY... ILOVEYOU! BEAUTIFUL SAVIOUR!!!U ROX!
Lord, break the curse... Break that chain...
This generation must rise...
God must increase n I must decrease...
Quiet down my heart... Be still N know HE is our GOD,our saviour...
I must Keep praying...

My sharing hahas- I started my week badly, Monday had pract, we were supposed to cook 4 dishes but 4 of my dishes failed...Sigh... Its like every single day or week, i'll be going to school with full confidence but goin home with an empty heart. Though Ma'am nv scold me, I still felt super bad&guilty cos she is so patience with me yet I still disappoint her. When I reached home I was super sad that I cried out to the Lord. Asking HIM why this why that... Was hoping for an answer. The next day while doin QT I read tt, when our mind were filled with DOUBTS, we tend to focus on ALL the possible BAD outcomes. Our fears, worries,&trust in God fluctuate as we wait, we pray, we grieve&wonder wat the LORD will do. But knowing that HE's a powerful GOD who cares for us. HE will always make a way.

Sorry for keepin u ppl waitin, was super lazy...
Ask tt kokway help me blog but nv, zhi!

This few days just feel like keep quiet,
sorry again, Brinz not tt i dun wanna eat nonsence pill or there's anythin within me...
No No No, I'm fine thks for ur love n concern dear....
Just thot someone will ever care... Yepps nth happen... & i think its over...
Left Speechless... It'll nv be the same...): criessss????

But thank God, i still have Brinz, Kokway, Darren, & many more, thks ppl:) lovessss....
U ppl bring joy into my life....
LAUGH NON-STOP!!! thks=D....
Wo Yao Da Ping Pong...Mombaidah india* (???brinz how to spell arh???)...haha...

Mom lecture me aft knowin i didn't take lunch on Mon,
still can rmb wat she said...Thks mummy....I'm sorry....
Almost fainted tt nite haahaa...
Told her wat really happen, to my failures she told me, CONFINDENCE&FOCUS...
Focus is wat I'm lack at when i know it, I made a prayer...
Thank You HEAVENLYDADDY, for answering it...

This week super weird, don't looks like me at all lo...
Talk super lot!!! If wanna talk then talk super lot, then if dun wanna talk keep super quiet.
But will always get influence by the class, a class filled with nonsence and laghters.....
Actually in a moody mode then cos of CKW, who always imitate my weird weird laughters... & use all kinds of ways to make me laugh... hahaha
Which brings me back to the laughing mode... thks bro:D
Brinz also another one, though we said not to talk but still.... We talk NATURALLY!
Ma'am also, keep saying my fish got langka by car, see la make me laugh tiill face turn red...
Then my sun burn make my face even red-der? Its so pain, like burnin my cheeks...
Today was great, just tt the stove give me probs early in the morning, n the scene beside me which i dunno y but can't stand it.... Was almost gonna shoot out "words" man...
Thank God, HE hold my tongue back...
All my emotions clashed tgt, anger/sad/emo but wanna be hyper...
And it all summed up to the weird weird me...
As wat hanwei tt donkey said Jocelyn u today very noisy i can't stand it alr...
Yepps fully agree... Can't stand then sit...-.-
Can't stand myself too. I'm not myself...
Then my emo doodling paper was confiscated by (not lecturer)
thks for tt note too...
Knowin tt anyone who reads, gonna kill me...
But still so sorry.... Especially ppl ard me... Shall stop thinkin abt all this aft this incidence which breaks my heart.....
DUN EVER GIVE IT TO MY WIFE!!!
She'll sure skin me alive...
As for my SISss if u 2 read i will confirm+chop u 2 gonna "seh" me...
So daughter for the sake of me either tear/burn(as a souvenier to the dustbinXp) or return me(BEST)then i can frame it n put in my room yea???
As for tt gay, u this"innocent" kid shall cont. our teasing tmr manXp stop using ur slang u can't win me, gay...Dun make me use tt word if not u will be dead... & u shall stop using it too... For goodness sake!!!

Back to school, miss everyone, as wat i knew the class will be back to the noisy mood.
Holiday mood have not really gone yet...
Was madly laughin at all the nonsence tt my class gave...hahahaha
Went back to the kitchen, my confidence was built a little by God's grace,
then lookin at my fish-.-" sigh... super embaracing can sigh....Sadis...
Then everything went alright, but my headache came back can't even open my eyes...
I'm like sleep walkin all the way to mrt...
MANY TAHNKS to ma'am, brinz, remster, wee ping, jeff...
And the whole grp of u... THANKS for ur care n concern...
Was blaming myself why am I so weak, telling myself tt I dun deserve this care and everything, i'm super useless tt I can't do anything...My old self was back...

TT irritatin word keep appearing in my mind n when i open my mouth it'll come out.
Almost killed myself cos of tt word, then the testimony remind me of God,
returning back to HIM, confess everything, miraculously the word disappear in my mind.
AMEN!
My daughter said she gonna slap me if i'm gonna do it, reminds me of ameera who did tt cos of the evil thoughts i'm havin... I must rebuke those thoughts!

Good Fri had a great time,
went to AMK hub for service?
Yeah its was AMKMC eng service, youth service, coool!
All the songs they sing had waken my spiritman in me,
the sermon was even best everything went into my head,
but sorry Lord I admit tt Idoze off again...): So sorry shldn't have stay up late tt nite b4...
Didn't went for the chinese talk cos thot i'll be goin for the class proj.
In the end both also did not turn cos its rainin heavily
& the meetin they change it to jurong east library.
Which is like super weird if i'm goin there n
then comin back to AMK then go back to Woodlands to M's church.
Lighthouse church... Miracles Healing...
M brought a batallion to church man! haha also not she call them she just incharge to bring us there yet talk so much haha jkjk... But still many claps to her, good job SIS!
L came along too A.S.K IS BACK!!!! The greetings we did is bad!
L, brush up on ur greetings la! Memorize GOD's word!!!
The songs were great though have nv heard any of them,
my spirit was moved and the dance was great was singing with my hands opened wide...
My eyes were both at the lyrics and the dance,
my heart was filled with HIS pressence, overflowing love n joy was within me...
AND MY SPIRITUAL EYES WERE ONCE OPENED AGAIN!AMEN!!!!
Thanks to pastor rony! & the testimony of ChenLiPing& her husbandRayson...
There's so much to share (not many) cos its UNCOUNTABLE man!!!
Thank U HEAVENLYDADDY for all the blessingSSSSS tt u'd put them in my life....
Even today the sturggle to go for service or not,
cos there's so many reason for me not to go, but still I went!
FOR JUST ONE REASON! GOD!IloveHIM,I'll do anything just to please HIM!!!