This Christmas, i dunno wat to say but just, sadded. the feeling its not rite ever since the quarrel started, i know neither wants it tt to happen, which is lik duh~
Can say tt, its tt night n the night at camp I cried tt badly, i dunno y.
Mum said if this happens frequently I'll be emotionally sick.
But i find tt if i cry out its better than keep everythin, n sinking into emotions lik wat happenin now.
Knowin tt others might realised this place has been abandon.
I just can't be happy, even if its the best thing of the best thng have happen, i might not be happy, I wonder y n how.I can't say it out, it'll worry, so many ppl. So scary!!!
But I want back the season of happiness, n thankfulness i found durin and aft the camp till, it happens:(
All I ant is to cry as hard as I can or just be lik my fren who wanna go svc to 诉苦...
Sighs only Lord, can help me...I believe by faith!!!

fren video this thks "BROS"

Yay! At last we're back to sch...
Aft weeks of chiong-ing work:)

Though the heart for it isn't there.
But for frens there's many:):)(hope so, but true for some;p)

At work learnt quite alot, blessed w alot of good n nice chefS
Funny, flirty, dirty... lols Kitchen life...
Met long lost chef CHEF AN!!!"Cep Ann"haha funny n nice, good chef n fren..
& Chef Desmond too:):) haha yippeeee.... So great...
Hope they'll still be there durin my attachment...

An awesome Sunday blessed by the mornin prayer w YingJie n grp @AMKCMC, P&W; SERMON(HOLY SPIRIT) ;unite with the spirit thru prayin in TONGUES @CHC:):)
Wat I learnt here i'll use it wisely in the market place;)

It really made me start off my week with great smile "some saw, some tot i'm still troubled...lol"
Blessed w the reply of attch:):) and newS... Awesome...

Woohooo Ever since MON YOUTH MEETIN w PASTOR KONG...
everything seems to be so HAPPENING!!!
I'm RESUBMITTED with NEW VISIONS!!!
WOOOOHOOOO!!!
Haha crazy me... But yea Sat went back to AMKMC hehe for FUNFAIR!!!
Was cool n many thks to JiaHui,Jeremy,Deyao for comin(:
As for CKW/BRO its alrt la haha;)
Hopin its not the last time to enter this church, but to the new buildin I'm comin back hehehe...
Needa be equipped!!! But for my frens this might be the last time i bring u guys there:(
Hope to bring u guys there aft it has rebuilt KEEP IN CONTACT chefs!!!
All my frens rmb is tt I'm being DUNKED!!! Eh thks DARYL(cousin) to pay tt $10 to dunk me!!!
As for SiXian dunno wats happenin to her when i agreed to be dunked but she didn't pay HAHA!!! N tt JiaHui is simply an awesome *GUN*SHOOTER!!!(no dirty tots!!!)His hand n eyes so cool la can!!! Javin will be the next haha!He won so many prize la can!
SHOCKED n DA KAI YAN JIAN!!!

Sun as usual went church:):) seems so ....... but the sermon inspired me though somehow i gonna fall asleep but i CAN'T! So yea hanged on n I benefitted!!! hohoho....

Mon was EXCITED for the YOUTH MEETIN w PASTOR KONG!!! Bt in e morning jog to return lib books, then went to take my pay Estha, Sher, Angie was there woooohoooos...
Then went home to pack up n off i went to the AWESOME meetin!!! I'm So Excited can...
Impt stuffs to be revealed n I'm listenin n I'm RENEWED!!!Visions made clearer...
Being re-ignited by fire of the HolySpirit. New task to be done b4 we can proceed to the main course... Jesus feeds by curds n honey; curds-HolySpirit(pray), Honey-the sweetness of the Word.
Sensitive to the spirit, the word is now my annointing. Yeopps I love u JESUS!!! U're my first love n I'm back to you...hehx;D
This song really make me think. I SIMPLY LOVE THIS SONG.

Chorus:

You're first love,

You're my true love,

You're my reason,

You're why I breathe.

I will give u my devotion

all of meX2

You chose the cross; you chose me

Surrender your life; you chose me

though I did not deserve; you chose me

So i choose to love; just as you chose me

I put you first; as you first love me

I'll treasure your grace; as you died for me.

Wah I'm SIAN LA!!!
Thank GOD tt PROJECT IS OVER WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!
Great!!! Trainings, work, church... hehehe tts my schedule...
Sch was-.- But time w daddy n frens were fun la, though it was quite disgustin...
Aft being open to it... Its actually nth its how u take it...
But wat ppl think is "does these ppl know basic respect for sexuality"
Lol suddenly i became so hmmm neutral!!!In between of both eh...
Aft sch Lunch w Ma'am in canteen w 3/4 class then for my cliques Half went POOL, Half went lan. I went w daddy.... As Promised to Darren n bone for not being a PSK!!!
Goin poool next round:):)
Class was all abt presentation.. Seriously I dunno wat came out of my mouth?
Wat did i said just now arh??? Anybody?? though it was horrible la...
But thks to Andrea he helped to talk alot:)
And during the lesson its kinda IRRRITATING!!!
The one beside, behind all talkin abt-.-
At home, in sch-.- I'M SICK ABT IT!!!
I'm soooo goin to tell, but i dun wanna hurt ppl ANYMORE!!!
Treating as a close fren but being misunderstood...
Had solution, thks Dr. ....!
I shouldn't be soft but u're also a bro in my church... Wat can i do???ARRRRHHHGGG!!!
Shall say tt, too bad tt dream WIll not leave me...
n also I'm no longer interested in guys... We'll see how, only aft yrs ltr n it'll only be ......
God do somethin abt this...