YO! Ppl welcome welcome!

2010-12-27T22:03:00.002+08:00

This Christmas, i dunno wat to say but just, sadded. the feeling its not rite ever since the quarrel started, i know neither wants it tt to happen, which is lik duh~
Can say tt, its tt night n the night at camp I cried tt badly, i dunno y.
Mum said if this happens frequently I'll be emotionally sick.
But i find tt if i cry out its better than keep everythin, n sinking into emotions lik wat happenin now.
Knowin tt others might realised this place has been abandon.
I just can't be happy, even if its the best thing of the best thng have happen, i might not be happy, I wonder y n how.I can't say it out, it'll worry, so many ppl. So scary!!!
But I want back the season of happiness, n thankfulness i found durin and aft the camp till, it happens:(
All I ant is to cry as hard as I can or just be lik my fren who wanna go svc to 诉苦...
Sighs only Lord, can help me...I believe by faith!!!

fren video this thks "BROS"

2010-12-04T00:31:00.006+08:00

2010-04-12T16:59:00.002+08:00

Yay! At last we're back to sch...
Aft weeks of chiong-ing work:)

Though the heart for it isn't there.
But for frens there's many:):)(hope so, but true for some;p)

At work learnt quite alot, blessed w alot of good n nice chefS
Funny, flirty, dirty... lols Kitchen life...
Met long lost chef CHEF AN!!!"Cep Ann"haha funny n nice, good chef n fren..
& Chef Desmond too:):) haha yippeeee.... So great...
Hope they'll still be there durin my attachment...

An awesome Sunday blessed by the mornin prayer w YingJie n grp @AMKCMC, P&W; SERMON(HOLY SPIRIT) ;unite with the spirit thru prayin in TONGUES @CHC:):)
Wat I learnt here i'll use it wisely in the market place;)

It really made me start off my week with great smile "some saw, some tot i'm still troubled...lol"
Blessed w the reply of attch:):) and newS... Awesome...

2010-03-17T11:18:00.003+08:00

Woohooo Ever since MON YOUTH MEETIN w PASTOR KONG...
everything seems to be so HAPPENING!!!
I'm RESUBMITTED with NEW VISIONS!!!
WOOOOHOOOO!!!
Haha crazy me... But yea Sat went back to AMKMC hehe for FUNFAIR!!!
Was cool n many thks to JiaHui,Jeremy,Deyao for comin(:
As for CKW/BRO its alrt la haha;)
Hopin its not the last time to enter this church, but to the new buildin I'm comin back hehehe...
Needa be equipped!!! But for my frens this might be the last time i bring u guys there:(
Hope to bring u guys there aft it has rebuilt KEEP IN CONTACT chefs!!!
All my frens rmb is tt I'm being DUNKED!!! Eh thks DARYL(cousin) to pay tt $10 to dunk me!!!
As for SiXian dunno wats happenin to her when i agreed to be dunked but she didn't pay HAHA!!! N tt JiaHui is simply an awesome *GUN*SHOOTER!!!(no dirty tots!!!)His hand n eyes so cool la can!!! Javin will be the next haha!He won so many prize la can!
SHOCKED n DA KAI YAN JIAN!!!

Sun as usual went church:):) seems so ....... but the sermon inspired me though somehow i gonna fall asleep but i CAN'T! So yea hanged on n I benefitted!!! hohoho....

Mon was EXCITED for the YOUTH MEETIN w PASTOR KONG!!! Bt in e morning jog to return lib books, then went to take my pay Estha, Sher, Angie was there woooohoooos...
Then went home to pack up n off i went to the AWESOME meetin!!! I'm So Excited can...
Impt stuffs to be revealed n I'm listenin n I'm RENEWED!!!Visions made clearer...
Being re-ignited by fire of the HolySpirit. New task to be done b4 we can proceed to the main course... Jesus feeds by curds n honey; curds-HolySpirit(pray), Honey-the sweetness of the Word.
Sensitive to the spirit, the word is now my annointing. Yeopps I love u JESUS!!! U're my first love n I'm back to you...hehx;D
This song really make me think. I SIMPLY LOVE THIS SONG.

Chorus:

You're first love,

You're my true love,

You're my reason,

You're why I breathe.

I will give u my devotion

all of meX2

You chose the cross; you chose me

Surrender your life; you chose me

though I did not deserve; you chose me

So i choose to love; just as you chose me

I put you first; as you first love me

I'll treasure your grace; as you died for me.

2010-03-09T22:03:00.003+08:00

Wah I'm SIAN LA!!!
Thank GOD tt PROJECT IS OVER WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!
Great!!! Trainings, work, church... hehehe tts my schedule...
Sch was-.- But time w daddy n frens were fun la, though it was quite disgustin...
Aft being open to it... Its actually nth its how u take it...
But wat ppl think is "does these ppl know basic respect for sexuality"
Lol suddenly i became so hmmm neutral!!!In between of both eh...
Aft sch Lunch w Ma'am in canteen w 3/4 class then for my cliques Half went POOL, Half went lan. I went w daddy.... As Promised to Darren n bone for not being a PSK!!!
Goin poool next round:):)
Class was all abt presentation.. Seriously I dunno wat came out of my mouth?
Wat did i said just now arh??? Anybody?? though it was horrible la...
But thks to Andrea he helped to talk alot:)
And during the lesson its kinda IRRRITATING!!!
The one beside, behind all talkin abt-.-
At home, in sch-.- I'M SICK ABT IT!!!
I'm soooo goin to tell, but i dun wanna hurt ppl ANYMORE!!!
Treating as a close fren but being misunderstood...
Had solution, thks Dr. ....!
I shouldn't be soft but u're also a bro in my church... Wat can i do???ARRRRHHHGGG!!!
Shall say tt, too bad tt dream WIll not leave me...
n also I'm no longer interested in guys... We'll see how, only aft yrs ltr n it'll only be ......
God do somethin abt this...

2010-03-08T20:50:00.002+08:00

Yepps I'm done w PROJ!!!no1-.-
Still got 1 more to go...
But still long way cos of hols, april'sintake exams n stuffs...
FOCUSIN ON:
~CGM wooohooo I'm comin count me in when doin refreshment!!!
~Aft svc's lunch out!!!
~Guitar sessin w Andrea,Deyao n frens??
~JOGGING- TRAININGS!!!!! SLIM DOWN!!!alrt NO INSULT!!! ASSSSS!!!
~WORK!!! in need of money GG man I'm learning my lesson:'(
~revision...~.~
While surfing thru the net last few days... Came to this blog I'm amazed la...
Thru-out the whole journey He manage to put GOD, his church, his cell grp as no1...
Almost everyday he will be meeting out w them though he's busy in sch n stuffs...
I'm lik WOW!!! Cool! Somethin to think n really concider of doin.... GOD as priority...
iloveU!!!

2010-03-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

Sat n Sun was truly an awesome time w GOD...
Sat went conerstone, Andrea's church. W e event "Love is ..."
w ZhaoHui, Kevin(Welcome to the FAMILY!!!), Deyao...
Made frens:) they're nice.... Andrea's bro n sis....
Most of them thinks I'm still in Sec Sch... I'm lik huh? haha!!!LOL!!!
Funny drama and a fruitful sermons:) Great fellowship/dinner w his CG...
True enough i dun belong there won't stay too long tooo...
Tt feelin was strong, strong till i can't feel GOD's pressence somehow a lil...durin PnW
NO CHURCH HOPPIN yepps tts OBVIOUS!!!
But as for chc I'm there for a purpose, coincidence/Godincidence... coool lik tt word:)

As for SUNDAY!!! WOOOOHOOO reveal of THE NEW BUILDING!!!
n its at SUNTEC CONVENTION HALL!!! HAHA!!! AWESOME can't get over tt excitement...
MARCH 2011 can't wait.... AHHHHHH!!!! AWESOME God's faithfulness:) ThankYou DADDY!!!
Met up w Jason in the mornin b4 svc w LiXuan. Lots of stuffs to share:)speak real fast... woah~
He just dun wanna reveal it to us first... humph... keep sayin ltr u'll know HAHA!
:X Then Deyao came intro n went for svc... AWESOME SUNDAY!!!!! ILOVESUNDAYS!!!
Its a day i meet GOD face to face n really rest on HIM...
The dream is gettin closer i hope... heehees... though its gonna be a long way to go but i'm waiting n confessing to HIM alone...
Though aft svc tot of eatin lunch w them but LiXuan goin home to celebrate her dad's B'day(HAPPY B'DAY UNCLE, though i dunno u lol)So went home con't proj still stuck,,,
Lord, I need u... I can't find anyonew better wisdom lik u... have mercy n grace on me bless me the wisdom to finsh this proj by tmr...iloveyou,lord i believe n trust in YOU!!!loves...

An urge to pray for the 2 of them... Will prepare n see when's the day n see how GOD gonna work in them... Bring glory to the kingdom of GOD. HE made all things with its purpose:)

2010-03-04T22:49:00.003+08:00

GG man i shouldn't hav seen FB i'm outta my mind now...
2 of them has been added... WTH!!!???
Hey who r u arh... See handsome jiu add crazy typical gals...TSK TSK TSK!!!
But I still believe in tt dream tt I assume is frm GOD...
uh oh asked, should I tell??? confess confess....lols..........
No interest in other livin or non livin things...

Haha ytd went to meet the AMK makals aft sch to accompany wife to print things...
then roam n recall back abt the past nonsence stuffs we did... I seriously love them both....
JAMIE & KASTHURI!!!u gals rox manz... w/o u ppl i wouldn't be like this n won't be here tooo...
I MISS YA'LL!!!
CIRCUIT BREAKERS LETS MEET UP!!!!

Today I'm lazy to do everythin la... i'm lazy to do the brownie... So only sell ice pops...
my mouth seriously somethin wrong. Anw yeah today's early slag in demo kit, but intend to go home... I'm a pro of stand-sleepin now, i can do tt very well leh... WAH!!!-.-"
Then good there's space to sleep thk GOD for wakin me up at Bishan so i won't over shot AMK...
Then went home MEDI... then napped for am hr...then woke up to slack... TMR???busy time...
Everythin I needa slot aft my proj is done... Pray tt tmr I can finish...LORD, have mercy on me...

2010-03-01T16:49:00.004+08:00

Oh well...
Things gettin good to bad, bad to worst n now is worsen...
I just feel lik running in to the road n u know~
oh welll... just wanna run away frm EVERYTHIN!!!
GOD I can't save myself... I didn't even realised how long i didn't hunger n thirst, weep n stood infront of YOU just to sense ur pressense... Its just aft pastor kong's sermon which spoken to me n reminded me... Yepps i wept...
I'm sinking but i can't...
Bring me back to the place where i shouted my last command, knowin tt I'll do a better job this time!! Let it out??not infront of others pls!!! NOOOOOOOO!!!!! I DUN WAN!!! But wat if i did?
I'm feeling bad, not right... EVERYTHIN GET BACK TO UR PLACE YEAH?
Wats wrong w me? lettin the whole world know? TTS STUUUUPID!!!
The bass of this song makes me...
ThankGod still as I get sensitive to the SPIRIT, thanks for stoppin my physical hunger. iloveuGOD...

2010-02-15T10:12:00.001+08:00

How much must I hate??? HAtin myself for hatin??? ...
I dun care... My evil side is out AT LAST! How evil can I be is up to me...
Chi new yr talk this lols... cos is damn borin... Cousin is e first to say tt ITS INTERESTIN!!!-.-"
Wat a CNY is this... U shouldn't have come....

Things in my mind flowin here n there serious hings dun wanna do...Projs all over still not done..
Wat i want is LEAVE ME ALONE!!! Let me cry all I want Let me hurt all I want Let me do wateva things all I want...
I've seen toooooooo many things... disapointed? i dunno...
Maybe i dun have e rights to be disapointed...
Clingin on?? I dunno leh...start to lack alrd...Pray for strength to cling back to u

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR everyone!!!

2010-02-15T10:00:00.002+08:00

Brinz this is specially for u:) MUST FEEL HONOURED HOR!!!! lol just kiddinXp....
Yea trully miss u loads man...
Okays last week was a short week,
as usual we sold whipped potato/mashed potato/potato mash...lol-.-"
& cheezy fries on tues... Yepps everythin went great...
Then thurs we only sell whipped potato n choc brownie...
Though there's somethings went wrong here n there but it was still okay la... can say so i think...
everythin sold within a few hrs tt was fast... Must thks to all...;)yepps tts all for fbec....
Anythings u wanna hear???

2010-02-07T22:50:00.002+08:00

Today is another?????back to my line AWESOME SUNDAY!!
YAY!!! Haha, blessed day in church again.
Though i didn't go to jurongwest but expo it was still awesome:)
The pressence of GOD was still there:)
Yeah! goin back to amkcmc next Sun:) I'm missing them badly...
True though I was plannin to go back when no one recognise me...
Today's msg was awesome la, but RevPaul spoke super FAST!!!
Sentences all tgt at 1 breathe coool! Thank God I catch some of it, n it impact me.
1 of it i've learnt"We have to make a move b4 GOD can bless,guide,lead, n many more, for GOD is alrd IN US!!! N we're HIS temple."
The P&W was great too brought me into the pressence, though we're late for the first n yet its MY FAV SONG!!!!!!!!!!
"How Great Is Our God"reminds me of HE's my father,the scene whichI'll nv forget... Embraced in HIS arms,tears all over,alrt shall stop haha...
"Lord you're more than anything"This song is gonna be in me, THIS WHOLE WEEK pls DADDY!
May I pray tt this song will be the hymns for the week:):)snif snifsss....
But still I'm satisfied:) I go for the desire of CHRIST!
Shall stop sharin things to ppl anymore...Closest?Nehx!till I know who to say to...
Only CHRIST knows me best I'll share more w HIM no humans... Me included!Trust broken! forgetit!!! speechless though... Just nail them on the cross....Lord, Its time for u n me alone...
Cool look into FB start to see ppl confessin, speakin, n even preachin... Wanna be 1 of them:)
Lord, give me the courage to do tt... Tt I'll not be ashamed of U alone...

2010-02-05T15:15:00.003+08:00

I realised i know nth much abt her...
Or maybe aft things happened, i've nailed the truth on to tt cross n forgotten everythin.
Thks bro once again...
Tot thru all this while, my conclusion: Time to stand up for my wrongs, no longer my rights... for i have no rightsThats me...Lik me hate me tts ur pasal...
Alot of u have been there for me for times thks.
N shall say its time to snap u guys off my mind... Sorry...
I dun deserve all this...
Jav keep complainin tt I'm too soft... Soft but firm:)
If i'm sayin things at the back i woundn't be writin it here rite, cos i know u'll read tts y i wrote mah... Lik tt still call behind lols...craps!!!

2010-02-05T11:45:00.006+08:00

True I'm waitin for hell now:)
I prefer this way... At least i learnt somethin, cos i nv learn things in the soft way...
I'm stirring up anger for myself:):)
Sick n tired... BORING~Lord, why life so borin wan arh... I just lik this activities below
My life now is, simple... Sch,proj,jog,work...N MOST IMPT CHURCH!!!:D
Other than doin all things i'm bored!!!
I'll talk to u personally next week... I'm sorry i depend on the wrong light...Humble me n bring me back... I dun belong there... I've been trapped by evil...Lord, soften my heart, just break me...
Thk You for I start to see u workin in my grp, I start to see blessings pouring down... w just tt $15... Its alrd a great blessings from u...
Sowing n reaping.... If u give to GOD, GOD's blessings will pour on u abundantly!!!
AMEN!!:):) This week is awesomely awesome w HIM ard hehe.... ThankYou HeavenlyDADDY!!!
Bro thks for tellin, its a reminder for me thks again...

2010-02-02T23:25:00.005+08:00

Haha I can't believe aft yrs, we're still listenin to the same song.
When same feelin occurs, we'll write tt song lyric out...
Though diff song but we'll listen the same diff song haha... Remind me of times u sing to me HAHA!!! Humming behind u...LOL!!! tt was so looooong ago...
I didn't know u're still stuck w ur love thing(crush),
hey bro when the time comes GOD will show... No point findin here n there...Waste of timeXp...
Tts y I'm nv in a hurry to find 1, though I've HAD once...
Last time I am, but now I'm not... Knowin tt U've gone thru this more than me...
U should know this more rite HAHA... BUT Singlelicious!!!is still my type HAHA!!!
Anw all the best to u(:(: Sotongbabi!!!

frm sotongpuppy(:(:hehe lovessss stilll....

2010-01-31T23:17:00.005+08:00

Today's another awesome SUNDAY!
Had short sharin w CG(: cool there's where we start to confess...
To be firm w our understandings(:
2 diff homes... Same owner...GOD... Daddy, when the time has arrives do tell me(:
Listenin to ZAN MEI ZI QUAN songs... their worship songs were awesome some of it almost caught my tears but endurin haha cos I'm outside~
The diff between was one they were VERY concerned they can read wat was goin on...
Thru fb they know part of it n they talk to u abt it...
That makes us feel warm n shows tt u're not alone... N makes u feel home... We share heart to heart probs...
They get to know faster, n more than anyone else thks CG loves... new love for GOD...
the other is tt they dun even know u're there, hmmm i does tt too sorry peeps...
I'm learnin n I'm changin... Actions DO speak louder than words...VERYTRUE!!!
thank u HeavenlyDADDY, thank u, love u love u & i love today's SERMON!!!
Infact it truly touches me...
Thru all the songs in between I find it cool... N it really goes well w the sermon...AWESOMENESS(:(: ANW I shall be back to humble myself... Lord, Humble Me!!!

HAPPY 1day late BIRTHDAY LixuanDEAR n LESLEYloves!!!:)

2010-01-30T00:22:00.006+08:00

This few weeks have been sinning, repentin sinnin and repenting...
SHIT everytime pass by the cross will look then start to daze..
Lord, I'm sorry, knowin tt lookin to the cross U've take all away.
thks!
I've been strugglin inside me, yepps suppose nt to say it here..
Anw yea lettin go was truly a big step, though i thot i did it.
But aft some words still hurts by bringin them back.... Kinda irritatin...

Alrt shall not blog abt it as sense the free frm chains rite now:):)
N yea shall talk abt this few days then, yea ever since things starts to happen.
Past came back:) Went back home, out w the old grpies:)
HAHA ppl who made me laugh till stomachache...
I've learnt a big lesson... Always be a fren and not a leech!
I've shared w them a few stuffs, n best part is nonsence stuffs is back HAHA!!
Yea n Thurs went for prawnin w the whole class was awesome:)
Haha BOSS taught me how to prawn n pool aft our late lunch w the whole grp(1 disciple cannot have 2 mastersHAHA!BOSS&SALLY)...
Cool was great time out w classmates our bond seems to improve lil by lil...
It always takes 2 hand to clap. This occurs in all situation.
Wow this few hard lessons, all this phrases just came out arh... Not bad not bad:)
Haha yea pray for strength to conquers all things tts against me...PTL PTL!!!!!TYL!!!<3<3esss

2010-01-25T22:12:00.008+08:00

U comin up to the max rite...
I'll NV cry abt all tt situations tts comin up by you anymore.
This is the last time though my eyes hurts...Nv worth it...
Be as bitchy as you want.ni zuo chu yi wo zuo shi wu...
Just a reminder b4 u regret, Shut ur bloody F mouth up to listen to wat others say...
U nv change n u'll regret for life...
U wan give me hell, I'll give u heaven....
Vent ur anger on me... I'll not... but u nv know...
Though I can't talk fast neither can I think fast nor can I react fast...
U change n train me to do tt!!!
RMB IS U CHANGE ME TO DO TT ON YOU!!!!
Words comin out of ur mouth is nv true... Watch it man...
I'll nv let it go thru in my ears its even worst than nv put it to heart.... HYPOcrite...
U nv know wat is happenin behind u...
Ur voice is damn sharp, till NO ONE CAN HEAR ME!
Dun believe I shouted over till my mom came out yet U con't w tt voice of urs...
tts y I said SHUT UR MOUTH UP N LISTEN TO WAT OTHERS HAVE TO SAY!!!
Slow minded ppl(me), needs time to think, i shall declare tt INFRONT OF UR FACE!!!
Who ask i'm inherited w this, blame me lah!!!
keep tt volume low la, infact i gonna say tt he didn't even scold or even raise his voice at u..
Know tt U started it first okays... Cos use ur ears n NOT UR MOUTH!!!

2010-01-23T10:30:00.004+08:00

Last nite was a good good nite:) at least i stopped tossin ard n sleep thru out...:)
though I tossed on the bed for the whole of ytd... I can still sleep:):)
I was very restless ytd, the usual pain, knocked on the wall to cover up for a while then fell asleep again. I'm like dieing man... Dots the medi do make my stomach feel ewwwww...
In the evenin Brinz called, I was lik GOD thk u tt at least someone woke me up frm my deadness...Talked craps as usual... HAHA lesb part....
Then off to bed again-.-" till 8 dad came to visit me haha as usual too he always visit me when I'm sick... N the power of forgiveness took place:) Thank U heavenlyDaddy... I start to appreciate, compared to last time... Yea...
Then 8.30 YingJie called:) It was really great time w her:) at first bro picked the phone, she finds him familiar then she asked me.... Was shocked tt my bro is JAVIN HAHA... As she's their sunday sch teacher hehe... AWESOMENESS AE!!! I've learnt quite alot thru sharings n talkin dahahaha... I was hmmmm&Ya-ing thru out e conversation:) Then shared quite alot... Then back to sleepin GG...
Let us not revenge but let GOD avenge for us:):)

2010-01-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

Taday though it was truly a disaster, but everythin came to an end..
I sincerely appologise.. To all esp to those who was hurt badly infact was the whole grp rite.
Yea at least i slowly found out how to plan n organise well... I mean i got a pict...
Aft the serious meeetin of anger, sadness n disappointement...
I learnt alot of my mistakes... Will do a better job...
N also realise alot of myself... Though some I knew it long ago but its time to step out of tt comfort zone... Pray tt I won't go too far...humble n gentle heart..
This lesson I'll rmb in my heart... THKX ALL once again...

2010-01-21T22:05:00.002+08:00

Dots this few days I've change alot cos of my sickness...Blamin everythin onto my sickness lol...
I can't talk, Can't hear properly... My ear super pain, super irritatin...
I wanna hit onto somethin w my fist to cover the pain... I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!
Everytime I feel the pain either I'll cover my ear if not my fist will be clentched!!! Anytime can punch onto any of the hard objects...
Now I can't even swallow properly, not even saliva(yikes sorry 4 being disgustin) take so much effort to swallow, wat nonsence... Still talk abt food... Almost vomited w every mouth of food i put in my mouth...
Just went to seek the doc... Its pathetic to have MCsss for weekends...
Even on my precious SUNDAY!!! GRRRRRRRRRR...
I didn't even realised I'm havin fever... I'm super weak la can... Immune system is lackin...
Hey NURSES!!! sisM, SiXian,GuanLiang how to build my immune system arh???
Aft consumin all the medi I'm lik walkin zig zag...ZZZ drunk??
Anw Thks JASON for prayin for me, and all the concern msgs... MOST APPRECIATED:):)
I shall start puttin faith in all of my prayers... GG, Physically down but spiritual PLS DUN DOWN...

2010-01-19T00:52:00.002+08:00

Talkin abt split personality durin work w Estha haha
realised I have tooo lol.....
The 2 me talkin inside of me.
1 tellin me I can, another tellin me I can't...
Negative tots which will cancel 1by1 the blessings tt GOD had prepared for us...
N another me will tell me off, remindin me of this phrase n ask me to start confessin...
CONFESS IN ME!!! No one knows... Only HIM...
Its always my spiritual body will do the good stuffs yet my old mind will do the bad ones.
Spiritual body had done great things in me, HE's always the one who motivates me in doin things which I think I can't. "For I can do all things in CHRIST who strengthens me."Nth is impossieble for HIM...Yet HE's in me.SO yea the preachin of my heart cames...

Now only 1 knew my aim, but turned back n tell me off nicely...Tt phrase will be in me...
I'm truly suppose to do tt to myself, n i did it. Tryin to be saddis in all way to MYSELF...

I'm sorry grp1 , knowin I can't lead well, n i can nv lead well...
I'm sry... U guys can do better...

2010-01-17T21:09:00.003+08:00

DUN READ IF IT OFFENSE U!!!!

~When the favor of God shines on your church, you will find its premises too small for the people who queue up week after week to attend the services! So when people wonder and ask, “What is happening here?” you can tell them, “It is the favor of God multiplied all over us!” And it is all undeserved, unearned and unmerited! By Pastor Prince!!! Yeah at last I got a time to read...

~Isaiah 53:44Surely He has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows… This is what I needed most :) Thks comforter of my soul;) If Jesus can heal diseases n GOD can heal cancers, then what more than just a cough or sore throat???

~Lets boldly declare tt “I am not righteous because of what I have done or not done. I am righteous only because of the blood and finished work of Jesus at the cross!”

~This means that once you are a believer, the blood of Jesus Christ keeps on cleansing you from every sin! (Wash-cycle) 24 hours a day, seven days a week — and move on with God!

~Isaiah 53:5 declares, “By His stripes you are healed!”
All frm Pastor Prince's devotions:) Haha

2010-01-17T19:45:00.003+08:00

Lord, should I declare tt today is a tremendous AWESOME DAY or a crushed down day???
Thankyou for the time in church, but I'm late again...
Lord, help me plan my time. My time management sux as u know I can't do anythin w/o YOU rite.
Anw the time w Cheryl for biblestudy in chc, I learnt ALOT!!! N my heart for P&W changed was awesome. HAHA I'm sooo blessed THKS CHERYL;)loves loves... Thks for re-lightin the fire for Christ in me... I've shared almost what I've imagined n wanted to, THANK GOD for the courage.
I thought in my whole life no one knows it except YOU(GOD):') I'm touched by UR works GOD.
Yeah today was awesome la, everythin seems so good n svc seems so hyper.
Pastor Kong's msg was even powerful, claps claps claps n wow-ness... COOL!!! woah!!!
It was even happier to hear of the new land central of SGP WOOHOOOO-ing!!!!!!!!

It has come to an end w.... I'll Con't pray, stand firm n strong... Its a new beginnin w HIM tmr...

2010-01-13T19:55:00.004+08:00

Woah now my turn to blog aft sooooo looonnng lol, GG i've been bloggin on papers cos i'm bored.
No time for com though, there's happy sad, angry, sobs...nvm...
Within just few days... Gosh time fly past too fast.

Lord, I'm uselsess, I can't do things well, I can't plan n organise things well, I can't a single thing well GOSH! I'm truly useless manz. I'm cursing n swearing myself, why in my mind is tt he chose the wrong leader to lead. Wat on earth! The eyes of EVERYONE makes me panicks, all I see is YOU CAN NV DO IT!!! R U SURE U CAN??? That freaks me out, the fear tt no one will EVER know. Lord, time calm me down man... It wasn't cos I'm stress, lik wat everyone said."hey joc dun be stress" thks for being there for me everyone:') most appreciated. But I'm not stress. Its lik I needa calm down. I wanna do my best but with this dumb brain of mine wat on earth can I plan anything. My heart was telling me if anything goes wrong not anyone's fault BUT YOUR fault. And wat others said was rite it reflected on me not him. Its not his faultbut mine pla ppl dun blame the innotcent ones. He has done the most, why no one sees it but only his bad side. Everyone has diff thinking and attitude. Lord, I'm crying out to you, do something to me, change me,lead me, mould me, slap me to wake my bloody idea up. Now aft thinkin why he chose me maybe cos of my mouth, THKS AE, U ALMOST KILLED ME!!! Talk nonsence, comfirm one! I also can't rmb wat I said...TSK!!! HATE MYSELF MANZ!!! Oh shut up Joc...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY(loves) & Daryl(cousin)

2009-12-21T12:57:00.005+08:00

COOOL LiXuan was saved!!!
Shall blog today i dunno y but blog abt ytd...
Ytd was awesome met up w LiXuan n Jeremy to CHC(:
Thankfully they made lots of frens there, n me Zi High w the gals as usual HAHA!!!
Was an awesome time there as always hehe, prayers answered new things learnt n new prayer request to be prayed to take another step of Faith.
REALLY THANK GOD FOR ALL HE's DONE!!!BLESSINGS RECIEVED,ANS PRAYERS GG...
A heart of thanks giving:D I love YOU, LORD!!!
Then rush home to pack up stufs n proceed to church for performance(:
On Sat also had performance at Orchard Thks Rems, JiaHui who watched(:
n Estha, Yiren, Elton who missed but had a great time w them for supperHAHA...
n also BRO CKW n BRINZ...
Busy w dance now a days... THK GOD for all the strengths n energy...
I seriously needa con't prayin n PTL, TYL!!!
Now a days i've been lookin at profiles to profiles of my frens... Old days ae...
Was just thinkin some happy some sad some just alrt...
Shall stop thinkin of the past it won't happen again, neither do i wan it to happen again...
Things won't change time can't turn back so just say good bye to sadness n say hi to future...
Though i still "hope" but its a NO!!!

2009-12-16T14:50:00.002+08:00

Back to old songs w old memories haha,
been to shoppin mallS n Last Christmas song was always played...
Then went out for dinner on Sat, TrulyMadlyDeeply was played cool.
Love all the songs checkin out all the songs i used to listen in my Sec sch days.
Seriously miss those days alot, but thk GOD we're meetin up for CHALET!!!
29;30;31 pasir ris(: cool cool A.S.K organised it hmmm wow...
I was kinda weird now adays esp ytd evenin onwards,
can be heard tt I've changed in some ways...
Cos of words i've read ytd, I should've read b4 makin tt. coincidentally she told me wat someone who I respect most told her same link to mine, even sad... Almost post it on fb but pause n stop.
Anw I've made tt choice n I gota con't w it, its a my choice stuffs.Sad. I'll still discourage bros n sis in christ to follow my footsteps...
Didn't do my devotional since Dec started): shall start now if not i'll be spiritually ill like wat I am now)': But thk GOD he listens to prayer still.
Went swimmin ytd n today, ytd was alone in deep pool, was kinda feelin not rite at first then shout out to GOD then a kunda warmness tellin me tt HE's there w me no worries:) love GOD man, prayed for the whole process of swimmin I prayed for like alot of stufs n didn't swim alot, n its super relaxin. Then today went w my bro was in the midpool was cool also at least i swam alot more rounds haha but ii still like ytd the time w GOD in the pool was awesome. Where ever HE's the place n moment will be filled w AWESOMENESS(: Cos HE's awesome, PTL,STL,LOVE GOD...TIME FOR UR WORDS GOD!!!MUST BE DISCIPLINE!!!

2009-12-07T09:54:00.002+08:00

I'm still in the midst of prayin which home i belongs...
1 month more to pray... Been in CHC for 1 month n its AWESOME!!!
THe awesomeness tt comes from GOD.not ashamed cos its truelly HIM
I felt HIS love, HIS pressence there... ITS AWESOME!!!
Come on guys stop wasting anymore SUNDAYS, i'm typin while trembling cos the HOLY SPIRIT here got me here to type more than this n faster than this.
Every house of GOD is awesome in their own way, expereincing GOD in their own way.
ITs the only way to really bring us into this relationship w GOD. EXPERIENCING HIM, feeling HIS pressence lettin HIM break us. Just tt break thru, our longin n desiring for GOD will be there forever. Pastor prayed everyweek, n he prayed for the church, every prayer i make AMKMCcac came in GOD u're truly telling me somethings whch I dunno how to... COn't to prompt me oh GOD, there big things to be done in tt church I KNOW!!! In the name of JESUS!!
I praise u oh GOD. Cos whenever i told myself tt it just a thought nth much it couldn't be me doin this stuffs, but GOD u shot me back with the verse 1 Timothy 4:12, telling me tt GOD dun see age to do great things, AMEN! I just wanna voice out... can I give me a chance. Though I've been away for "zillions of yrs" I just wanna let all of us have the kinda ON FIRE FOR CHRIST in all of us... I TRUST GOD TT ITS GONNA BE AWESOME!!! AMKMC GONNA RISE!!! I BELIEVE IN CHRIST!!! I need ppl to accompany me to have this kinda faith tt GOD gonna transform this church, just tt we needa take a step of faith. BIND ALL HEARTS TGT GOD.
THis generation gonna rise!!! in this church especially... This maybe a great step but we gonna make it:)

2009-11-14T20:20:00.005+08:00

Seeing u I feel like sayin sorry, to God I've said the moment I did tt...
Till now its still in my mind... Why???
Satan knows that WEAKNESS can turn to sin in a heartbeat when exposed to the right amount of pressure. I cry n say "How could you be so stupid! You idiot! Haven't you learned anything?"
Which is lik I NV LEARN useless... forget it... Tot I'm firm enough but to the very end I gave in... Wat to do... Sacrificed... I dun mind i'm the one who get hurt cos I mind others being hurt.
I shall be the bad one:( Being the middle one for both situations.
In my heart was sayin I shouldn't made tt decision, I shoudn't be there at first... I shall leave b4 anythin else happen...

I love You, JESUS!!! I'll nv forget U!!! Thats for sure...
The moment I come to YOU, my heart hurts no reasons... DADDY I'm Sorry for not waitin for YOUR call/ans. Knowin tt I can be patience but I chose to do it in my way, SO PLS IF U'RE IN THIS KINDA SITUATION, BE PATIENCE N WAIT. ITS WORTH IT!!! NO REGRETS!!!

When we cease letting God speak to us, it is only a matter of time before He will cease speaking through us. Time to stop doin the talkin until HE speaks. Intensively relationship w GOD.
Lifting up our praises to HIM, since HE bless us w beautiful voices, dun waste it...

The feelin of heart breaks....

2009-11-08T21:24:00.004+08:00

I tot I won't get tt feelin...But yea...
I dunno wats gonna happen tmr...Only GOD knows...
Let God do wat HE wants then, since I made this firm decision...
Today went CHC again(: brought Daniel along.
I love the svc there as always!
Still waitin for GOD's reply,

Its hard to love the person u once loved.

2009-11-07T11:07:00.004+08:00

A sudden felt lik ignorin ppl,
too many prob alrd. I tak buleh tahan!!!
Sian... If i con't w this sian sian att, i prefer leavin this world!!!
My spiritual is diein AGAIN, physical lackin...
I'm worried abt spiritual not physical U KNOW!!!
I dun mind if i dun eat dun sleep, i dun care!!
BUT W/O HIM the most high one, I WILL DIE!!!
Bring me back to U, O LORD. Redeem me... U'RE MY SHELTER!!!
I need U more than anyone else, no one can ever replace U in me...
I need strength n power, wisdom.

Thanks to those who helped in tt situation(: lovesss...
Esp to tt nonsencical judge-.- laugh n joke n play n serious...
& DaddyHan, Eric, n all who were there.
I'll chage to the better...

N of course many thanks to those Bros n Sis in CHRIST who encouraged me with HIS words.
Not tt prob but others lovesss alll.................

LORD, I seriously dunno wat to do, I'm stuck...

2009-11-06T23:10:00.005+08:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. - 1 Corinthians 13:4-13

This few days were weird, I'm still at the point makin my decision.
I've made it, but it isn't firm. I wanted it to be firm, Lord, help me with this ya?
sian...speechless
I'm still thinkin tt I'm e bad party... Yea as wat zoro said I've changed to another person :'(
My heart still dun feel right, words still flow out lik water tap:(
Some things do need to be done...
I NEED UR WISDOM, LORD!
Since everyone seems to know then let it be it then. I'm not ashamed!!!
I wanna lift UR name up HIGH!!!!GLorify U!
Its GOD tt change me, yet I was worldly changed...
No U're my deliverer!!! My refuge, I dun wanna be condemned by this world

Bringin Rems n Daniel to CHC hope it'll be a success... pray pray pray even harder!!!

2009-11-03T18:02:00.006+08:00

Hey bitches,sluts,jerks everyone I'M SPEECHLESS NOW!!!
If u think i'm a baddie, go ahead, cos I didn't say I'm good at all!!!
not even once!!!
"Holy"is wat u all call me, i didn't agree to it...
but i wanna be it, since i can't I'll still strive for it!
SATAN AWAY FROM HERE NOW!!!I HATE U TO THE CORE!!!U DUN HAVE THE RIGHTS TO CONDEMN ME IDIOTS!!! -> this sentence is not meant for humans!!!Hope u understand...

I wanna be invisible to everyone now! So just ignore me, even u rems.... ITS MY COMMAND,
I'll prove tt I dun need PITY n SYMPATHY! DUN HAVE TO PITY ME!!!

I know I have CHRIST in me, n i'm enough(: knowin tt this sentence will shoo off ppl ard me....

2009-11-02T19:43:00.002+08:00

Last week n this week, I'VE CRIED TOOOOO MUCH!!!
I shall stop now!!! Away from me now weakness... So tt i'll be strengthen...
Too many things happen too fast, time do fly...
Lord, y this time past so fast..snifsnif...
Things do happen... Had been sinning shall admit...Humble me LORD...
Tell me wat to do... I've enough with all these sins, knowin I'm chosen to be diff.
N yet i didn't do anythin, i wanna repent but i whenever i close my eyes i doze off:'(
I'm super sad la!!! cos ppl's leavin frm my heart...tears?? NO!snif snif, still...
I'm waitin too... Sacrifices to be done...Priority first still... Sorry,****.... sobs sobs...

Times in rasa sentosa with all the chefs was FUN!!! Great, happy hehehe...
cep arh cep(chef arh chef) they were nice(: thk GOD
woke up at 3am get out of house at 4.10-20am, then reach home at 6,7,8pm...
We're slackin,eating,chattin,sleepin, I'M FAT ALRD!!!EXERCISE IN SCHEDULE!!!

2009-10-26T19:42:00.002+08:00

Last week was scary man, face weird circumstances...
Still doubtin abt tt dream, was it frm HeavenlyDADDY or i think too much...
Seems like a warnin frm above, to be firm. Prayin for more revealation in this situation.

Anw ytd was another AWESOME SUNDAY,
though i was rushin n dashin here n there. But it was all worth it(:
Perform in the mornin(its ok tt u all didn't come, I didn't expect so many ppl to know abt it. Dun have to apologise, i appreciate the bondin we had in class... lovess....)
Then rush down to Jason's church(: the song was meaninful n touches my heart, TYL tt I found all the songs we sang(: Praise U continuously... I've found 10 songs in total!!! The sermon was awesome la, a great lesson to be learnt. Answered prayers(: but rems wasn't there U MISSED THE GOOD TIME MAN!! Wasted... nvm, there's another chance I BELIEVE(:
Then return lib book, n off to church for another performance...

Today another random day, amber operation, did crepes(: for misen place...
Did other stuffs n spent time talkin to SHERINE!!! I LOVE U LADY!!! Sorry tt I've neglect so many of u...):

2009-10-22T20:55:00.002+08:00

Wat the eyes n head hurts ALOT!
Thanks to the smell of smoke at the land shop.
It make me think of the times when dad is ard, smokin outside the house which pissed me off!!!
Head gonna burst man, slept for like so many wasted hrs... IHATEIT!!!
Almost fainted there-.- slept there while Sher was playin left4dead the walk turn shoot game...
Head even painful! Can't even see properly when walkin la!
Still wonderin WHY AM I TT WEAK???GRRRR!!!

In class, tots came in to my mind durin breaks...
I tot I've did it, but I'm totally WRONG!
I still can't be a good/true fren!
How sad can I be??
I tot i've tried, maybe I hasn't try harder...
I'm felt so away from everyone... Nvm... shall con't?

2009-10-20T21:10:00.003+08:00

Things seems to lay back ae...JOCELYN BUCK UP!!!
Start to long HIS pressence again...
I miss those sessionS with HIM<3
Relationship with ppl gettin bad ae... Wonder y...Sighs... Start worryin..
Realised I heard many preachers preachin, which preaching sessions made a diff in my life?
Or can I say which session did I pay attention??Xp Cos knowin tt if we really seek we'll recieve:)
Ppl start to talk abt JESUS, thks for the reminders...
Thks to i dunno who, tt started it...
Anw the songs i had been hearin was cool!LOVE IT! from some church(:
I want to cry out... I'm lost of words...
Shall blog abt the time at MandaiOrchidGarden next blog...
Need rest... Oh shit my medi!

Circumstances tt will build up my faith:)

2009-10-15T21:50:00.004+08:00

Sighs I'M SICK!!!!Coughin,sneezin,shiverin...
Didn't really pray as much now OH NO!!!:( BUCK UP!!!
I wanna fight for the rights, but its hard cos its my mummy who I'm gonna fight...
Lord, I wanna honour u, I needa obey my mom, bless me with ur holy spirit to guide me...
I wanna grow closer to U but my relationship with ppl is gettin worst:'(
My family, my church, my frens... I can feel it n i know it.
But I wanna experience U, speak in tongues. I dun mind sacrificing my time to live for the kingdom of heaven sake but may my mummy understand...
Thanks to all who prayed for me:)Most appreciated:)
ThankU HeavenlyDADDY, for listenin n answerin all my prayers:)
Thks for takin the pain frm my throat straight away aft I've prayed. This means tt prayers always works HAHA... Many Thanks to YingJie, Jason n Grace for helpin me out in my faith n all the encouragements tt u all had given... Pray even harder...

Alrt back to sch... Class was cool, back to MPC-MATHS!ROX! Though all return back to teachersXpSHHHH!!! Have been waitin for PE which is tmr! BUT I CAN'T JOIN!!! GRRR...
Cos I'm sick...Rebuke it away man! Then had been goin home with tt horny bunch. More n more ppl gettin courrupted man! Even the GALS!!! But not me HAHA!!! Shall be my Holy Holy:)
Proud to be n to live tt way:) Since others can prove me they can do it, SO AM I!!!
Was kissed by Brindha EVERYDAY!!!! AHHH nightmare!!!Sry didn't mean anythin haha cos aft tt incidence, in secondary 2weeks of fear... Dun wan think abt it! Dun do tt again!

2009-10-13T23:01:00.002+08:00

Cool at last sch has started:) totally different.
MORE HYPER! With tt focus on..
Con't w tt post..
Fri went VIVO AGAIN!!! but this time with SiXian:)celebrate her end of N's:)
Took lots of picts:) Went back to childhood memories:)
Hehe my takin of photos got standard ae;)
Then rush home got nagged for comin home n out again to meet Grace/M for another movie:)
With her family...Shouldn't have promised...Shit...
Anw Sat:) out for charity hehe I took some picts... Then off to church for dance self pract...
With all the anyhow countings... Then rush home to bath n off to meet Jason, cell grp meetin:) COOL! Spoke in tongues again!!!WOOHOO!!!Difinitely got difference! He shared abt his experience with me... And lots of stuffs... It do really makes me think...Hard time decidin...Had been prayin for days n gotta pray even harder:)Lord, I really pray tt I have tt kinda faith...
Shouldn't be selfish, can't always think abt myself... But.... Lord....Nvm...
Sunday, sunday classes canceled...Went for 2nd service though abit weird when my hands were lifted but its for GOD, put down the face. Thinkin back...is tt a trap or an ans frm GOD? I'm confused. But meet YingJie in the noon chatted, prayed, discussed.Help to teach P4 maths:) Then went for AuntyYiXuan's class, was the youngest there:) Chinese was still a problem which drag me apart so fast can't catch up!
Mon yippeeees back to sch HYPER since mornin...keepin myself in prayers, to focus:)
Then cleaned the whole kitchen,physically tired but spiritually ENERGETIC!!!LoveIt!
Then end at 2++ went bowling:) It was GOD who played tt game(dun be shockedxp)
I can nv score tt well w/o HIM!PRAISE HIM!
Then Today wasn't good didn't pray properly... dozin off... Sorry LORD! Knowin tt U're my strength yet i'm still half dead... ThankU for meetin all my needs... MisenPlace for the startin of Amber on NextMon. Sir Darryl took over:) At last saw ma'am today I MISSED HER!!! Then was havin fun arguin to go Pool or not.At last sher n me went, played 1 round thk GOD at least I can aim a few balls(super few balls-.-)..Then went home with 2 jokers...Darren n Deyao who made me laugh non-stop n shootin me... Anw shall not be influence by the dirty stuffs but be influencial of the good good stuffs:)

2009-10-08T21:07:00.003+08:00

Ok this week so far so good:)
filled with exciting things to be read....with the book i've borrowed...
I did my spiritual homework hehes:)EVERYDAY!!!
Yea today was cool, out wif Grace/(M)
Shall call her Grace frm now on...
GJL???MJL???which is nicer???wateva A.S.K still the nicest...(:
Went to vivo for the Christian cruise COOL!
Oldest ship in the world,WOW!Miracle...96YRS OLD!!!
Blessed by GOD!!!
Yeah praise GOD rain has ended b4 gettin outta house(:
but now feel sorry for nt passin tt msg:Psorryy...
We reached vivo findin tt ship walked here doubt there...
Thank God we found it!
Err it wasn't wat i've tot. But still COOL! ILOVEePASSPORT!!!!
Yeah SCARED OF HEIGHTS!!!n the heat inside was even "cooler"!(*drops of "water"*)
The tour guide were like talkin... Good i did ask this n tt a lil n nodssssss.....
It ended SUPER early! went back AMKhub to watch FAME!
NICE SHOW... Highly recommended by GraceNme(:
kinda borin in the middle but its nice I can say...
I ate double dinner, GOODNESS!!! JOGSSSS on for TMR!!!!!!!!!!
CAN'T STAND IT!(sit)

RECHARGED!!By the grace of Chirst!

2009-10-04T19:08:00.005+08:00

Sat n Sun always ROX!!! Cos HE rox!!!duh~
Ytd went back to church for daodu w YingJie(:then off to M's church(:Lighthouse
Today went to Jason's church:)CityHarvest(jurong west)
DaoDu w YingJie - absorbed in my book gonna read up(: to abasorbed in my heart.

M's -sat super in front hmmm a lil too weird still cos the lights n the video thingy, esp when both went serving I'm left alone singin...NVM at least I got space to raise my hands haha...
The sermon was great MARTHA'S SYNDROME.Yea i admit i have tt syndrome not choosing the right choice as Mary. Waste a good chance.. I didn't take down note in time..
Ppl lookin at me:( should not have affected! Anw I did still, but i missed points, sad...

Jason's -Reached his church a short bible study,yepps abt recieving the gift of TONGUES!!! Yea thk him again n again cos nv thought of recieving it, but not today onwards!! For its is gift for ALL CHRISTIANS!!Wat a good message(: Yepps I've recieved(: time to practise it,yea... ROX!!!
Hmmm his church is seriously charismatic, cool:) the songs was nice n meaninful:)
Sat in the front also HAHA! Meet new bros n sis in Christ:D
Haha Jason talk lik he really were preachin, cool...haha learn learn(: Dun fall off ur chiar!!!
Sermon was cool! Took notes ae! TO LIVE FOR THE KINGDOM SAKE!
My life is Your song!Elevate Your name!

Both paster preached abt putting our PRIORITY first, I'm sorry DADDY:(
Shall start practicising what I've learnt&recieved! Acting thru faith!
Faith-Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the substance of things not seen.
Just obey, let GOD do the rest(: let God fill us with HIS holy sprit n let the holy spirit lead n guide us...

Forgiveness is needed

2009-10-02T22:56:00.004+08:00

Every church is God's home!!!
But i just can't stay still in 1(sorry)
Wat's wrong with me?
Shall pray tt I'll be back, after i've done with re-charging!
Just keep it with HIM!
Church Hopper? NO WAY!!! I DUN WANT!
I want stay...)':
I have 100001 excuses to leave but only have 1 reason to stay
That Is Where I Belong.
Be it no one recongnise me or take the watever away I shall not mind.
I create this mess... Sorry.
THis yr has the most changes, lettin down HIM so many times... I'm sorry!
I should stop sayin sorry n to re-learn how to LOVE you n cling on to YOU from this moment!
I pray in the name of JESUS....Amen!
Spare this time n the promises I've made, I'll cancel others from now on!!!
Just keep prayin...I mean me,yepps...
Sorry for lettin all down, for breakin all promises. Just... yea...
A.S.K this is the prob I'm facin... I just dunno wat to say when i saw the both of u...

Thanks DADDY for today! Answered prayer again!Praise YOU!!!

2009-09-29T19:43:00.002+08:00

ROTTIN AT HOME!!!for 2 days...
Hmmm not really though...
Read HIS word, had time w HIM, sang praises hmmm wonderful time...
bt trainin for cartwheels sux still...I'm still worryin!!! legs can't get straight up!!!
Anw tmr gonna be great goin M's house for A.S.K meetin,wooohooos!
On for Lunch?! fine surrender... Dun blame me if it's inedible!!!just kiddinXP

Alrt since there's nth else to blog shall talk abt F1 experience:)
Was great as i said b4><, made lots of new frens/chefs;)
Haha they're FUNNY!!! bt in kitchen...hmmm...HellKitchen is ON!!!
No la not tt bad la, they're all very nice:), taught us LOTS of stuffs!
Rewrite to wat M shared ytd, "Say a lil prayer b4 doin anythin. We'll find joy in doin it!"
Totally agree with it! There's more to learn tmr:)
Shall start muggin, goodness i've wasted 2 days!!!

2009-09-28T14:14:00.002+08:00

F1 has ended:)
Thk GOD for the strength, encouragements, joy, hope n experience.
Though its kinda angry? ytd hmmm....
Shall not work for money but experience.
Shall treat it as serve GOD n not man. &everything will go perfectly fine...
THKS HEAVENLYDADDY, THKS FOR EVERYTHING!!!EVERY BLESSINGS!!!
At some hyper times i'll talk n make noise n stuffs, at least i entertain myself:)
But most of the time i would just keep quiet n do wat is needed..
I seldom use the time to speak to GOD n try to listen to HIS still small voice.
Maybe i have not quietened down my heart yet though my mouth isn't movin...
Realised tt GOD had been promptin me to speak to HIM, thru wat my surroundin said.
Why suddenly abt Christianity?Exciting! Most Chefs know CHRIST!!! AMEN!!! The 1 who inspired me me the most is 1 of the chef. QUESTION!!!Wat must we do if we are reqiured to work on SUNDAYSSS??? Sabbath Day!!!I missed it EVERYTIME!!! Sorry DADDY!!!
Its even worst, my mouth is filled with RUBBISH. LORD cleanse me!

Ytd, everythin makes me miss everythin...
Anw this always happen on my last day of work...hmmmm not exactly(?wat am i talkin?)
Mornin makes me think of past... Almost drop a few tears. Why everytime when somethin happen similar to this, i kept silent?Y can't I help her?I felt useless... I can fight my old self down, but y i choose not to??? WHY!!! So its now my prob...

2009-09-20T15:22:00.002+08:00

Realised tt tt week wasn't my hols yet-.-Anw it didn't make any diff haha...
Mon stayed at home:)
Tues went back to sch for extra class, wif SHER n the rest hahas...
Wed went study wif SiXian n Jingwen(SiXian blushed the whole time),& dance:) Wats with the XIAO MAO name for me... thks ae....
Slept late OBVIOUS had super late dinner at 11.30PM WOOHOOO!Had a meetin over msn, just to plan where to go for the next day hahas. Anw SHer n I suggested SENTOSA!!!
Thurs went SENTOSA for SUNTANNIN when there is NO SUN...
Played water n chatted, had a great time.
Thks guys(Sher,Brin,Jeremy,Indra&DeYao)for goin haha...
FRI went back to sch to help out haha WAS FUN&ENJOY Of course la gotta see SHERINE(heys dear gotta be honoured OK!!!!) Its better to work than rottin at home...
Great EXPERIENCE!!! work for experience not for money...
I think i did somethin&said wrong to... SoSorry...
Then chatted on the phone with A.S.K. for hrs!
Sat went joggin(: then off to church, was drenched...Thks to tt car-.-
Was glad to experience GOD's pressence AGAIN.. THKS!!! I totally missed those times...
I'm gonna keep this goin for the REST OF MY LIFE!!! DADDY, U rox my life!
GIVE THANKS&PRAISES!!! LOVES<3essss Not goin to be ashamed!
As for today, CHURCH!!! sorry tt i slept durin service...I dunno y but just __
SoSorry): was shocked to recieve tt msg in church, frm HILTON startin work TMR!!!
Scary but EXCITED!!!WOOHOO can't wait for tmr:)

2009-09-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

lol nw a days lik i got nth better to do...
Keep bloggin...
Its gonna be BORED!!! For the comin hols...
Gonna make it exciting:)heehees...
Oh goodness, saw a cockroach!!!
Javin keep complainin-.- WHY THE COCKROACH TOUCH MY SHORTS????
Go ask tt XiaoQiang la!!!haiyo~~~
Anw today went church:) was combine service, saw bro,nich,boaz on stage not bad ae:)
CUTE:)
Then had lunch with them, yeah! aft so long:)
shop shop ard J8 hmmm kinda lik change abit here n there arh...
Then went home totally forgotten abt SWIMMIN!!! went to bath then sleep-.-
Now too energetic, anw also gonna used up soon in 30mins time haha
Alr shall strt wif my ingre then...

2009-09-12T23:13:00.002+08:00

Aday filled with excitin eventS...
In the mornin went city hall w SiXian, hmmmm she was late...
Thank GOD tt at least i have the chance to play wif my grp for the first station...
We walked kinda long journey ae... Then I've gtg for charity half way thru,
So went to take train frm ClarkeQuay:)
Then reached DhobyGhaut waited for Jeremy,Eric n JiaHui.
Hmmmm Everyone is late-.-
Frm there we take to TiongBahru, hailed a cab to telok blangah(banglah)can nv pronounce it rite...
We were suppose to send food to the elderly homes.
Gatta know, WenXin:)She's nice n pretty:)hehx...
"someone" just act nice infront of her ae...
JiaHui forever insult her...haha...Got shoot...Xp
Jeremy just ans all her quest:)
Me just talked to her:)Get to know her more;)
4 of us went for lunch not exactly for me, tunch...
Cab back to DhobyGhaut PlazaSing had muffin...loves...
while the guys had BIG burger which they can really finish it...GUYS...
I didn't know where to go, accompanied eric played arcade...
Spot The Diff:)He's "fast"!Car racing hmmmm weird thing nv tried tt b4...Gonna play AGAIN!!!Xp...
He played bball,cool ae... but still can't win tt person HAHA...its alrtHAHA...
Meet churchies at ToaPayoh saw them while tappin my card, followed them quietly, invisible shadow:)
Most of them were RED!!!nice tanning ae, I ALSO WANT!!!
Had dinner(desserts) w jingwen at foodcourt while the rest ate chicken rice?Wanton mian?
At last took bus home:)
Though today's tiring but its fun:) ThankU DADDY!!! ThankU for the time management...LoveHEAVENLYDADDYlotsss...

PLS DO NOT READ ...Corrupted...

2009-09-09T23:17:00.005+08:00

Sighs another misunderstandin tt looses a good fren again:'(
Nvm shall becareful next time, actually i didn't mean anythin...
Do i??? I nv mean anythin lik wat u all had been thinkin la CAN!!!
"holy" nvm speechless... Compared to churchies i'm like errrrr.... worst of the worst...
Nvm I shall be speechless frm now on...
WAN TALK THEN TALK DUN WAN TALK SHUT UP!!! ZIP UR GAP!!!
SPEECHLESS!!!
Y am I throwin my tantrum here??? Since i dun need pity...
Pls stop dreamin JOCELYN!!! Stop shootin me with wat ma'am said today...OK!!!
(Dun let me say out ur name...) seriously use ur brain b4 SPEAKIN!!! Its no joke now...
Sorry still, cos there's limit to EVERYTHIN!
LORD, who can i talk to, cry to??? NO ONE!!!
Except U rite, NO one else rite!!! If it is so, y do he talk so much???
I dun mind being a shadow... used to it... SINCE.....-.-"
Change how??? So long alr, DADDY bring me home!
Crash me in the middle of the road lik wat i always dreamt of...

2009-09-08T19:56:00.000+08:00

Sian hols r comin again...
Felt lik workin bt where???
TN Pop? hmmmm c first...

Today was weird, yea back to the weird weird feeling.
Ytd was lik fun:)Woke up, had my house chores done, sit down while waitin for time to past as Bro went sch for enrichment. I did my QT aft SO LONG i did from 1Sept to 7Sept gonna con't no matter how busy I was NO COMPROMISING&EXCUSE!!!ITS A PROMISE!
*No empty promises* hehee said by ME!!!
Then when bro is back though I'm nbot done yet we went for badminton we had a nice play:)improved ae... Then ahd a chat with bro under blk everythin was cool w the coolin weather:D
Went home for dinner pack up for today lesson though there's nth to pack either.
Planning was in a SUCCESS for ytd!! AMEN!

Back to today was lik dunno wat to talk to anyone but only to Sher.. I just said hi:)
So wat... To everythin...I shall give up on being so stubborn as say "Let's see how GOD works in us"
We left early for lunch n we chatted haha as usual:)girls talk hehe...
Went home waited for bro then slagged for hrs till mom comes, had QT till lik now-.- can I just stop being distracted... Fine back to QT...
Its just a dream, when I'm awake it'll be gone..Dream tt nv come thru...
Pray for all of u...
Why am I hiding when things happened??Lord, pray tt I have the courage to face it..

2009-09-05T00:20:00.004+08:00

Ytd was cool, went to sch SUPER early reach there at 8++
which is lik 2hrs till class starts...
as was suppose to eat breakfast w SHer... Fairness of our lateness ae...
Then had a good time bakin the fruit tart ITS YUMMY!!! I'm Lovin It!
THings done in sch is always good... but at other places...SIGH thks to mom...
Rushing but was LATE still-.- for meetin YiHui at her house with Sixian, Weien, n Yuling....
hmmm their baking were NICE yum yum... But mine failed-.-
Agar-ation failed as usual ):
Anw had fun till 10++ reached home at 11 WOW
Super weird weird when they call me chef here n there... Dun call me tt...
TOday i tried again n it FAILED:( sad sad...
Wonder y???? Forget it... I think i can nv do things so hurry.
Maybe some other times then i'll bake for u all...

Pray and trust is a must have....
But I both also dun have i only read HIS word... Its nv enough...

...Time for a change...

2009-09-03T20:39:00.000+08:00

I've been talkin alot this few days...
I spent time with family YIPPPEEE!!!
Though felt sadness in me...
I dun know how to say...Y i treat it so seriously??
I didn't lik TT answer! n i felt like T.T
Anyone knows where's the best green pasture to lie on???
BRING ME THERE!! I needa distress...
Blue Sky, White Clouds, Green Pasture...
I wanna lie down then JUST BE QUIET!!! Talked in a peaceful way...
PATHETIC i chatted with "wife" though was laughin out loud..
Though i wished n enjoyed chattin n argue all the nonsence stuffs with her...(as per normal)
But my whole heart wasn't laughing...
Did i change? I wanna know...
LORD, I wanna tell u EVERYTHING!
Sad? Need Cheer Ups? I 'm bad at it. Even cheering up myself was bad...
Everyone's gettin sick... Heys ppl Take care of urself PLS!!!
I shall pray for all of our health...:)aft weeks of not prayin seriously..
DAILY BREAD! Oh shit i forgotten its alr SEPTEMBER!!!
Haha today was late AGAIN! Shit its gonna be a habit NO WAY!
LORD,I NEEDA CHANGE!! Pray for my TIME MANAGEMENT!!!
Sorry Sher tt I'm always late... Sighs.... CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE!!!
Had been thinkin of alot of things, alot of ppl...
Disappointed???Nvm u dunno wat i'm sayin as well...

Happy Teacher's Day!!! Ma'amS,SirS,MissLEE!

2009-09-01T22:22:00.001+08:00

OkOk I'm updatin now... Err at this point of time???
Nvm its still early...
Yea Aft WEEKSSS of random reasons*explantaions* of RUSHIN FOR PROJSSS
At last it has ended!FREE!!!
Anw This Brinz n Rems for the proj:) The presentation simply ROX!
CLAPS to EVERYONE who present ytd:) Great Job!!!
N JIAYOU for those presentin tmr:)
Hmmm this few times went out with Sher haha with our planned outfit
We looked great;)... MY Fashion Consultant haha... NO INSULT!! haha
Pictssss to be uploaded....
Same to Proj picts haha laughssss....
Thurs Sher came over to my house for presentation end up talkin haha...
Fri Brinz n Jere came over for finishin the proj...
Sat Brinz came over con't ^, then meet Sher n brought them 4 church:( they didn't PLAY!!!
Then Sher n I went shoppin at Fareast:)Fun shoppin n talkin nonsence... hahaha...
Sun was over the com to complete it for the WHOLE DAY-.-"
Mon came presented haha went fine n great, AMEN!
Then went home waitin to meet A.S.K aft 8 mthS, while waitin for time to past had a chat with Javin,
He's GROWN! Taught him how to play the recorder...
HAHA love u BRO! My ONE n ONLY,PRECIOUS,CUTE,LOVIN,NONSENCE BRO!
Meet A.S.K/[M]inFang,[L]ynn we chatted lots of stuffs.
[M] thks for the GARFIELD, n the love letter:)its been so long i've recieved 1!
[L] was super quiet, SPEAK UP AE!!! No worries I'll intro some guys to u hahaha!
MISS U 2 man! meet up again SWEETIES!lovessss...
Didn't get to go back Deyi, cos yea class ended late so yea.
I missed MissLEE,CHENlaoShi,MrsANG,n DEYI's TEACHERS!!!lovesss...
TODAY, went Kbox with SHER! My singin sux!err we dressed in s.....!
then went to her house to make mayo,for practice..
N off to BUGIS STREET! then home... TIRED...
Excited for tmr haha rite, Bro:)

Gettin back to church aft weeksssssssssss

Kinda weird feelin... Afraid? hmmm sayin it here? I dunno... Lord i shall tell u...
U have the rites to know... I'm sorry DADDY!
I've read, Galatians,ehpha,philipians,now COLOSIANS...
They seems interesting taught me lots of things... Reminders,WAKEUPcall...

A.S.K lovesssss YAHWEH!!!! give praises to HIM ae!!!

2009-08-26T20:33:00.006+08:00

Woohooo I'm super happy man, tmr gonna hand in our proj ALR!!!
AFT SO LONG-.-
Praise God for everything went well haha....
Aft many sleepless nights, NOW I'm sick... yea shivering the whole day in class...
Wasted 2 packets of tissues, thks to the one who gave me haha:p
This week was both STRESS n RELAX aft all.
As stones aft stones had been taken away...
Thks DADDY!
Now a days had been hangin late outside with Sher haha...
Sleepless nights for her tooo sighs take care me dear...
We planned lots of things for the coming days haha was EXCITED! R U????
Peeled off my meat on MON -.- my very first peeler on my very first potato of the day-.-
Bleed for hrs...
It was pain n ya MY UGLY SIDE CAME OUT!!! GRRRRR....
Sorry to show out my unglam side of me... Feel bad ae...
Mon was lik havin thunder storms in my heart STRESS,FEAR,PAIN :'(
think too much AGAIN... sighsss... My tears dropped... sorryy...
But thk DADDY for blessing me frensssss to help me out... lovesss...
Ytd was bad got the most shit from DY, shouted for lik the WHOLE DAY:(
I felt bad hope to sort things out but i end up being angry... Sorrry..
"Everyone has temper, is just that how u manage it"
This sentence strike me suddenly to chill me down...
Start to miss A.S.K!!! M,L i miss the both of U man!!!
Meet on teacher's day!!! errr wat time will sch end ae??????
Today random went back with the 2 pollutant, who CORRUPT MY MIND!!!
Anyhow-er.....
Tt pill i took frm darren was real effective man but i slept in the train-.-"
Thks anw...
SHER DUN FORGET OUR PLANS!!!! Its supposed to be worked out... yea RMB hor!!!

2009-08-23T19:10:00.002+08:00

This week were random...
Chionging for projS and revising test...
But thk God tt there's bros n sis to keep me goin...
And of course UR wisdom and strengths:)
Knowin our weakness this week aft being revealed...
yea needa talk more, MAKE MORE NOISE!!!
Oh No, I BAD at tt...Err need help here-.- with this small prob.......
Haha went CHURCH today!!! WOOHOO!!! We sang on stage n its BEAUTIFUL!
Then went j8 for lunch ate faster than the others, errr ok...
Cos meetin Sher for revision, hehex i see her EVERYDAY!!! hahahaha
Lady I LOVE U MAN!!! hahas I'm seeing her tmr AGAIN!!!
Ooops y am I so hyper? Yea, a fren to share EVERYTHIN with, sorry dear sometimes i'm talkative towards her ONLY, errrr haha anw thks for ur listenin ear(: lovessss
HeavenlyDADDY, I get to see many who r in need, and i have a heart for them to spread UR love to them BUT how??? I dun have the courage I'm afraid of rejected by them n stuffsss.
Like wat Bro said share ur GOD with "us". Err though he said tt for fun, but it seems tt Lord, u're trying to hint me something... LORD somethings MUST be done!!! Rely on U now, DADDY!!!

2009-08-16T09:34:00.002+08:00

Haha was suppose to blog this last nite but i slept so yea tooo tired, maybe.
Ok ok 1st thing 1st thks guys for all the wishes again ytd hahasss
Esp to KASakaWIFE n GAYA,n their mummy who still rmb hahaha thks ALOTloveeesss
then next is JIAHUI,CHINCHER, MUMMY,JAVIN,GODMUM, KOKWAYakaBRO,SHER,BRINZ,DARREN,JEREMYakaREMSTER,
JINGWEN n SIXIAN!!! thks ppl, love to all of u...((:
Though the trip out was errrr ok so yea many thk to
Brinz(for tt lil while),Han,Angie,Jeff,SHER...
Was fun watchin the movie Xia dao Xiao... Serious it really did...
Was scary, funny n the place is cold, sher n me were lik shiverin thru the whole movie... haha

Haha but yea back to spiritual life though, its been weeks not goin back home(church)
somehow i missed DADDY. Went back a while for the yu cha? Yea to learn how to lead but can't stay too late in fact i'm late still... Cos of the so call "proj work" which end up, lost in bugis with Angie n Jeff for the whole ????mins/hrs???? hahas cos i dun go out much 4 ur info... NEXT TIME CHOOSE A BETTER PLACE HOR!!!
Kkz really back yea tt yu cha i was really troubled with...After super long of not seeing them n sharin stuffs... Its kinda hard though.. Yea the confidence dropped totally n really utter ALOT!!

And tis words really means alot to me

"Sure, we fall, but it's how long you stay down that counts.

Get up, begin again, and you will know

the joy of a fresh start with JESUS.

-Barbara Johnson"

Now a days i read GALATIANS, it really made me think SUPER lot!!!

Its lik another wake up call. But i didn't ans agian... Its a choice for me to call back or to leave it.

Sacrifices is needed when i call back back and my decision is...........CALL BACK...........

2009-08-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

Today its aN ENJOYABLE DAY!!! hahaha
Filled with laughters and many smiles..(:
Bro sorry arh can't be ur main character for ur videoing hahhaha
WHo ask them give ridiculous sabotage-.-

Pls la hor peeps keep ur kisses for urself la hor thks alot anw...-.-
TTS ERR EEEWWWWW!!! who gave tt idea?!?!?!
THANKS TO ALL UR WISHES AND PRESENTS MANY THKS N LOVES TO ALL OF U:)
CA5091 rox, thks once again(:
Spreaded with Flour,
ICING SUGAR(thks to frankie-.-,smack him, thks to those who helped me haha),
cream all over my face...
thks arh...If got pimples u all DIE man!!!

Thks guys for rmb it, touched by all of ur sincere:):')
Went home with tt group of jokers haha HILARIOUS Eric n Darren again with han n brinz(lover birds-.-)
who made sher n me laugh till stomach ache n i can't stop laughin on our walk to station...
In the train even worst haha made me laugh non-stop...
Thks for ur care :)haha
There's no chance for me to say tt to u...
hmmm maybe i dun even know who i'm referrin to rite now nvm...
I'm impressed with wat tt "deeer" said... WOW!!! Savin it for tt person only...
I hope ... will be e very first again???

Lord, thks u for watchin me till this very day...
Just now tt repentance prayer was true,
I pray tt i won't hurt u n mom again...

BOTANIC GARDEN!!!

2009-08-10T20:23:00.005+08:00

Today went BOTANIC GARDEN with SHER, REMS, n the couple...

I was like perspirin while they are all sweatin:P(???got the diff???)

SUPER HOT with tt weird weather rainy/sunny...

Meet Sher n Rems then took 105 there...

Waited for the couple for ........ waited at the food court...

When they reached walked ard n of course TAKE PHOTOS...
Tts the main point tt we went there...

Seems tt Jere n me the one takin hmmmm.... PhotographerS of the day...

Sher loved the flowerssssss, errrrrr???

While the SLOW POKES COUPLES strollin behind...

When everythin is done went for lunch at our competitve place... FOOD COURT!!!

Then Sher, Jere n me went Jurong east lib, we're the GUAI KIASSS hahaha

Muggin over the holss eh..

On our journey there we chatted alot of things... Discussed alot of weird weird things...

N Sher the love CONSULTant, CONS n INSULT-.-lols

Met a few familiar faces ae... SINGAPORE got tt small meh???

Same to Jere who met his princ? n relativessss... HAHA...

NEW discovery-cactus w PINK chilli padisss??

BTW THKS TO SHER FOR FOLLOWIN US TO BG, THKS ALOT DEAR(:

Had a chat online with DaJie last nite, hope there's more time to chat with her,eh...

Found out tt many peepss seems to be thicked skinned,nowadays.

Reflection done hope there's no more emo thinkin in me???

WOOHOO i read HIS amazin word today:)its AMZING N AWESOME!!!

Thks DADDY!!!lovesss

To ppl out there hmmm, don't be envyy on how GOD loves us pls...

Am here to invite ppl to join me to experience n enjoy HIS' love.

HIS' love wasn't just for Chirstians alone but for EVERYONE!!!

Christian wasn't just a religion but a relationship with CHRIST!

No offence for other religious,ya(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

2009-08-09T23:08:00.005+08:00

Ytd n today was abt stayin at home to think STRAIGHTLY but end up think hay wire again.
I treated ppl real cold this few days, I even scold my loves one ****)':
GOSH!!! Wats happenin to me?
Sat nite was preparin my hearts for Sunday's worship but end up stayin at home.
Was being prompted with wat my fren said "Who r u goin there FOR???"
U ain't goin there for HUMANS!!! So y care wat they think or say or even gossip( ihopenot) abt u!!! But still was trapped under tt scheme...grrrr.... Start to read HIS word again but again end up sleepin-.-
Hmmmm when will i stop all thins?
Maybe shall sleep early tonite, though its kinda late now-.-
So tt tmr can wake up for tmr's jog at 6.30(:
then meetin SHER,brinz,remster,hanwei for project. Hmmmm...
My attitude is gettin bad to worst. I keep thinkin back... Times where i dun see JESUS there...
Tt really pull me down... I'm sorry, i'm sorry, I'm sorry LORD!!!
Why am i sayin helpless when u're alrd there for me tryin to equipped me but i ignore u.......)':
Hebrews4:15-16 For we do not have a high priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet w/o sin. Let us come boldly to the throne f grace tt we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
I NEED THIS TO STOP!!! Lord, if u r willing, stop this... pls... I plead u... I need u!!!
I led myself astrayed, Lord, sorry to bother u, bring me back on to the righteous track...

DeeplyDemoralised...

2009-08-06T22:27:00.005+08:00

Knowin tt aft i had happen but i'm sorry tt I'm not used to it...
Hurt her most this month... Wonder when will it stop?
I'm confused, if looked deeply into MY eyes i'm filled with tears.
Figurin out is tears of joy, sorrows or???

Felt tt i'm scary at sometimes, the moment i think tt think will happen.
It happen... THINK NOT DREAM leh HELLOOOS ARH!!!
I didn't mean to think tt way... Is tt coincidence or???
I'm scary....

I really miss the hug frm my mom... :'(
I need huggs? ehhh this sentence seems weird... HeLlO think straight oK!!!
Nvm save it for urself.... SPEECHLESS..... Shall con't my projS put all this aside then...HeavenlyDADDY AFT ALL I need u most still...I can't live w/o U!!!

Blasting Chirstian songs to help me out, i hope...Hillsongs...
Can words tt comes frm mouth, change the heart???

Fun & Excitin week eh...

2009-08-06T21:29:00.004+08:00

This week was exciting, though my mind is still thinkin hay wires...
Things had start to change eh?
Realtionship with GodDaddy, family n frens... Changed...):
Uselessly cried out...
But my HEEEHORRR language still no change-.-
Shit man gonna become my habit soon, GOTTA CHANGE EVEN MORE!!!
I've been very noisy, but was asked to be even noisier-.- Shall be noisy in Ma'am's class ONLY!!!
I can't even stand myself talkin, disturbin non-stop.
My voice simply very ANNOYIN!!! GRRRRR!!!!Shall shut up!
Had been with Eric n Darren on our journey home.
Their dirty "interview" makes me LAUGH TILL almost VOMIT!!!!
REAL DISGUSTING!!! EWWW!!!
Pollutant pollutes ppl's mind...
Though he started innocently but others pollute his,
n now they pollutin each other even more! By addin worst funniest ewwwest things into it...
Sigh... POLLUTED!!!
Yeah I admit i seriously got the pollution in my mind, the word "F***" has been in my mind for quite sometime... I dunno, simply dunno though goin to YingJie's meetin, hearts opened but when home it resume to normal...sigh... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH wats wrong with me???? The "F" word just shoot out when something happen. goodness... sigh needa restart everything with GOD frm the scrap...
I'm sorry Lord... I'm insane now... Lord, take everythin out of me... If even better take this life away so i'll not hurt U even deeper... I dun deserve ur love... But y still love me???HeavenlyDaddy... all ur ans is in the book and I know sm of it, its stupid to fight against it...

2009-08-03T21:18:00.003+08:00

Today was weird, I'm behavin weirdly...
Forcing myself myself to forget things easily so i'll not be lik the person who injured purposely. Sooner or ltr i'll forget how to talk to ppl all my topics will be Ooops I forget le... Speechless now a days i dunno wat else to say only keep disturbin ppl... Sop asking y emo!!! Though i rmb things I'll force myslef to forget so i'll totally forget...

Anw today is TIRING!!! Not funny to be a soux chef!!! Can nv shout, disgrace my sec sch cca nia...Purposely???
Angry wif tt BANDAGE!!! It reminds me of some things which i forget-.-
I'm tired, angry, confused, avoid, weird, ALL FEELINGS SURROUNDED ME!!! Grrrr...
So wat if u're big dun act ok!! I nv act big u NV TRY ACTIN!!! I HATE IT!!! I said stop being so GAUI LAN!!! N I mean it!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRR.......

Lord, sorry to pollute but... Bless me a fountain of tears. Pray tt tmr gonna be better...
But still Daddy thks for today, Knowin tmr will be better, praise U!!! WOOHOOO!!!

Lesb sorry tt i treated u lik tt cos it kinda pissed me off, n also my attitude probs were back I'm sorry...

2009-08-02T00:00:00.002+08:00

I wonder wat happen this few days, I've been complainin within myself past few days.
Feel so sleepy n tired, were to sleep b4 10pm n now still awake at 12am...
Wats happenin to me n everyone?
Faith being build n crushed...
ARHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! Who can ever understand? Things inside heart forgotten super easily I HATE IT!!! Once forgotten hard to rmb back... How to share lik tt... Total speechless...LORD! tts all i can call...sorry....

2009-07-30T21:21:00.002+08:00

This verse is for the new couple whom i love, give u 2 my best of the best wishes where i can ever find for the both of u. Sorry tt i didn't really talk to u this few days just can't find words to talk abt still love u dear(: muacks filled with love... Will pray for u 2 though u dunno HIM so yea... GOD BLESS U 2 still....
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. - excerpts from 1 Corinthians 13:4-13

2009-07-27T23:17:00.003+08:00

A mixture of now and b4...
As speechless & emotionless as now N as hyper when havin a close relationship with HeavelyDaddy! as b4...
GOD rox!!!
Went Hillsong concert w M n her family it was awesome can't stop singing, jumping, lifting hands up, n most of all praising HIM!! It make me experience HIM! WOOHOOO!!! LOVE HIM!!! A wake up call by pastor Judah Smith! Was really awesome!!! Love sis M lots!!! Though anything happen I'll still love u, like how Daddy loves us ya:) muacks... Photos up!!! Still in tt night mood can't stop listenin to HILLSONGS!!! M, i agree w ur sis stop buildin castle in the air man, u can go make fren w them(rmb not to forget me hor!) then wanna go up on stage w them next yr, Expo confirm break down man hahahaha just kiddin...
Anw yea there's super lots to blog but the screen for typin seems smaller than ever, wonder wats happenin, tts y nv blog for days...
Javin, came n ask me y am I emo-ing??? huh?? Own bro ask tt quest toooooo??? sighs... speechless... Share w him tt now a days, though i'm not tired but i told others tt i am. He tell me tt i'm goin to heaven-.- ok thks bro I'm GLAD TO HEAR TT though my mom says NO to it-.- funny evenin lol... School as usual no topics to talk till brinz, darren, eric n their nonsence came back haha lol though there's still quietness in between. They n their STOP FLIRTING HOR!!! IT OVER HOR!! THROW TABLE&CHAIR HOR! Our hee HOR language!!!-.-join eeeyore...
Change frm Garde manger to potager total BLANK!!! Onion cause me tear :'D twice today man!! Make the whole kitchen tear tooo hahaha....

Thinkin too much? Wateva it is, quietness n speechless is my stregth n weakness man! Smiles n laughters is always my strength hahahaha. Probs being said out??? How i can't even rmb just only lnow when there's somethin on my mouth will be zipped BUT I CAN'T RMB WATS WRONG, i think. Can nv serve 2 at once. Either u will love 1 or neglect the other. It'll nv change... Broken hearts, filled w disappointment, tears, n blood? Lord mend it for me ThkU love YA DADDY!! MUACKSSS!!!
All the thoughts were still in my head. i dunno how to express it out... I know it'll nv be true but the song again frm HILLSONG again gave me hope haha... Putting my hope in HIM!! Trusting n Believing!! loves... God Bless.... muacksssss........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGIE!

2009-07-13T22:16:00.005+08:00

Shall talk abt last week, it was simply awesome.
Especially weekends!!!
Sat mornin went joggin with bro, 6.30 awake, 7am reach the park...
Then in the evenin went cycling at ecp with cell grp for cell grp outin, OBEDIENCE!!!
Its fun man, enting,huiqi,beile,jinchi n I cycled and moyi,weishi n yiyong skatin...
It rained heavily though, drenched.
Had pizza hut for super late dinner... Can be said as supper.
Was a hilarious day with WeiShi(Os Kestra/Casandra?/yao bei da arh) hahahaha
Laugh till stomach ache...
N my indescisive came back while decidin wats for dinner. Which "betrayed" Yiyong hahaha Xp
Gals side gals ok... Ya anw its me wrong though,yea with tt indescisive mindset...):

Sunday went church early for rehearsin the song WO MEN AI! Goodness its awesome to hear all voice combine tgt n the smile on our faces haha? Did usherin as well, yippeeee answered prayers(: AMEN!
Then had lunch with jingwen sixian they all, n went to meet kokway/(elder)bro n Jeff to buy present for Angie. Shop frm amk to yishun to causeway-.-
Fun journey with tt "3yr old kokway/(small)bro" hahaha Xp
Was askin them to faster so i can go home...
Went home agitated her again n argued over small matter again-.-
Con't my plan on hostel n GH but totally lost hope-.- DUN EVEN NEEDA REQUEST! Just needa misbehave n they'll send u there... Such a waste of time to misbehave, y can't request stay there train myself up, n she'll have a peace life as well... Sigh... CHANGE PLAN!!!
Share with lesbo n bro, thks for all ur comfortin words...MOST APPRECIATED! Had a good time cryin... thks again:D

Today was afraid to open mouth, afraid tt i'll burst out again of wat happen this mornin, totally IGNORANCE! tears in eyes but thks to sherine n brinz whom i talked to first n made me smile n also to tt MR WHO R U!(Deyao) who made me luagh non-stop... And tt project on 10strength n weaknesses which made me laugh lik crazy... But still there's somethin in me which stop me though... So ya but I still Thk GOD/DADDY for sendin this ppl in my life to cheer me up n encourage me when i'm down. PRAISE U OH LORD! Rejoice in The LORD in wateva circumstances u faced...I'm glad tt i'm being called as A CHILD OF GOD!!! hahaha...

2009-07-11T09:39:00.007+08:00

This weeeeek was FUN!!! n sianzzzzz...
Got all the projects not even started-.- useless me... Lord u gotta help me n lead me...
Everyday was filled with fun and laughters make me laugh till stomach ache...
JOY TT COMES FRM ABOVE, PRAISE GOD!
Thanks alot DADDY! 4 all the answered prayers n even tots! BLESSINGS n MIRACLES!
But at times the sianneessss came back, which like emo-ing???
lol NO ONE UPDATE!!!! ppl like BRINZ!!!SHERINE!!JIAHUI!-.-!!!
Sighs when somethin or SOMEONE! or wateva it is tt make u sin CAST IT OUT/GET TT OUT!
I throw it once but tt came back again n gone back to last time...
If i'm gonna be cruel I WILL CAST tt OUT! I'm sorry. To stop me from feelin tt way! ?jealousy?
Can't see tt again i can't stand it le! grrrrrr...
And tts 1 reason tt make me feel sianzzzz...
Now i pour out alr dun wanna repeat myself:) See How GOD Works...Leave it To HIM!
Good frens doesn't need to talk all the time, they just have to think the same:) See them happy, makes me happy as well.. Bring joy to others... BeInfluencial?not influenced.

2009-07-05T19:49:00.002+08:00

After tt call...
It has all changed, i shall keep it tt way!
AMEN! LORD, thks for ALL of tt! ONCE AGAIN I'M BACK TO U!
Con't to long n desire, thirst n hunger for U, UR pressence n UR words!
I LOVE U LORD, cos U LOVE ME FIRST!muacksssss....(:

2009-06-28T19:33:00.003+08:00

There nth much to update...
Thurs, went to have typhoid jab with kokway, angie, brinz, jeff, n darren(the one who make us wait for 1hr?)-.-
Then went for boaz's b'day celebration lol super cute guy... He simply LOVE ORANGE...
Went hm at 11++...
Fri forgotten wat i did... Sat n 2day went church...
With all the sins i did n stuffs, i dun even know how GOD gonna save me.
But was touched with HIS words... Thks HEAVENLY DADDY
Almost gave myself up..
Messing up my own life...sighs...nvm...

Lookin forward to A.S.K celebration?on tues... & HILLSONG CONCERT!!! WOOOHOOO!

Songs Of the Week~Take It All, Indescribable, Devotion, For All U've Done, At The Cross n songS frm HILLSONG!!!

Lost sheep

2009-06-22T23:53:00.005+08:00

Alright shall update at this time cos bro ask me to??? hahahaha... with tt sarcastic line...

Was readin thru my long long time blogs was kinda like missed those days?
Missing those RELATIONSHIP tts being built within me in GOD.
A last min prayer bein ans by SIS, by callin out HIS name n singin praises...
Tears almost rolled out when readin those posts,
compairin it with now. lost n despaired...
Had been blindly readin HIS words, though HIS words taught me lots of stuffs.
Kinda sad when i can't recall any of the verses, goodness... sighsssssssss...)':
sgc/sgr? sin,guilt,confess/sin,guilt,run.. currently sgr:(

1 week of hols had past, MISSED everyone. My bro, brinz, sher, darren, angie, hanhan, jiahui, eric, aiya simply the WHOLE CLASS...><
But dun think they'll miss me): baddiesssssss... Except Brinz with tt posts... haahaa thks brinz...

I SIMPLY LOVE TINGEN!!! She's super sute...
A.S.K I LOVE U ALL!!! WE ROX the livingroom filled with praises....
oooopsss wat am I doin here???Proclaimin my love to them... shall not let my wife knows ttXP!!!

Faith shaken...

2009-06-19T22:35:00.004+08:00

Another random blog since i'm bored...
Went to grandma's house, played with Boaz didn't really play though,
watch OKTO, some play dough-.- n have lunch n zoom back home.
As mom went out, so was like half-day-care??? lols...
Went there was so tempted of gettin a hair cut... Trim it at least, my hair is super ugly now...
But didn't cos of choosin of hair-dresser at the rite time...
Then reach home read, n off again to swimmin, alone... Sighs Dor, dun be tt late next time ya...
Have dinner, n did as much chores as i can to keep myself busy so tt i can stop thinkin...
Grrrrrrrrr... Super complex feelings... I hate it... cryin.anger.hatred.someone to talk to?
In tt show for tt dancer, for my situation i'm super like her...
STUBBORN!!! N lost everythin...
Cos I wanna swim, dun care how much pain i had for my back...
I lost everythin but thank GOD tt I hope I didn't loose HIM.

2009-06-18T22:30:00.004+08:00

Ytd was borin, other than the dance part hahas
(which was a last min decision, I made the rite choice)
Javin seems to be very noisy the whole day, which he dun does tt usually...
Maybe he's too nervous?excited? for today's church er tong ji camp woohoo...
I'm so wanna help out but i can't...-.-nvm...
Was also waitin for DorDor's msg abt goin swimmin but she wait till I said OK to dance in church with YuLing n all then she msg me. Sorry...
Went to church at 7pm for dance ministry, with YuLing, JingWen, Anqi, n JinChi as well as the teacher. Heard there's more hahas. First time goin for dance ministry it was SUPERB!
Thumbs Up! Then was a little tough to catch up with them with my dumbdumb brain n my ouchy backbone...-.- But thks to my dears YuLing n JingWen who teach me aft class thks dears!
Thank God tt u ans my prayer again. Its time where I've gotta spend mre time with U! Tmr its gonna be a good day to spend with U. I shall give TMR to God...
As for today bro went off to church early with Nich in uncleTony's car for their camp. Woohooo Spendin the whole day out with mummy, spent alot ae! Nv shopped tt long b4, muscle cramp addin ytd's aches. Days of sleepin late, eyes strts to hurt somehow... I'm missin ur nonsense BRO!!! Hol's startin to get bored...
Concentrate on ............ ILOVETHEMALL!!!

2009-06-15T12:20:00.002+08:00

Now a days ppl smood swing super fast-.-
Cos of weather??? Ya, ITS SCORCHIN HOT LA CAN!!!
Can't stand it alr...(sit down then)
Sat, went joggin with Dorothy(DorDor), its been a long time since we ran...
Stamina dropped... sigh... Then went to do sit ups but i can't back bone hurts super lot...
Thks to roller bladin-.- hurt my back TWICE... forever one lo...I'm kinda like afraid tt wat if i hurt my back again then i'll be para????? Goodness man... Wat on earth am I thinkin.???
When reach home was wonderin should I go tq(DiXiongHui), as I nv go for weeks? Yea, then end up nv go again sorry GOD... Cos got family gatherin. Got tricked? As seems like everyone reach at 6++ while tq ends at 6??? Grrr!!! Then the youths were busy listenin songs... Some playin with Nich... While Boaz were watchin fantastic 4 with tt super big screen WOWs! The sound impact was WOOHOO too! Then the whole house super quiet all were focusin on the movie n Boaz who sat in the middle of no where bein the centre of attraction hahas this lil cute guy....
JAVIN IS SUPER NICE TO DISTURB, at least he knows how to pei he me hahahahaha...-.-"
Sun, was superb. A day filled with ans for ALL the doubts n quests i had... Thank U FATHER! Went lunch with TingEn, MeiXin n Yuling. Funny ladies which made us laugh continually. TingEn n I keep singin the deepest voice for Take it all... LOL then we start our ZI HIGH again hahas... Then went home n out again with DorDor for swimmin.. Swim till 7.30pm, saw instructor Taison(tarzan in water&not land) testin the GoldStar... Then ended my day...
As for today, brought bro Aunt's house for tuition then went market with mom. Did cheese cake, tried cheese cake with chilli? hahahs new invention... so anyhows... But yea it tasted quite nice.. Tot of goin to buy things... Shall do tt ltr... Hmmm ask DorDor to cycle with me to there then I can skip joggin n someone to accompany me to buy things hahas... lazy me...

2009-06-12T19:50:00.003+08:00

Ytd was fun but tiring, as we pract our tabasco.
We aren't tt organised yet... Should meet up more often to discuss!!!
Then take same train with Jiahui since he is goin to cityhall...
Jiahui asked me a question which i think till now...
I dun think i answered him the way i think, aft much consideration.
Shall re~ans him next time bahs....
Like marty~I'm lookin for a true fren... N i'm desperately lookin for 1 but thank GOD tt HE loves me as HIS own, cares for me like HIS child and treats me as a fren... BESTEST fren I've ever had... Though HE is a fren of mine, but HE has blessed everyone with a fren a closest fren on earth. But who will it be? still lookin tt particular person... I've once found it but I loose it.

Today was ok ok as we went to sia huat with the whole class, full of kitchen equipments WOW!!! so cool lah, gonna bring my mummy there to see look see look.. hahas..B4 tt while waitin for everyone to arrive Outram park mrt station, we started the day hilariously, by bro/sis with brinz bag n his "niang" actions hahahahas... Aft SiaHuat we went Plaza Sing with half of the class, tot of eatin with others sakea sushi but half way they go their way, so we go ours as the weather is super !HOT! Then Brinz, darren n I went to PS foodcourt to drink thn end up eatin lols... Then Angie, Elton n Waddy came along, next Eric(dear of the day"..."), Hanwei(Brinz dear of the day), lesley. Each eat aft someone finish eatin-.- Then we were playin around all the way to the mrt, super funny la with the 2 horny guys.... Thats how i end my day.....

2009-06-08T19:40:00.005+08:00

HAPPY PIRTHDAY SHERINE!!!

Partying at BISHAN PARK!

Tricked by our magic candles? hahas
suppose to take everyone's unglam moments, while eatin cake w/o forksXp
end up only took this sigh anw its better than nth, best still its the B'day GIRL!!!hahasss
YIPPEEE openin of presents... From~^BRINZ^
Sorry didn't get to take everyone's presents... SORRY...
By~^ME^piggyyyy....

From~^Indra^

From~^Kokway^

Find this picture cute, Oh Sherine cutest part...Nae~ but still the doggy is still cuter than her><

Look at tt 2 on the top of the spider~webby...

We r all gonna climb up to catch u 2....hahaha
not funny...-.-

GROUP PHOTO1... hahas

GROUP PHOTO2, nice rite, of course la, I take wan mah...

Oh goodness man, i become more n more thick skinned... But nvm... hahas

Headin back to my house, aft the GHOST STORIES sharing... Saw this little cute dog with the owner... I'm so goin down whenever i'm free to play with her, she is super cute... though alittle nervous when she saw 1 whole bunch goin towards her watchin her play...

We ended our day by comin to my house... FULL HOUSE man, hahas this is the first time... Thks for visitin N WHERE MY ENTRANCE FEES???? All run away just like tt Xp... But hope all of u had a great time, esp SHERINE.... LOVE ALL OF U...MUACKS... btw many claps to the organiserSSSS...Esp brinz, ckw, jeff n me and all who have joined in too... W/o all of u it won't be this fun...
As for the 6, let this be another chance where i can bring excitement n not boredom to u guys... Sorry...

Song of the week:Planetshakers:Stand in Awe

2009-06-04T21:48:00.004+08:00

At last exams are over...Phew...
Though today suppose to be goin out with brinz, darren, hanhan n wady to land to chilled out.
But rmb of wat mom said things tt let me think for days...
Decided to go home, n rest. Slept for hrs.
I even overslept, super late for the meetin with YingJie...
Sighs so sorry tt i nv go...
Anw tmr goin cathay with them:)yippeeeeI'MGOING!!!

Ppl said i've changed... I know...I'm more n more stubborn... More n more quiet, words dissolved...Some say, emo...dun wanna bond...mute...act soft??? &stuffs...
I prayed lesser n lesser, can even say i nv sincerely pray this week...UNBELIEVABLE!!!
Esp this week strugglin thru day by day, papers by papers...
Didn't went sunday sch last week n did somethin which ppl sure say stupid... I can't run away from prayin, when we were asked to pray, Holyspirit tells me tt it has been a long time since i closed my eyes n talked to GOD. I closed my eyes, n said Lord, I missed the time with u...
Then HE touched my heart, n it dropped end up flowin out... Thks JW(:
YuLing suddenly come tell me abt some past stuffs... Hey dear, no worries haha tt was super long ago alr & I cried TO THE LORD not to myself...
I broke too many ppl's heart n even HIS heart...I dun even say i'm sorry... Even if i say u all will either forgive i not.......Wat am i suppose to do? Bro ask me, did i regret?
Stubbornly i responded. I dunno... Now There's 2 voices in me.
I keep tellin myself i can't i can't... End up bruise n she knows it alr... Consequences...
Regreted? i dunno... I DUNNO!!!
I ans all the ans tts comes from my heart...
She told me, my faith is much stronger then hers, I shook my head n said it was the past...No longer now...Tears start flowin...
She dotes me too much tt she dun bear to scold or hit me... I ask, Y, i did tt cos no one did.
She ask u hate urself? I nodded my head...Tears flow even more...
I need u LORD... Change me, renew me, mould me... Most of all Speak to me... Fill me...

2009-05-28T22:56:00.008+08:00

To the 6 of u the picts of ur unglam photos are out hahahahaha...
Thanks for coming to my church... Most love u all...

2009-05-28T21:23:00.003+08:00

Everyone has been askin me not to be emo even the original emo-er Angie...
Yepps I'm not, I'm startin to isolate myself from the world. Hatin myself even more..
Knowin I've changed super lotssss.
N come on la, to the ppl i see 2 days per week, I can see it.
ITS PRINTED ON UR FACE... tat jialing has changed...
I've tried to change things back, thru prayin, worshippin, singin, sincerely repent, i did everythin but still i'm like tt.. Tryin my best to make a diff...Like we always sang, but nth happens...
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I'm so out of my mind... I've let satan slipped in, I dunno how to turn back to HIM, its hard. I dun wanna cheat HIS feeling anymore, everytime i repent HE throw HIS lovin arms to me but when I feel a slight of HIS touch I drifted away super far away... I'm useless... I'm back to my oldself aft so long, ever since JemYap asked me to stop it till Sunday... I can't feel HIS pressence... I want HIM more... I need HIM. Anyone???

2009-05-28T21:10:00.003+08:00

Things is happening...
I admit i started it... So yea its either it continue n makes me more irritating n disobeyin or watever its gonna happen... PUBLIC APOLOGY IS NEEDED...

I"M SORRY BRINDHA!!! For letting u suffer all this pain, I know its super unfair to u...
Yepps I want u to bond more with them, they r 100times better than me. They knows how to entertain u. Nv like me, being with me is a sufferin i always says tt to all my frens cos I'm agreein to it.I'm a boring kinda person to be frank.. ITS THE FACT. Seeing u with them I'm much happier cos i can see the source of enjoyment is from them. All i want is U to be happy. I can't always talk n eneterain u which makes me even useless... Anw just leave me out:) alright... Luv u as i always do... Giving my best bro to u, n giving my wonderful daughter to my bro...

Back to my quietness.... HOOORAY!!!

2009-05-25T16:36:00.005+08:00

thanks(:
sorry):
isolation)':
truefrens(?)
speechless......
quietness...shhhhh....
words i found in 940's current dictionary...
I wanna see the picts for the telematch... will send to u all when i recieve it:)
byes....

2009-05-19T10:54:00.003+08:00

To both brinz n ckw...
Stop laughin at tt dramatic line of mine ok!!!grrrrr...nae~
I purposely put tt one lo... lol...
Anw its good to be alone too(:Aiya u 2 will not understandXP!!!
I WANT TO BE ALONE!!! shut up!!!Mouth zipped...

Went home with madeline han di ping today:D
n her cute fren... haha at last someone is cuter than her...
Disturbed her the moment we met... She is so nice to disturb she knows how to pei he me...lol...
Non stop chattin n disturbin... She n her "4yrs of frenship hor hor hor..." YayaWateva...-.-"

Shall talk abt sat, went to meet yingjie n aunty yixuan. First time knowin aunty yixuan:)
Glad to know her...(: She say i dun looks like singaporean??? From cold country, thot of ckw n his welcome to beijing... Then went tq, watch madagascar2, TingEn only rmb the line "i've got good news n bad news. Good news is we r landin IMMEDIATELY, bad news is we r CRASH LANDIN..." Hahaha n the "Thank you again for choosin air penguin"hahaha... Sunday was my blur day...Super careless, can forget things in like 5mins...Wat to do i got sstm...blame me...

Wat on earth am i thinkin this few days? Super irritatin...Can't just shut up yea...thks...

2009-05-15T23:34:00.003+08:00

Today was supposed to be bored bored n still bored, but the red bull drink make me super hyper-.-for no reason... Dun even know y i drink it, cos i'm thirsty?
Maybe, with my filled to the brim water bottle rite infront of me...
Can't do pe, sadis... Cos just recover then then ...~~~
Brinz gave ckw doreamon fan n strip, i think out of all his presents doreamon is the most hahas...
Thot we will be goin to the equipment store but cos some got SC so cancelled,
1 for all all for one(: yea man... No one is left behind...
Then end up in demo kitchen to have some class bondin.... Talk n laughssss...
After tt went for lunch, and almost all went to land....
I didn't as usual, sorry guys can't, broke alr... Money dun grow on trees neither it falls frm sky...
Hope u all understand but still sorry...
I wonder y i seems like there's super many things for me to appologise... Am i tt bad? Ya, most prob if not i wouldn't needa say sorry so many timeS... Sigh...
Apologise so much yet i dunno how to apologise to the one who seated at the throne waitin to forgive... sighs.... ????Wat am i thinkin man????
While i'm in the train was all alone haha i deserve itXp ... While walkin home a wind blew n all i have in mind was ...all alone...

2009-05-14T22:15:00.003+08:00

Thanks to all who sent "get well soon" msgs(:
esp to ckw n brinz with all ur everyday msgs...
Haha really needa thank u 2(:brought smiles to my day.
MC for 3days, ma'am fell sick too, class cancelled on tt 3 days too.
Praise GOD. Was super worried tt I'll miss lesson... yepps i did IKP...
Thank GOD good tt the notes they copied were short...
Its all by HIS great work, praise GOD again hahas... I will nv stop praisin...

Being "girlish" is nv my type, though ALOT tried to change me, but i'm still like tt.
Wanna say ThankU n I'm sorry... I will try harder to change...

First day of lettin tt broken frenship handle by GOD,
hmmm somehow got a slight movement... Yea praise GOD...
Trustin n believein tt it will happen again... Will keep on prayin...
Let HIM handle this matter FULLY... Amen?Amen!

2009-05-10T15:50:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! to all mothersssss:D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Kokway n Yuling...
Sorry ckw can't go Angie's house to celebrate with u all...
My mum fell sick so gotta stay at home to take care of her ytd,
cos bro went tuition at grandma house with nich...
Do housework, read GOD's word n listen songs...
Can't wait to go to church to meet YingJie for some prayer session...
I'm so excited to go back to the same old days where i'm with some bros n sis in Christ to learn n to do some sharin...
I learnt ALOT from her ytd, Thks Yingjie:)
The writin out of GOD's word n calmin down of heart is useful man!
Now GOD is trying to make everything clear in me. I gets to relate n link everythin I know, see, hear n all the knowledge GOD gave me to HIM. GOD plans everything for HIS purpose, HE makes no mistake! All I needa do is to surrender my all to HIM , be honest n faithful. Start to cheer for HIM for HE is the one who lives n control me. Praise HIM, worship HIM for HE is worthy for our praise! Putting HIM as my PRIORITY, SPIRIT controls my SOUL then my BODY(flesh) shall do wat is commanded...I trust u LORD, U can do it! I will not hesitate nor doubt but keep praisin n say AMEN! to all works done... The victory is ours, but its is said thru grace The war is HIS but the victory is ours. AMEN! THANKYOU FATHER! LOVEYOULORD! Draw me closer to YOU!
I know wat does it means to "bringin ur heart to the kitchen"(FOCUS)
& also "Let GOD works in us"(stand back, & see wat the LORD will do, cheer for HIM keep praisin HIM, fill our hearts with praises...)
Today went to church, thks to YingJie again for she told me how to conquer the situation i'm facin, true enough we didn't meet. ThankU FATHER i start to see how u work... Praise U again!
JingWen n our marryin thingy haha n SiXian gets jealous oh... dun be sad... hahaha
Can't stop laughin n smilin when i see them(:Luv all of u manz!
Haha i think some might not understand wat i'm bloggin abt rite... its alright someday u will i, think... I'm sick too, super afraid I can't go to sch tmr... LORD, I rest in U!!U shall take the rest..

2009-05-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

Today was filled with weird weird feelins... Weird me...Ran on the track mill for pe woohooos aft so long...Kokway , brinz wanna play ping pong but end up others playin hahas,wasn't with them for i dunno y... Reasonless...(no such word)Aft pe, went canteen too think of where to go for lunch while waitin for some slowpokesssss...Then decided to go to City Vibe, Kokway keep on sayin the chi ver. i was like huh?Anw we went there for both lunch n land...
Wow first time seein me goin to such places-.-6 of us went for lunch while others went up to play,it took us 15mins just to decide wat to eat sub/long/mos.At last mos haahaa great, Brinz bought outside food then join us... vanilla ice cream with fried brownies yum yum... Haha thks lady...Then went up to arcade first i got nth to play, as usual...Then got bored proceed to land,
Kokway let me tried the audition all i could say I sux at it...I can't follow up always few beatS slower lookin at the animation standin there like a statue...I was like hello can u move??? Anw thks bro:)Then JiaHui let me try Left 4 dead...
Wooohooos man! That was scary man! Zombies from all over the places can jump can alot of stuffs... but one thing gross... Haha Jiahui was insultin us by callin our names while shootin the zombiessss.The fat one prime choice super gross lo... DISGUSTING!
WHen u r nervous on somethin u wouldn't know wat words will come out from ur mouth...I was almost... But thank God again...Lord, how this words r kept in my mind wash them out, cleanse me, search my heart,Lord.
Ppl says tt "Ppl take 3days to learn bad things, but take 3yrs to turn back."
For me"I take 3 secs to learn bad things and need dunno how many 3s to turn back..."
I can't always say n do nth, There's something for me to do. Lord father, show me UR way.

2009-05-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

Today my left eye twitch alot.... Yea its alot...
Went IMM in the mornin to buy stuffs from giant ofr the pract of tabasco comp,
with HanWei, elton n Brinz(helper to help us carry thingsXP).... haha guys always gotta wait for the gals...
Brinz took so long...
Then didn't know tt we will meet so many of the others haha so happy then went to Mac for breakfast. Then off we go for some shoppin n discussion.
Darren came n meet us haha great.
Reach sch super early went in to kitchen super early just to prepare.
Then start... Was struggling kkz u do this u do tt.. Kkz i try this u try tt...-.-
HanWei super funny lo...
Then was tryin to cut poke thru the sotong plastic bag,
aim wrongly went straight into my thumb.... OOOHH AHHH!!!
Thanks remster for helpin me to bandage it up... N thks for ur concern:)
Got this numb numb uncomfortable feelin which makes me wanna press on my wound...
Then in the train was thinkin again... Kept quiet talkin to myself while listenin to both music n the hilarious gays n brinz...

Sunddenly ask myself am i a good fren?
No, I'm a failure... I'm nv be there for them when they needed someone first...
Is either i'm too blur or I dun care...
Useless me...
Loosing frens, tt I can't find a way to bring them back...
LORD, I'm calling out to U...
A.S.K is thirsty for ur pressence, Lord, help us plan where we can meet someday...
If u r willing...
L noticed the difference from the way we thot... The msg shocked me, stucked in this situation...

N for u I dunno leh,

I wanna build back this frenship.

U tried, i retreat, I tried u retreat. How is this goin to go on.
Once in a while, thank GOD, HE bring us back. But days ltr its gone... How sad can this be...
U know wats right yet follow the wrong... I'm left with sigh...speechless... Thot u'll stand for the rights... I think I'm wrong...
Lord, all I left is u...Thank U for showin me UR strength thru my weakness...
Show us the way...

2009-05-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

Ytd have family gathering, thot its gonna be bored.
Cos its been some time I didn't see them,
for some valid reason(: TQ!!!!hahaha...
It always falls on Sats...
Anw yepps had buffet at some dark dark restuarants,
which make uncles and aunts can't see...lol
They shift their table n left us the teens haha
JiHao, XinYi, Javin n me.
We were tryin to stop Jav from eatin too much oh goodness...JAV!!!!
Then Nicholas the 2nd youngest came n join us haha he got lots of can't finish stories...
Can sleep los... nich, gotta teach u to say it short n funny hahas.
Daryl 2nd elders came hahas the whole table is filled with our non~stop laughters...
Haahaa thks to me which make them started laughin... then next was Jav haha laugh with no reason but yet we all still laugh... HAHA laugh at the question marks on our faces created by Daryl's cold cold joke... meant for adults...-.-
TT table is for teens jokes ok! hahas relax relax...

Today was great hehe I felt happy on the outside but in the very deep of me i wasn't feelin tt way. Thanks Kas for tt eeeewwwooooooahhh romantic msg...
N tt Brinz use my phone to msg Kas, now she is naggin over the phone...
For one last time i'm sayin I DUN FLIRT!
Is the girls come to me when i'm in DEYI! And now its diff alr...
All thks to Brinz la!!!! grrr......
Kas u wanna talk to my mom hahahahas....Xp Jatti n choli conversation....

I hope it'll get any better...
Pray tt the ending won't be like "rainbow connection"(Wu Chu Cai Hong)
Dancing alone... on a stage rather than with her partner. Cos of proud???
Lord, humble me pls... Knowin tt I'm not humbled enough.

2009-05-02T18:23:00.000+08:00

This week cn say i was struggling with my confidence,
after ma'am saw the lack of confidence in me.
Thanks ma'am n all the chefS from CA...
Thanks for all of ur encouragementS n MotivationS...
U guys helped me ALOT. i'll try to climb up myself one day.
Esp many thanks to Brinz, Kokway(CODY/bro), Darren, Remster...
Thank GOD tt i know all of u... U all play an important part in my life.
Ytd went to play pool with Kokway n the rest.
Was fun at first when i tried learning from the PROS... KOKWAY,ANGIE,INDRA.
Shall admit tt I'm slow learnin all things... sigh speechless...
Then felt sian cos i still dunno how to play sigh... But thanls to CKW again for makin me laugh hahas. But aft answering Brinz call felt guilty and worried. SO sorry Brinz.
I can't be a good fren, for both incidence, I can't help u/ comfort u/ n many many more...
I'm so bad at this, I can't make this happen again.
LORD, I need u....
Thanks bro for reminding me tt HE is always there when I need HIM most.
Today was bored w/o binz, kokway,darren,remster.
But thanks tt Sherine n Angie was there hahas.
THE NARUTO CAR WAS COOL!!!lol...
Was please to meet Chef ERIC...

2009-04-26T15:05:00.000+08:00

~Suffereing children are safe in HIS arms...

~God make things happen for a purpose NOT in purpose...

~Why do u look so unhappy? I wasn't, i was just thinking, & i can't do two things at once...
-I agree with this ppl like to ask me this....weirdo...

Today didn't go church, can't open my eyes.
After sleepin at 12++ for nightSSS....Regrets...
Mummy ask me to slp more if not i'll get sick for sure. Can't let this con't...
Can't let mummy worry anymore... As well as HEAVENLYDADDY!!!
I'm sorry HEAVENLYDADDY... ILOVEYOU! BEAUTIFUL SAVIOUR!!!U ROX!
Lord, break the curse... Break that chain...
This generation must rise...
God must increase n I must decrease...
Quiet down my heart... Be still N know HE is our GOD,our saviour...
I must Keep praying...

2009-04-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

My sharing hahas- I started my week badly, Monday had pract, we were supposed to cook 4 dishes but 4 of my dishes failed...Sigh... Its like every single day or week, i'll be going to school with full confidence but goin home with an empty heart. Though Ma'am nv scold me, I still felt super bad&guilty cos she is so patience with me yet I still disappoint her. When I reached home I was super sad that I cried out to the Lord. Asking HIM why this why that... Was hoping for an answer. The next day while doin QT I read tt, when our mind were filled with DOUBTS, we tend to focus on ALL the possible BAD outcomes. Our fears, worries,&trust in God fluctuate as we wait, we pray, we grieve&wonder wat the LORD will do. But knowing that HE's a powerful GOD who cares for us. HE will always make a way.

2009-04-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

Sorry for keepin u ppl waitin, was super lazy...
Ask tt kokway help me blog but nv, zhi!

This few days just feel like keep quiet,
sorry again, Brinz not tt i dun wanna eat nonsence pill or there's anythin within me...
No No No, I'm fine thks for ur love n concern dear....
Just thot someone will ever care... Yepps nth happen... & i think its over...
Left Speechless... It'll nv be the same...): criessss????

But thank God, i still have Brinz, Kokway, Darren, & many more, thks ppl:) lovessss....
U ppl bring joy into my life....
LAUGH NON-STOP!!! thks=D....
Wo Yao Da Ping Pong...Mombaidah india* (???brinz how to spell arh???)...haha...

Mom lecture me aft knowin i didn't take lunch on Mon,
still can rmb wat she said...Thks mummy....I'm sorry....
Almost fainted tt nite haahaa...
Told her wat really happen, to my failures she told me, CONFINDENCE&FOCUS...
Focus is wat I'm lack at when i know it, I made a prayer...
Thank You HEAVENLYDADDY, for answering it...

2009-04-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

This week super weird, don't looks like me at all lo...
Talk super lot!!! If wanna talk then talk super lot, then if dun wanna talk keep super quiet.
But will always get influence by the class, a class filled with nonsence and laghters.....
Actually in a moody mode then cos of CKW, who always imitate my weird weird laughters... & use all kinds of ways to make me laugh... hahaha
Which brings me back to the laughing mode... thks bro:D
Brinz also another one, though we said not to talk but still.... We talk NATURALLY!
Ma'am also, keep saying my fish got langka by car, see la make me laugh tiill face turn red...
Then my sun burn make my face even red-der? Its so pain, like burnin my cheeks...
Today was great, just tt the stove give me probs early in the morning, n the scene beside me which i dunno y but can't stand it.... Was almost gonna shoot out "words" man...
Thank God, HE hold my tongue back...
All my emotions clashed tgt, anger/sad/emo but wanna be hyper...
And it all summed up to the weird weird me...
As wat hanwei tt donkey said Jocelyn u today very noisy i can't stand it alr...
Yepps fully agree... Can't stand then sit...-.-
Can't stand myself too. I'm not myself...
Then my emo doodling paper was confiscated by (not lecturer)
thks for tt note too...
Knowin tt anyone who reads, gonna kill me...
But still so sorry.... Especially ppl ard me... Shall stop thinkin abt all this aft this incidence which breaks my heart.....
DUN EVER GIVE IT TO MY WIFE!!!
She'll sure skin me alive...
As for my SISss if u 2 read i will confirm+chop u 2 gonna "seh" me...
So daughter for the sake of me either tear/burn(as a souvenier to the dustbinXp) or return me(BEST)then i can frame it n put in my room yea???
As for tt gay, u this"innocent" kid shall cont. our teasing tmr manXp stop using ur slang u can't win me, gay...Dun make me use tt word if not u will be dead... & u shall stop using it too... For goodness sake!!!

2009-04-14T10:43:00.000+08:00

Back to school, miss everyone, as wat i knew the class will be back to the noisy mood.
Holiday mood have not really gone yet...
Was madly laughin at all the nonsence tt my class gave...hahahaha
Went back to the kitchen, my confidence was built a little by God's grace,
then lookin at my fish-.-" sigh... super embaracing can sigh....Sadis...
Then everything went alright, but my headache came back can't even open my eyes...
I'm like sleep walkin all the way to mrt...
MANY TAHNKS to ma'am, brinz, remster, wee ping, jeff...
And the whole grp of u... THANKS for ur care n concern...
Was blaming myself why am I so weak, telling myself tt I dun deserve this care and everything, i'm super useless tt I can't do anything...My old self was back...

TT irritatin word keep appearing in my mind n when i open my mouth it'll come out.
Almost killed myself cos of tt word, then the testimony remind me of God,
returning back to HIM, confess everything, miraculously the word disappear in my mind.
AMEN!
My daughter said she gonna slap me if i'm gonna do it, reminds me of ameera who did tt cos of the evil thoughts i'm havin... I must rebuke those thoughts!

2009-04-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

Good Fri had a great time,
went to AMK hub for service?
Yeah its was AMKMC eng service, youth service, coool!
All the songs they sing had waken my spiritman in me,
the sermon was even best everything went into my head,
but sorry Lord I admit tt Idoze off again...): So sorry shldn't have stay up late tt nite b4...
Didn't went for the chinese talk cos thot i'll be goin for the class proj.
In the end both also did not turn cos its rainin heavily
& the meetin they change it to jurong east library.
Which is like super weird if i'm goin there n
then comin back to AMK then go back to Woodlands to M's church.
Lighthouse church... Miracles Healing...
M brought a batallion to church man! haha also not she call them she just incharge to bring us there yet talk so much haha jkjk... But still many claps to her, good job SIS!
L came along too A.S.K IS BACK!!!! The greetings we did is bad!
L, brush up on ur greetings la! Memorize GOD's word!!!
The songs were great though have nv heard any of them,
my spirit was moved and the dance was great was singing with my hands opened wide...
My eyes were both at the lyrics and the dance,
my heart was filled with HIS pressence, overflowing love n joy was within me...
AND MY SPIRITUAL EYES WERE ONCE OPENED AGAIN!AMEN!!!!
Thanks to pastor rony! & the testimony of ChenLiPing& her husbandRayson...
There's so much to share (not many) cos its UNCOUNTABLE man!!!
Thank U HEAVENLYDADDY for all the blessingSSSSS tt u'd put them in my life....
Even today the sturggle to go for service or not,
cos there's so many reason for me not to go, but still I went!
FOR JUST ONE REASON! GOD!IloveHIM,I'll do anything just to please HIM!!!

2009-03-31T21:47:00.000+08:00

Went shoppin with mummy,
first went to woodlands(spent super much on clothes la),
then to sunplaza(I ate super slow dunno y-.-),
and back to AMK hub(saw TingTing haha, oh man tt pretty lady today last day,YYYY??)
Go everywhere listenin to the familiar songs haha...
Super nice, seems like i'm back with Brinz, everytime play those songs....

Left n leavin with 1 song each haha shall laugh sacarstically...
ANW THKS!!!!Will keep this memory with me always:)

2009-03-30T20:57:00.000+08:00

First day of the second week's holiday....
Start to miss ppl alr haha...
Brinz! Bro! DO RE MI bros! Aiya simply the whole class la!
Brinz busy with the SIA thingy,
Bro busy with dunno wat...(bro, tell me wat ya busy at)
Remster busy workin in the kitchen(seriously like the "remy" in the ratatouille)
Wife(Kasthuri) busy hating his macho future bf(stop flirtin la)
Haha listen to her complainin of me flirtin lol!
Thks arh wife..... I dun flirt as much as last time(yea flirtin with the gals in my class-.-)
Ok fine i'm pollutin my blog goodness sake...
Grandpa(Sufiandi) busy with his performance-.-4ever...
M busy shoppin with the chi gals, same to L......Can nv stop shoppin for once!!!!!
Today went back to Deyi to accompany Sufiandi(grandpa), Kas(wife) & Anisah...
Wasted $2 for donatin to the sch band yea...
All thanks to Grandpa talk so muchXp, and thks for tt flyin kiss, sux!
Then he went off leavin the 3 ladies in sch roamin ard...
Roam to dnt room haha then saw one of my fav tcherS,
Mr Suko chatted with him for hrs, seems like Anisah is doin the talkin...
I'm like sittin down like nobody's business...
Yey Mr suko is happy tt at least we didn't forget abt him hahaha...
Won't la... Though i nv go to the bbq they organised, cos i'm sick thks kor and sis for understandin...Dun have to explain for me...Yea I said it!
I've been listenin to Hillsong-Dessert,
simply rox, hummin till tears gonna drop out.
Lord, knowin today wasn't a good start...

Ignorance..................................................................................... fine i need to be ignored....................................

2009-03-27T13:23:00.000+08:00

1st week of hols are finishin, SUPER FAST!!!
Mon and tues was chalet with my beloved class,
haha took lots of weird weird picts.... haha super unglam...
That nite we ton, walkin all over the place to red house in the whole nite...
My eyes is like half closed... Legs are like jelly...
Super long walk, its bored too...
Thanks remster for being by my side all the time for tt long walk...
But compare this chalet and the cathay i think i preferred the cathay...

I'm so bored......
Hols are here, not gonna take my nonsence pill again...
Confirm emo, cos I"M BORED... OH man just shut up!
Lord, give me somethin to do...

Thks brossss, I think i dun wanna think tt way...
I know something will happen, better watch out first.....

Sometime i really feel tt I'm annoyin ppl,
forgive me if u see a sudden tt i'm quiet.
(And remster dun ask me this quest again kkz... Cos u r not!Dumb Ass hahahahaXp)
Cos the thought i have was i'm irritating ppl,
tts y i'm keepin my mouth shut...
And thru how I talk to u, from ur response i know i'm stubborn, i'm sorry...

2009-03-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

This week is a lecture week, kinda like slackin...
Everyday sit on the chair puttin my head on the table...
Then the moody feeling comes and go...

I was happy to know tt M had forgotten abt wat was botherin her,
and she felt HIS pressence, Praise the LORD, was happy for u dear:)
But when I read tt msg, the question in my head was what abt MY relationship with HEAVENLYDADDY,
can simply say tt it far...
Gotta put my focus on GOD, during this hols...
BUT HOW?????????? I NEED HELP!!!! Its seems stupid to say it here......

I knew tt i've changed... Thks for tellin me the truth...
Can say u're the first person who say i've change,
everytime i'll be the one beggin ppl to tell me tt...
(Not sayin anythin but THKS(:this is true frens kkz...)
But where?
Lord, i think u ALONE can ans this quest....
I need AN ANS!
Frankly speakin though I'm puttin a smile on my face but tt smile will nv last long...
I KNOW, COS ITS ME! laughin out loud...
I simply can't ans any quest of this prob...
Thks for tellin "dun worry so much lah"
Lord, bless me tears, for i know U've drained all my tears away,
But i need it pls......... DADDY plsssssss....................
I think i dun need it alr since it won't solve the prob also,
it just lighten my heart but i dun mind liftin tt heavy weight in my heart.... Used to it alr...

Spendin one whole day with my mummy and bro....
Shoppin and eatin...lol growin fats in process...
I really wanna jog, though my leg hurts...

2009-03-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

Today was great,
went for interview in the mornin for the Student Council thingy...
Was wonderin SC only mah y needa interview...
Super wierd lo...
SUPER SCARY also butterfly all in my stomach...
9 SC interview me...-.-
Ask so many chim question........
Was like uhm-ing alll the way.(knowin tt i can't get in, cos I can't get serious AT ALL)
Doin all the nonsence stuff infront of them...

Then everythin done at 12++ super early la can...
Then we decided to go for lunch outside sch,
went to eat the cheater kfc 2.90 meal haha... Took a few weird weird photosXp
Then Remster come meet us then go for IKP...
IKP was short too...
Then waited for the DO RE MI bros to finish their project super funny la them...
When the DO RE MI nonsence put tgt their nonsence will make everyone laugh till stomachache.. Agree Brinz?hahahaha...
And i make "DO RE MI bros" is when we were walkin to MRT station...
Accordin to their heights haha but NO OFFENCE plsssssss......
I said this cos when u guys were alkin in one straight row, its "cute&funny" hahaha...Xp
NO OFFENCE.....

2009-03-12T20:17:00.000+08:00

This few days weird weird one....
Ytd phase test, but everyone spelt it as "face" test lol....
Haha i'm super slow gotta agree with it!
Last few to get out of the kitchen not very satisfied with my speed
but as for my food THANK GOD, tt HE had bring me thru this test.
At last my poach egg has passed! THANK GOD!
And tt remster who has been my "nanny" for the day...hahahaha
Forcing me to eat(thks to mummy for tellin him i ALWAYS skip lunch) and he keep on testin me all the recipes...
Almost rmb everythin but just tt one step i forget to do and tts it!
But I still wanna Thk DADDY for givin me the wisdom to rmb everythin.
That remster made my face red for THREE times!
For THREE mistakesss i made durin test...

Today Thank God i finish everythin in time and i'm kinda faster than ytd,
everyone is nicely eatin the left over carved chicken ITS YUM YUM!!!
I talked to her today she's like she wanna me to ignore her,
I dunno how to persuade her to talk to me again.
Like how we had fun together when we met each other,
knowin tt i've hurt her alot! I'M SORRY!
Dun treat me this way pls, it hurts me lotssss.
Its not all Brinz fault too, i created the hurt to her first...
I feel super bad now, i dunno how tell me how, LORD!

Tmr whole goin Cathay cinema for bondin yippeeee... haha
Everyone is like wonderin wat to wear and thks arh Brinz for sayin i'm wearin skirt.
I'm not... Still not used to it yet. Slowly kkz...
Now whole class thot i'm wearin skirt, sigh.......NONSENCE!

All i can do is to pray pray pray and pray.
Ignore wat others say, wat ever holy thingy. STOP INSULTING!
And dun feel anythin for its my all about my life.
For being a Christian its not just a religion,ITS A RELATIONSHIP!
When u r one u'll undrestand.
Cryin to the Lord for HELP......
But still thks HIM for i always feel so blessed. LOVE YA HEAVENLY DADDY!

2009-03-06T20:03:00.000+08:00

Ma'am said i'm too quiet again... everytime nv ask quest,
then the outcome wasn't very good.
I'm sorry, i've tried my best.
Now only remster and Andrew knows wat really happen, gotta explain to Brinz(rems help me explain).
Remster and I had somehow got the same prob,
but the diff is mine is pract and his is theory.
Goodness I'm gonna help him in his theory, and he gotta help me in my pract...
Haha close frens are like tt helpin each other in all ways rite:)

I've been neglecting God and my family,
spendin time on things tts not "worthy"...
I've gotta put all this down!
Gotta stop thinkin of the negative side of me, as its satan tts bringin me down.
I've gotta stand firm in UR name, nv be ashamed of who U are to me.
Yea i've gotta!
SHIT AHLIAN need counsellin???
haha GOD, my mom&bro and frens are alrd my couselor... i've been nominated??? btw i'm not tt good as wat they think...

Today my class super horny, all the wires connect wrongly...(wire jiap sala)hokien?
Mad, especially the true or dare super funny la,
and in the mornin too Jenny started it first.
Ask nonsence jokes... haha we just laugh and explainin to Brinz wat does it means...haha NONSENCE!As if i know???hahaha guys should explain tt q: